felt like a stupid crap for not seeing this selfish world carefully. how could i lose my glass of defense and let this kind of truth hit me so hard? im beyond words, this had really taken me by shock.

guess im so much smarter then, why am i even so naive?


your not a good person

you're never.

my reccomended video of the day =) hope you guys LOVE it!

girlgirl was finally discharged from hospital today, thought she was okay and the recovery was a success. bad news came around 7pm when dearest called and said something else happened. hopefully things will get better in the coming days.

my love, you will be okay.

loves

Just got home after a trip to the emergency ward for girlgirl. she was vomiting non-stop for the whole day and it made dearest damn worried. she was less energetic like how she used to be and her temper got worse. perhaps the uneasiness had gotten into her, that might be logical to explain her eccentric behaviour.
so with little time for any thoughts, we sent her over to the nearest vet hospital. the moment we reached and left her on the floor, she was running around and sniffing like how she would normally. -.- WHAT A SICK DOG UH?
the bill eventually came up close to 300bucks!
though its not cheap but its worth it to know that girlgirl is doing great , the problem is a small issue.

lovelove!

now shes sleeping next to me,
im relieved to know shes fine.

i feel this strain inside my body. it seemed like something is choking me inside, making it harder and harder for me to breathe. perhaps something is wrong with my lungs. no, this uneasiness is coming straight from my heart.

feeling the heat right now, its all the tension that Ive been suppressing all the time..

there's a gut feel that something is wrong and i couldnt pin-point what is exactly the problem that cause so much disturbance to me.

work harder this time.

wee

Old blogger posting board is down. Tried the method to reverse the effect taught by Judy inside her blog but failed! Guess im a complete computer idiot and all these stuff seemed alien to me. Now im trying the blog draft version, hope that im able to publish this successfully.

Have not really updated my blog for awhile, so i will just do one right now =)

My dearest sister has went to tekong for her BMT training. There were initial plans on bringing huizhen and i to Tekong on her first day. Sadly the plans were spoilt due to the outbreak of H1N1. since the virus was deemed as 'UNSTOPPABLE', guess the best way to minimise the harm is to restrict the number of vistors in order to prevent the spread of virus.

She has been there since god knows when. I miss her dearly and hope to see her soon! She sent me the note before she left for her 'mission'. haha.

Yes, i love you too okays.

BGM was rather fun this year =) The KBox session at safra and free nelgene bottle. HEHEHE. Wenghua and i stuck together for most of the day. Poor wenghua has to listen while i complaint about Huizhen Pangseh us. HAHA. there were many new faces at YEC that i never seen before. I bet they were thinking 'who the hell is this member?' when they saw me. YES I KNOW IT, it was written all over their faces. DAMN! i really need to attend the meetings more often. Wenghua and i sang to our hearts delight at KBox. Need to do it lah! so many people over there, so little time. Kbox not cheap hor! hahaha.

This month is filled with lots of events that is rather anticipating. Hope to meet up with vicky and shiying soon. erm...... i guess thats about all the excitment for this month.

July has briefly passed us and its time to work even harder!

Im looking for a better sky,

Wish me luck!

Im looking for a better sky. wish me well.

hearts!

Now i'll be going ' OH! I SEE!'

this is the type of life you want. OH! I SEE! the differences in opinions, i no longer wish to waste my time to talk about things. talking out and trying to make things better. Why do that when in the end its gonna turn out to be the same. we will always be stuck at the same old point.

OH! I SEE!

if this is what you want, go on then. do whatever that pleases you, it no longers bother me. as each day passes, it feels like i couldnt care more and more.

ya, so go on. Make My Life Easier.

OH! I SEE!