Life is in a mess.

It appears that im sinking into a deep pool of misery and at the same time im pulling you in. Im sorry. theres nothing much i can do for myself, my life is being controlled and im the joke over here. i hate it and i cannot do anything.

its only the 14th day of the month and i spent ALL my allowance. Now living on credit and hopefully things will get better........ I need $$$!!

blah blah blah blah..

anyway lia has went into tekong there was NO CALLS, NO MESSAGE from her since yesterday. She promised and THERES NOTHING! kns.................................person.

tired.
time for maths

the level of stress is building up once again.

it feels like i have so little time, what can i do?

work, work work!

Its scary how greed is able to consume one's moral values. Worse when the greed morphed into ignorance and selfishness in one. It would be more suitable to say that it didn't morphed, some people just choose not to see it and pretended that all the excuses are correct.

My reasoning became your excuses, your excuses are bullshit to me.

The worst is that you not only hurt the people whom had loved you unconditionally, you have also hurt everyone else who loved them. I always said that i wouldnt think that you are 'kelian', your just simply 'kebei'. do you even bother to find out the difference? i guess not. you do not deserve all the sympathy others gave you. YOUR THE REASON WHY YOUR IN SUCH A SORRY STATE.

guess you will always stay the way you are, blaming everyone else but yourself for all the failures n mishap you experienced. so stop shedding your crocodile tears infront of me. i promised myself to remain unmoved no matter what happens, i gave up on you. everything that i owe you had been returned. for all the disappointments, torment, pain and tears that you caused, it was all the installments for what i owed you.

just stop saying that you love me the most, how come you are always hurting me then?

thats the end, life goes on.

Starhub just made a call to me... TO FREAKING REMIND ME TO PAY THE FREAKING BILL!
I swear that i will cancel the freaking line as soon as the contract ends. SUCH a big company yet kept pestering me nonstop about the bill. No wonder SINGTEL will always be NUMBER ONE, starhub doesnt even come near.

I hate starhub.
( no idea how many times i said this, saying it one more time to emphasize my degree of hate.)

saw the invitation for gen's birthday celebration yesterday. Unfortunately, it falls on the same day where i have already promised Hongu to celebrate his birthday together. lets see what happens bah? i really wished to go for both the celebrations =))

Its your life, do whatever you want to. for all the things you have done brought nothing but disappointment and lost hopes towards yourself. i dare not wish for anything else but a peaceful life from today onwards. dont bother with your small little tricks trying to get my attention, i seriously dont even bother or have desire to talk to you. if you would, just get out of my life and dont even appear infront of me. we shall live our lives in peace, thats all.

used.

Picture taken on 28th Aug 2007

Its really amazing how i feel while looking through the old pictures.

Perhaps 22months had been a really long period of time to make me forget how happy i was holding onto your hands.

i guess i didnt forget, the happy feeling had changed into a sense of security and trust.

I can always count on you to pull me back if i lost balance,

now im happy in a different way.

whenever i saw an old couple holding their hands together,

I always asked ' Will you be holding my hands even when we are old and my skin is wrinkled?'

you will patiently answer 'yes, i will'.

As of today, you had been faithfully keeping this promise of yours. =)

Thanks for holding on in a different sense.

<3

Photoupdates!
Lia's bbq =)

my love!

both of my love!!! =))


Girlgirl's birthday

luge ride

gift from dearest =)




ah gua facial

transition of jiayou.

see how much he have grown up?

children are really amazing =)




graduation of lovely aiais!

enjoy!

Just received a message from Hongu which he apparently sent to the wrong person. however it is a good thing that the message bares a good thing! My dearest aiai is becoming an uncle soon! Gosh!! congrats congrats. Here wishing Uncle Hongu to have a great time becoming a good uncle! its not easy but YOU CAN DO IT UNCLE HONGU!! =))

The last 4 days had been simply amazing and i had lots of fun! Im really happy with all the excitement and joy that was brought to me. Most thankful to MrHappiness ( aka mr lorrylongcar) who had been extremely supportive throughout the time. I always wondered why friends and loved ones morphed into a bad temper creep whenever they are driving. Even though im a victim of it right now, i still do not have a clue what was actually injected into me during the course of it. HAHAHAHA. maybe its something call 'basic instinct' or perhaps driving itself is an angry virus.

thanks to all the people whom i have met the last 4 days, it was simply amazing.

to all the gan-mas of girlgirl,
my girl's birthday is tomorrow, so any present(s)?

saw an award deserving acting just now, im truly appalled by it. why must a family degrade into such unspeakable situation? why must i be forced to drive you to the end of your wits inorder to make you understand? its painful for me, i think im losing the sight of the actual you whom i used to know. why cant you come back to your old self? why let things changed? why? why? why? why must you force me to hurt everyone like this? i hope you would do something about yourself, this cannot go on.

disheartened.