im sick now....

last night was even worst. i was running high fever. i paled and my cheeks was a little pinkish. ( can you believe it?) after that i got worst and my whole face turned red and i look like i am drunk. i couldnt sleep the whole night and i was feeling like shit. let me be honest at this point. i cried. i was really uncomfortable. the worst part was my mom was telling me off when i sat in the living room alone in the midnight. i know that she is concerned about me. but i really need encouragements better than that.

im feeling less shit-off compared to yesterday.. but i am really tired.. i couldnt sleep at all.. =c

feel that this is some kind of punishment or something. since i like to bullshit so much and talk nonsense. the virus decided to invade me when i am at my weakest point and give me a cold that affected my throat. it really hurts to even sneeze. feel a sharp pain on my shoulders and neck whenever i sneeze.

as each day pass, the holidays is closer to its end.. but before that, christmas is coming. i really dont give a damn about christmas or anything. im not a christian so i wouldnt spend my time going to city harvest.

your birthday is the special one. i know you wouldnt be reading this but.. i would still want to wish you the best of luck.. really learn alot of things from you.. things i never knew. i really dont know why you are so special to me. you are rooted in my heart.. so deep that nothing can be replaced. i only hope that your happy right now. that is the only thing i can do.. the sunshine you once thought was the source of your life now has become the reason why you are hurt.

this would be one of the 'nicer' entry i blog. = D enjoy