this entry was supposed to be published yesterday. but i when i was blogging i decided to stop and go sleep. i was fucking tired okay?

i went to the doctor (AGAIN). apparently i am free from all the worries about lung cancer or any nose-related cancer. which is good. so all the nose bleeding is just some skin which came off in my nose. anyway the doctor suggested me two ways to stop my nose from bleeding. maybe you would want to try it?

1) Put ice in a plastic bag and rub it around the nose area to let the blood vessels shrink.

hmm... good way. but what if i am in school? there is no way i can get ice in the toilet. so here comes the second way

2)Roll the tissue paper and stick it in your nose

-.- it doesnt matter if i do that at home. i always do weird things at home and i am rough at home. nobody cares even if i stick my toe in my nose. but the same question comes. WHAT HAPPENS IF I AM IN SCHOOL? no way i am gonna do that. NO WAY!

forget it.. i guess i will just bleed to death or something.

the secondary ones for next year came to school to register today. i was helping this lady and her child guiding their way out and carry one bag. (damn heavy) so the lady was reprimanding her child for choosing this school as she lives in CCK and our school seemed to be a thousand miles away. but there is a direct bus from CCK to the bus-stop just outside our school , so it doesnt seemed to a problem to me. so the girl tries to defend herself and me, being stupid again said something that i shouldnt

Girl: nevermind lah. i will wake up at 6 o'clock every morning
Lady asking me: 6'o clock can reach here meh?
Me: I think can. cause i wake up at 5 plus every morning also what.
Lady: you live far meh?
Me: No, very near.

stupid me.. scare the lady even more. haha. but i tried to explain the ' NO DIRECT BUS' from my house to school. but i think the lady wouldnt get it in her head i guess? haha

went to watch Phantom of the Opera. before that something unpleasant happened. but forget it. Didi, i really didnt blame you for anything. i did not put it in my heart at all..

Phantom of the Opera is really an excellent movie ( i feel that). some of the lyrics of the songs are really hard to catch but they really sing really well. Anyway, i feel that the female leading actress is really beautiful. she looks like she was taken out from the acient story book or something. true beauty. =D her eyes are really nice.

The phantom is also not bad looking ( half of his face ) haha. if in real life is he 10 years younger, he would be a hunk~ haha.

i cried a few times and as the movie is nearer to the end, i my tears kept rolling down. it's really sad when the whole society discriminate you for how you looks. LIKE ME!! UGLY.. the phantom's love was really really deep and all he yearns for is the girl. everything he did was for her.. anyway you cant blame the girl either. phantom has been doing it in the dark and she doesnt know that it's him and his feelings for her. i think that christine will still be in love with the GUY ( forgot the name) even if there is no phantom. so... put it in the harsh way

Phantom's feelings = One sided love.

if this story is true, then it is really pure misery for the phantom. did he asked for the way he is born to be like? no.... if he had the choice, he would also want to have a FULL smooth face and be like a normal person and not HALF smooth face and the other side disfigured.

Stupid christine said something that has the meaning like this

' The thing that scares people is not your face, it is the devil inside you'

come'on . dont crap. if you have been discriminated for almost ALL of your life, you would be blaming the whole world. Blame your parents for abandoning you, the whole world who teased and made fun of you and maybe even god. it really sucks.

i admit i really got this rotten mouth and i am prepared to go to hell and suffer and of course i will bring xiaojun with me. but i never laugh at people who are born to be like the way they are. it's the people who are really FINE ( normal ) and likes to do weird things that piss people off. really pity the people like phantom.

xiaojun and me talks nonsense. ALOT. but there is something i got to agree with her completely.

why didnt god create equality when he/she created humans?
(he/she depands on what religion you belief in)

it really sucks when DISCRIMINATION comes in. really sad case. this is something that will exist forever... really sad about it..