i think im getting older. at this point, i can go ' Xiang Dang Nian' which is equivalent to Once upon a time. there are alot of things that i can 'Once upon a time' with. my pre-school days, primary school days and secondary school. time really flies. it really seemed like yesterday i just got my fucking pathetic PSLE results and now *tink tink tink* im secondary four.

sometimes time seemed to be stagnant. it usually happens when i am doing things that I HATE/DETEST or after doing your damn important exam you have a hell of time. then you will be sitting on your pathetic table, waiting for time to pass. there aint really anything you can do beside to check your papers. most of the time i cant find mistakes on my paper at that point even though there is redundant time for me to waste. it often happens that after the paper is marked and returned back, then i realise how fucking stupid i was to make that type of mistakes.

im fucked up and i feel so cheated. i felt that i have been cheated by the school. WHY? it's about the damn cca. my school is emphasizing on CCAs. my stand is ' GO AND DIE!!' . as we all know CCA lets you deduct points from your O level reults. What i heard about the fucking system when i am secondary 1 and 2 is totally from what i heard now.

When i was in lower secondary, this is what i heard....

'Your CCA will let you deduct your points. for example if you scored 16 points then according to what CCA you are in and your contribution you will be allowed to deduct points from it. lets say if you have 1 point for your CCA then it would be 16-1=15. so with the 15 points then you can choose which teritary insitute you want to go'

understanding from this shitty paragraph is....

the final o levels points is after the cca points is deducted.

dont get the meaning? for example if for O levels you have scored 16 points. then that is not your final results. your final result is AFTER your cca points have been deducted. let's say it's one pathetic point after four damn years for pure torture. 16-1 = 15. Then your final result will be 15 points.

im not the only dumb ass who had thought that it is like this.

now, this is what i heard...

'If you have scored the total of 16 points. that would be your final results. your cca points will come in ONLY when there is a competition for space in the school you have chose.'

WHAT THE FUCK!!?!?!

no wonder they are not clear when im in lower secondary. this method is to TRICK us to go cca. so that when we are left with one pathetic year, then they tell us the truth. obviously we will still go for cca. left with four pathetic months and we will not want to waste one pathetic attendence point.

low level trick .