im going bonkers, practically.

at the same time i know who i should turn to in times of need and who i shouldnt.


whatever it is, let me be. perhaps im retarded and the motion of every crap to me is slow. things that i did not feel then , im feeling it all now. all the crappy shit at one. the fucking impact is damn big. no it should damn damn damn damn damn damn fucking huge that i feel crippled and helpless under it. thank you, i will be strong. no worries.


anyway, i will go to craps that happened.


ya, i did like fuck for my Os and ended up having a very big quarrel with my dad. at that point i have decided to make a big change in my life, i will start to work hard. =D


saw this tiny miny spider on the shoulders of a lady in the train yesterday.. the first reaction was obviously to freak up and start to move away from her. we were all standing so this movement was made easy. her back was facing us so i guess she did not know what was happening. okay lah, i have to admit something. WE WERE SELFISH. we refused to tell her about the spider on her shoulders until the point where the spider got onto her hair. that was the point i was forced to tell her about it.


wah, the next thing that happened was damn scary. she was brushing her hair to get rid of the spider. it is really scary because you will never know where the hell the spider will fly to while she was doing this action.


after a while when the spider fly-t0-g0d-knows-where the lady turned and said to us

'no wonder you all are so afraid'


okay, i did not really expect her to realised that we were moving away from her at point. I THOUGHT SHE COULDNT SEE.!!


wanna know where the spider flew to? haha.


the shoes of the lady who was sitting infront of us. then again, we were performing that selfish act. i almost stared at her shoe looking at the movement of the spider. gave myself another reason when i did not tell her the first moment i saw the spider landing on her shoe.


she was sleeping, dont disturb her.


hhaha. even when she woke up, we continued looking at her shoe. guess she realised that we were staring at her feet so she shifted her feet here and there. -.- i was so afraid for her. fearing that the spider might climb onto her legs. but then again, whats the difference of the spider being on her shoe or leg? ITS EQUALLY SCARY.


so we waited and waited and waited until the spider climbed onto her leg and i told her about it. >.< SHE COULDNT SEE IT SIA. i guess she thought i was kidding about it. it was a WHITE SPIDER ( or whatever it is, i assume that it is a spider.)!!! her leg is so fair, no wonder she couldnt seee it.!!



FERAK