have a feeling that now i am making myself falling straight to the bottom. dont know why but im starting to think there is no meaning to everything , again. nobody is to be blame for this situation but me. really couldnt understand why i am doing things even when i know it will make me down.



i was okay, thought that i had gotten over all the crappy shit. yeah, thought . not the actual fact huh? guess when u burry something deep inside the ground, it will be there forever. you can pretend that it doesnt exist because you dont see it. the memories of it fades away with time. however hell comes when someone digs the crap out. the painful memories just gush out towards you and hit right on the face. that is when it really hurts.




no longer understand myself.....

just another stranger standing at the other side of the mirror.

was it me?