Keep asking myself if the things which used to mean so much still do now?



no
that is what i will normally tell others and decieve myself with only one simple word.



really wish that things are just yes and no in this world. either the black or white, i dont want any grey areas for me to stumble and fall in.. its really diffcult for me. fearing of this, afraid of that. hope that things would be so much simple that i can either walk away and leave no marks or fall into perpetual torment world.



[i no longer wish to search for you] its tiring.


went out with judy and hongboon yesterday. it had been a long time since 3 of us got together. missed the times when 3 of us plus osborn hang out together...


things changed alot i guess. perhaps its the different issues we are facing now and we have grown up....still i had alot of fun with them even though it was tiring.


thank you..


worth.