ive been a bitch again today.
sometimes even me cant stand all the nonsense and craps that i am capable of creating. just because of the picture i saw yesterday, i worried the whole night and had insomnia again. dont know how you are able to tolerate me and everything. at times i hurl nasty things at you, i laugh at you, make fun and say things that is upsetting me to hurt you.
that day we argued again. you asked me helplessly why are we quarreling when we are just enjoying the happy moments that hardly comes by.
i dont know.
its such a simple question yet i was unable to answer. one moment you were telling me how happy you were and the next we are arguing about a pea-size problem.
perhaps things are meant to be like this. we have to argue non-stop until things start to hurt so bad that we slowly realise the importance of people then that will be the time we cherish the time we are given. i appreciate everything that you are doing for me right now, however i do question if the change comes a little too late. i may forgive and forget about the past but the fear is still there. if one day the past were to repeat by itself, dont think that i can take the pain anymore.
let's hope for the best okays?
珍惜眼前的人
slept at about 4am, had to wake up at 7am for the stupid opening of new campus. nope, i did not bring my camera along. really couldnt be bothered to.
TA-MA-DE
i was tricked to be there. evil people kept scaring me with the possibility of attending detention or suspension if i missed the event today.
TA-MA-DE
to think that i actually believed them, IM SO FUCKING DUMB. i was late close to 30minutes, who cares? there was nobody there to take attendence!
TA-MA-DE
walked more than one hour from the old to new campus. people in my school damn jialat sia, some even took bus in the middle of the walk. -.-'' BUS LEH. if i have known, i will also take bus and go home. dont need to continue the rest of the journey.
when we finally got there, the thing on my mind was
'WAH. FINALLY REACHED LIAO. CAN GO HOME LE'
i was wrong, there was this stupid performance to commerate ( whatever the spelling is) the event. so sian..............
after the performances, we had this 15mins break. they made us go back to play some 'amazing race' game.
lao niang no time to entertain you guys lor.
wah, already waste my whole morning entertaining your craps. still want us to do this do that. who cares lah.
lao niang ZHAO!
the moment they say we can go down and take our break. i turned to sining and said,
'WANT GO HOME?'
haha. think i pangseh shiying leh. sorry horx........ you know i love you de. i have more important things to do. =)
guess the only thing that made me laughed today was when we walked into the new campus through the big gate, the security guard welcomed us with a big warm smile. man, he looked damn happy lah. aiya, he should also be. finally got one small 'house' that belongs to him liao.
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28.12.06
16.12.06
My temper is really lousy, my patience is damn low.
just found out this new thing that i really hate to do. going after people for something.
im going after people for things for the last 6months. its driving me nuts.
hate people who cant deliver what they promise.. dont make things worse by hiding or ignoring me. ta-ma-de, these type of people piss me off to the core. if cant do it, just say lah. make me wait and in the end nothing is done.
ive had enough. so people, you can forget about borrowing anything from me (esp $$) unless i really really really trust you.
fucked.
just found out this new thing that i really hate to do. going after people for something.
im going after people for things for the last 6months. its driving me nuts.
hate people who cant deliver what they promise.. dont make things worse by hiding or ignoring me. ta-ma-de, these type of people piss me off to the core. if cant do it, just say lah. make me wait and in the end nothing is done.
ive had enough. so people, you can forget about borrowing anything from me (esp $$) unless i really really really trust you.
fucked.
14.12.06
DAMN, cartoons are getting more and more crude. Love them so much. wahaha. guess the cartoonist are moving towards the 'dark humor' aspect, they are so fucking funny lah.
Watched 3days of cartoons on Kids central. there was two examples that i find damn intricating and amusing ( at least for my level bah?). maybe im fucking shallow, who bothers huh?
#1
this god-knows-what-sex-it-is monster was holding onto the mirror and looking at its reflection. ( let's assume this monster to be a girl bah)
so the vain monster exclaimed
'OH! this is the exact style ive been looking for'
cool, confidence about her looks huh? at this point of time, another monster appeared at the bottom left corner of the screen. we shall assume that the new monster is a HE.
upon hearing that the monster tried to be funny and exclaimed
'BUT thats the style of yesterday and every other day!'
the respond of the female monster was damn fucking funny la.she gave that si bei qian bian's smile ( like some pedophile )
'well, i guess you cant work on perfection'
wah kao, so BHB LAH. funny like hell.
#2
A mother and two of her sons found this thing that was supposed to representing a baby. this egg-look-alike 'baby'( a machine) was crying and screaming like crazy.
fyi: both of the sons seemed to be moving into their fourties.
the first son picked up the baby. the baby refused to stop and kept crying. so the second son snatched it away and took over. as a computer expert, he used his fingers to press the egg all over thinking that it would stop the device or switched it off.
obviously it didnt work.
the mom saw what the two kids were doing and gave this what-the-hell face. she got fed up and mumbled about her experience on bringing two of her kids up so she shouldnt have a problem coaxing the baby.
she took the kid and rock it in her hands.
...... ......
..
..
...
the baby did not stop. it went even louder...... the reaction was so appalling. she passed the baby to her first son and said
'nah, forget it.. get rid of it'
SO FUNNY LAH.
the next thing was the son throwing the baby off the building
WAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
okay, im mental today.
only had 3hours of sleep. so pardon my craziness. =)
2days till your home.
Watched 3days of cartoons on Kids central. there was two examples that i find damn intricating and amusing ( at least for my level bah?). maybe im fucking shallow, who bothers huh?
#1
this god-knows-what-sex-it-is monster was holding onto the mirror and looking at its reflection. ( let's assume this monster to be a girl bah)
so the vain monster exclaimed
'OH! this is the exact style ive been looking for'
cool, confidence about her looks huh? at this point of time, another monster appeared at the bottom left corner of the screen. we shall assume that the new monster is a HE.
upon hearing that the monster tried to be funny and exclaimed
'BUT thats the style of yesterday and every other day!'
the respond of the female monster was damn fucking funny la.she gave that si bei qian bian's smile ( like some pedophile )
'well, i guess you cant work on perfection'
wah kao, so BHB LAH. funny like hell.
#2
A mother and two of her sons found this thing that was supposed to representing a baby. this egg-look-alike 'baby'( a machine) was crying and screaming like crazy.
fyi: both of the sons seemed to be moving into their fourties.
the first son picked up the baby. the baby refused to stop and kept crying. so the second son snatched it away and took over. as a computer expert, he used his fingers to press the egg all over thinking that it would stop the device or switched it off.
obviously it didnt work.
the mom saw what the two kids were doing and gave this what-the-hell face. she got fed up and mumbled about her experience on bringing two of her kids up so she shouldnt have a problem coaxing the baby.
she took the kid and rock it in her hands.
...... ......
..
..
...
the baby did not stop. it went even louder...... the reaction was so appalling. she passed the baby to her first son and said
'nah, forget it.. get rid of it'
SO FUNNY LAH.
the next thing was the son throwing the baby off the building
WAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
okay, im mental today.
only had 3hours of sleep. so pardon my craziness. =)
2days till your home.
13.12.06
My debit card statement came today.
damn scary lah.
(btw, the first card belongs to judy. not me. heh)
spent over 100bucks in just two days. i only had 3fucking lines on that shit sheet of paper. only holding that piece of shit slightly over a week, CAN ANYONE IMAGINE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THE OTHER PIECE OF SHIT COMES?
roarr!!! i will die man.
went to see the relics ( or something spelt like this) at expo yesterday. go check it out if you guys have time. real amazing stuff. think it's called SHE LI ZHI in chinese. think my dad regretted bringing me there. i was bombing him with alot of questions that he couldnt even answer.
according to my dad, people who had done many good deeds when they are alive will have relics in their ashes. obviously these people will have to be cremated.
the relics varies from colour to size. i wonder if i will have them in my ashes in the future. afterall i am...... urm... ahh, forget it.
blog later bahx
11.12.06
Finally know how xiaojun felt the last time Mr Mike couldnt contact her for 7 straight days.
TERRIBLE.
couldnt understand why she was crying so much at that point of time. guess i wasnt being empathetic or showing my sympathy to her. i thought that it was only 7 days, not as if he is leaving for good or something. seriously, i dont see the need for her to cry until like that.
somemore i dont ........ oh well. nvm. you guys who know me close will know..... wahaha.
6days
TERRIBLE.
couldnt understand why she was crying so much at that point of time. guess i wasnt being empathetic or showing my sympathy to her. i thought that it was only 7 days, not as if he is leaving for good or something. seriously, i dont see the need for her to cry until like that.
somemore i dont ........ oh well. nvm. you guys who know me close will know..... wahaha.
6days
4.12.06
wrote this last year when i was trying to get a job for myself. its stupid i guess. I KNOW.... I DID IT....
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Career Objectives
Short Term
- To gain some experience in retail industry and to earn money for this holiday.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Education
Secondary level
January 2002 – December 2005
- Currently waiting for GCE ‘O’ level result.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Languages- English Fluent in written and spoken mediums- Mandarin Fluent in spoken mediums
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Computer Competency
- Basic skills with Microsoft word, Microsoft excel, Internet Explorer
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Work ExperiencesKFC Cashier July to August 2004
- Responsible for customers order
- -ensure that good service is provided to the customers
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Achievements- Received Merit bursary for 4 years (2001-2005)
-----------------------------------------
Personal Attributes
Patient
I have always been very attentive and listen to the needs of the customers. I take pride in every good service provided to the customers. When dealing with diffcult customers, I ensure that their needs would be satisfied.
Responsible
I have been extremely careful and meticulous in handling money. I perform my duties assigned dutifully. I always go to work on time.
YES, I DID IT. Damn!!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Career Objectives
Short Term
- To gain some experience in retail industry and to earn money for this holiday.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Education
Secondary level
January 2002 – December 2005
- Currently waiting for GCE ‘O’ level result.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Languages- English Fluent in written and spoken mediums- Mandarin Fluent in spoken mediums
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Computer Competency
- Basic skills with Microsoft word, Microsoft excel, Internet Explorer
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Work ExperiencesKFC Cashier July to August 2004
- Responsible for customers order
- -ensure that good service is provided to the customers
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Achievements- Received Merit bursary for 4 years (2001-2005)
-----------------------------------------
Personal Attributes
Patient
I have always been very attentive and listen to the needs of the customers. I take pride in every good service provided to the customers. When dealing with diffcult customers, I ensure that their needs would be satisfied.
Responsible
I have been extremely careful and meticulous in handling money. I perform my duties assigned dutifully. I always go to work on time.
YES, I DID IT. Damn!!
3.12.06
CHRISTINA AGUILERA
It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you've gotta be
Everything's changin
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through
When I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waitin
with your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
from myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself
My love is tainted by your touch
Cuz some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away
Don't ask me why I'm cryin
Cuz when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smilin
You always save me from myself
from myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself
I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong
And don't ask me why I love you
It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
a better woman to myself
to myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself
Save me from myself.
2.12.06
there's so much in life right now. i dont think i have the ability to juggle with them all.
im now having a terrible headache.... it hurts me really badly.
seemed that im the one putting in so much effort that now i am even scaring myself. am i asking for too much? no point apologising because its too late.....
all i see is that im alone walking this tough and lonely journey.
im exhausted....
come to a point where i have given up all the hopes... no point.... nothing works..........
cant picture myself walking this path anymore..
maybe
im now having a terrible headache.... it hurts me really badly.
seemed that im the one putting in so much effort that now i am even scaring myself. am i asking for too much? no point apologising because its too late.....
all i see is that im alone walking this tough and lonely journey.
im exhausted....
come to a point where i have given up all the hopes... no point.... nothing works..........
cant picture myself walking this path anymore..
maybe
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