ive been a bitch again today.
sometimes even me cant stand all the nonsense and craps that i am capable of creating. just because of the picture i saw yesterday, i worried the whole night and had insomnia again. dont know how you are able to tolerate me and everything. at times i hurl nasty things at you, i laugh at you, make fun and say things that is upsetting me to hurt you.
that day we argued again. you asked me helplessly why are we quarreling when we are just enjoying the happy moments that hardly comes by.
i dont know.
its such a simple question yet i was unable to answer. one moment you were telling me how happy you were and the next we are arguing about a pea-size problem.
perhaps things are meant to be like this. we have to argue non-stop until things start to hurt so bad that we slowly realise the importance of people then that will be the time we cherish the time we are given. i appreciate everything that you are doing for me right now, however i do question if the change comes a little too late. i may forgive and forget about the past but the fear is still there. if one day the past were to repeat by itself, dont think that i can take the pain anymore.
let's hope for the best okays?
珍惜眼前的人
slept at about 4am, had to wake up at 7am for the stupid opening of new campus. nope, i did not bring my camera along. really couldnt be bothered to.
TA-MA-DE
i was tricked to be there. evil people kept scaring me with the possibility of attending detention or suspension if i missed the event today.
TA-MA-DE
to think that i actually believed them, IM SO FUCKING DUMB. i was late close to 30minutes, who cares? there was nobody there to take attendence!
TA-MA-DE
walked more than one hour from the old to new campus. people in my school damn jialat sia, some even took bus in the middle of the walk. -.-'' BUS LEH. if i have known, i will also take bus and go home. dont need to continue the rest of the journey.
when we finally got there, the thing on my mind was
'WAH. FINALLY REACHED LIAO. CAN GO HOME LE'
i was wrong, there was this stupid performance to commerate ( whatever the spelling is) the event. so sian..............
after the performances, we had this 15mins break. they made us go back to play some 'amazing race' game.
lao niang no time to entertain you guys lor.
wah, already waste my whole morning entertaining your craps. still want us to do this do that. who cares lah.
lao niang ZHAO!
the moment they say we can go down and take our break. i turned to sining and said,
'WANT GO HOME?'
haha. think i pangseh shiying leh. sorry horx........ you know i love you de. i have more important things to do. =)
guess the only thing that made me laughed today was when we walked into the new campus through the big gate, the security guard welcomed us with a big warm smile. man, he looked damn happy lah. aiya, he should also be. finally got one small 'house' that belongs to him liao.
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