I wont even question about what you have said, im able to apprehend the meaning of it. Its not by accident, not a joke and definitely not because you blurted out without much thoughts, this is the Nth time ive heard it.

no use pointing fingers or blaming whosoever for this, the only fault was to have different expectations. finally able to grasp your thoughts, be true to yourself because all these are not what you want.

im no longer able to hold back.

apple, you've hurt me badly

Now im sitting inside the library with dearest while he is doing his last minute revision. hope that he will be able to do well for this examinations. all the best my dear ~

Sometimes i get this weird feeling when i look at him, its like 'who the hell this person is?'. its funny how we have been together so long but there are times i couldnt recognise this lover of mine. perhaps in my opinion, this relationship feels like a dream and unreal. how a person like me deserve someone like my dearest? im like the real-life version of 'nightmare-girlfriend', extremely hard to please and get along with. Yet instead of giving up, i see him trying hard and harder each time just to please me =))

the longer im with him, the better i am able to appreciate him. maybe maturity really grows with age or im opening my eyes bigger to see the things he did for me.. whatever it is, we are happy and getting stronger each day.

loves!

Just a few nights back, i decided to hate this particular person to the core. Though I'm not really sure about what actually happened but the thing I was certain about was my then-feelings regarding this person.

There was absolutely nothing that occurred that created the seed of hatred in me. I had this kind of feelings out of a sudden, so I ended up following my heart and did not even use my head to think a little.

In the next morning, the person that I've just decided to hate appeared right before me again. Being the extremely guai-lan person that i am, obviously i gave the victim cold shoulders. Then, it began to rain gently and i thought that even the weather was a reflection of what I felt within. ( damn emo right?) Sadly, I had to visit the market with the person that I've just decided to hate to get our lunches.

Guess my attitude towards this particular person was extremely obvious that at one point the person asked

' why you looked so sian?'

me: because you are right infront of me

At this point, i would like to reveal who the person is...
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tadah! my boyfriend

anyway when we were going back, he suddenly passed me the green umbrella that he was using initially while he used the red one i was carrying when we went over to the market. I was puzzled by it as he hesitated a little before passing me the green umbrella but did not give too much thoughts about it.

In the end i realised what was actually going on when I was walking behind him. The red umbrella that I was using was actually damaged from the start. Honestly, i didnt notice it until I was walking behind him, determined to hate him till forever~~ lol. So i guess he saw it and just changed the umbrella with me without saying much.

It dawned on me how my boyfriend always gives me the best and keeps the sub-standard for himself. I was actually very touched about his small gesture on the umbrella incident. perhaps at times i get a little forgetful and need constant reminders of how good my boyfriend is to me.

so, give a good thought of how great your partner is before getting angry. sometimes unhappiness can be avoided if one just be a little more appreciative!

<3 yongqiang!

lovesssss

Things are now in a way that Ive never expected. Its getting uglier and uglier, starting to get very turned-off with 'someone' by the self-centered nature of hers. Extremely insulting for me to be even related to someone of that standard, I will watch this 'show' and see how low you can get. Being a coward and lying your way through does not make you a better person, your just merely sinking deeper into the pool of shit that you are born in.

The only good thing about this whole incident is that changes are bound to happen. Im happier.

Still jobless and i feel like a bum. HAI! hopefully i am able to get a job soon and start saving more $$! currently, im filling my time with youtube and im getting real tired of it =C

stay positive! stay positive!

take care!