my simple life

2011-12-22T14:30:00.001+08:00

有时，心情不好就想有个人来陪陪。
都把话说了那么明，你却还是没做。

2011-11-26T21:39:00.001+08:00

It doesn't help even when I tried so hard.

2011-11-22T05:43:00.001+08:00

There's nothing much that can be said about you. A leopard will never change its spots, so no matter how many times things has been said you will still repeat it in the end.

You said you cared but is that enough not to hurt me? It feels like I put in too much yet yield so little from us. So little that I'm wondering that this might just be just all on the surface.

How deep is your love?

2011-11-12T12:03:00.001+08:00

It's so embarrassing when im in this moderately packed bus coughing like an old person. There's weird stares each time the phlegm choked sound of my coughing comes playing like a trashy music. Ahh my throat hurts and it feels like it's gonna bleed any moment!

Heaty!

2011-11-01T23:33:00.001+08:00

We didnt make it.

2011-10-30T15:41:00.001+08:00

It's sickening at times to see how helpless I can be. I'm tired

2011-10-15T20:29:00.001+08:00

Head hurts very bad today. The pain runs from head all the way down to neck and shoulders. Not sure if this is normal for headache. Been sick quite often these days.

Need to take care!!!

2011-10-15T08:01:00.001+08:00

When things happens in the past, we could easily blame our age for our incompetency . oh, we are still young, there are things that we don't understand and beyond our control. Wouldn't it be great to exclaim the same thing when the same type of shit.

I'm not afraid of falling, I'm just scared that I wouldn't hit the bottom.

2011-10-13T17:18:00.001+08:00

used to think that once two individual decides to be together on own accord, there would be sort of a balance or at least an equivalence theory that " you are the one I needed" , whether it is fact or not but at least that would be the common mindset of both.

Yet this perception is flawed right from the very start. We humans are always greedy, why strike a balance when it's possible to excel beyond expectations?

Or probably it's an understatement to begin with, settling for the minimax. Then slowly move around to see if there's a chance to move out of the ghetto.

The latter scenario doesn't make any feel good ( maybe the player and the chosen later would benefit). It's always painful to be looking at you while you are searching for something else.

好难呼吸喔！

2011-09-18T16:43:00.001+08:00

When I look back, I hope I am still the person I used to be

2011-09-14T13:51:00.001+08:00

You just thanked me for staying right beside when you needed me the most. It came to my mind that you are always so appreciative with all the little things that I've done. Perhaps you have forgotten about all the moments that you spent dealing with my roller coaster emotions and all the bad times which I longed to forget.

You were always there for me right from the start. So I will be there right till the end.

:)

2011-09-14T09:51:00.001+08:00

Starting to have a little sentiments with regards to the phrase "dog is man's best friend". They won't judge and continues to trust as long as you don't abuse them. Mutual love is needed. The return of what they can give back is much greater than that of what you have provided. Perhaps my distraught self is able to feel sense of comfort when I'm with a dog.

Anyway today have to wait for smelly sim to call me today. Their level of service and student help has taken a dive straight to the bottom. Dateline for payment of fees is on the 15th yet I'm still here waiting for news. This is so bad.

Enjoy!

2011-09-13T15:40:00.001+08:00

First entry from my iphone:) i foresee that im going to blog on a more regular basis.

Currently waiting for school to start. The first class that I will be having will be on the saturday morning. I don't really know if I should be happy or upset about it. Well, whatever it is since it cannot be changed then just accept it and make the best out of the horrible schedule.

Went to doggiestyle dog cafe the other day. Not a bad place actually, the ambience is relaxing. A place to be laid-back while spending the lazy afternoon. Best of all is dog lovers can bring their dogs over and have their meals there! The cafe provides both human and dog menu. Bad point is that the food is not really up to standard and perhaps a drink and dessert is recommended.

Time has passed so quickly. Thought of the past and the things that had happened. Sometimes can't help to think if things would be different if it was handled in another way.

The future will be better so let's look forward to tomorrow!

2011-07-27T10:44:00.001+08:00

first entry of this year!

thats all!

2010-12-06T12:01:00.002+08:00

I think that I can do without you but I know I cant.

2010-12-04T10:45:00.003+08:00

had a great dinner with friends last night. we laughed, joked and stuff ourselves with loads of food. its a bliss to have such a good company, im always happy when im with them. they are always the ones i spend my special days and events with, so love ya sistas! =)

wanted to sign a new line with singtel so i can get UNLIMITED SMS! dad stopped me and pyscho-ed me about the two lines that he is holding onto. now im taking extra precaution to save my sms because i cannot spurge like the rest of my friends!

im wondering if i made the right choice and whether i want to continue staying on this path. saw things that made me think about this choice. it wasnt anything that have crossed the line but i dont know if the line will be crossed in the future. sometimes i thought i know everything but at others i seem to be a stranger that is standing far away. its not too late for me to back off because i hate confrontation. perhaps i should just fade away to somewhere that is far away from all these confusion.

what im seeking for is fairly simple but it seemed that its diffcult to realise.

time to study!

i've been lazy!

2010-12-01T21:44:00.002+08:00

was about to talk about how great my day was. something happened and now im pissed to maximum. anyway this mochi is my new love.

nights

2010-11-30T11:30:00.002+08:00

decided to blog again after a long break.

I was reading my old posts, theres a weird feeling that surges to tell myself that BY reading these entries, it appears that Im quite a positive person. Seriously, i dont even know if its true at all. life aint that bad but it doesnt mean its good at all.

there are bad emotions dwelled on this particular person because of someone. Im pissed at the actions of this particular person, seemed that what he says are just for show and there's little meaning in it. perhaps i feel a sense of justice for someone since the person he cherish so dearly treats him like shit. it hurts me because i dont bear to see someone else stepping over you and yet you pretended like nothing is happening and still smile. for that, im pissed with both of them. i really hate your apathetic behaviour at times, how can you take it so easy when someone treats you like ZERO? there was once you hurt me real deep just to defend him and it saddens me to the maximum. i dont think you remembered but i do, im still thinking about it at times because the insult came from you.

this particular person has recently pissed me off once again. this time i dont even know how to put across the words i want to say. the only thing im sure of is that hes a total loser and i shall not waste my time trying to act nice to him just because of some lousy claims two person made.

ahh! really dont know what these rantings are for anyway.

crap!

2010-11-30T00:30:00.002+08:00

Seemed like blogging for the people at my age is an uncommon practice. Still remember it wasnt long ago when i was still asked "why haven you update your blog?". Yet in these days, one can go "un-updated" for years and nobody would feel anything weird about this.
perhaps this could be a good indication that we are more tied up in our actual lives that blogging has become a big work to complete. No doubt leaving small and short messages on facebook and twitter is more common and convinient for my busy friends. Still, i prefer reading blogs since it tells more stories and interesting facts one has to tell. Pictures and words adds value, meaning and depth. I truly enjoy reading blogs, so do start blogging again! Will update soon!

2010-09-11T12:10:00.002+08:00

Things to look forward to:

Kexin's birthday celebration
Malaysia Trip
Huizhen's birthday chalet

Im currently looking for good facial products so if you have any good recommendation do let me know!

watched tonnes of movies recently and i will highly recommend

1) Grown Ups
2) Expandables

love all the crude jokes in Grown Ups! wahahaha

laters!

2010-07-26T15:09:00.002+08:00

my wish is to match the number of countries travelled with my age. the trips that ive embarked this month had awed me and i feel like a country bumpkin. felt extremely refreshed and amazed by the discoveries that ive had.

prior to the trips this month, the last time i've travelled to anywhere far was 12years ago(obviously not including malaysia). 12 long years before i embarked on another great and fun trip. i love what i see, feel and experience. hopefully next year i will be able to go on another desired place.

the first country i've ever visited was Australia, not much that i can recall of besides stepping on goat poo. so currently i've already visited 6 countries, lots of catching up to do.

loves!

2010-07-14T16:17:00.002+08:00

It makes me wonder at times what people would do in this world of internet. i do not hold good opinions of people who chooses to rant nonsensically in this 'world of deception'. respect others and as well as yourself.

people make mistakes and there is no reason why anyone should blame another for a bad breakup, worse part is you mentioned the god-damn name !

bad breakup? too bad for you.

before pointing fingers at others, make sure you reflect upon your actions.

thats just my thoughts for today.

2010-07-09T16:56:00.001+08:00

the trip was good,
thanks for giving into me all the time.
couldnt ask for anything else,
no one can be better than you.

i love you

2010-05-31T14:58:00.002+08:00

we were fooling around the other day when both of us fell on the ground in public. the first reaction i saw on your face made me "see whats coming" since i caused the small mishap. thought that you will sure turn around and scold me for being a fool.

yet instead of all the initial prognosis i had, you turned and asked if im okay. then you helped me to dust off the dirt and questioned if i hurt myself. it caught me by surprise, i was only able to hide all the feelings by my laughters.

honestly, i was touched by your reaction. at that moment i wanted to cry, im the apple of your eye. all the care and concern had been displayed through that split moment you asked if im okay.

thats all i need, all the physical pain would be eased.

heart!

2010-05-12T16:51:00.003+08:00

QUEEN

is having 'Its a kinda magic' concert this saturday in Singapore. Im a little disappointed that I just got to know this piece of news. thought that they will never come to Singapore =c yet when they do, i wasnt able to attend their concert. HAIS. though Freddie Mercury is no longer around, im sure that the concert will still be excellent. Hope that the fortunate people attending this concert will have a good time =)

Perhaps my life is filled with lots of disappointments. there are many things that i really want, fought really hard and put in lots of effort yet its still beyond my reach. im at this point that i give into fate and let it plan my future. always believed that im able to create my own path and lead life the way i want. the events that i've been through made me realised that my life is largely affected by the doings of others when i wasnt in control. when i decided to make a change, im very different.

' i was borned in the ghetto but the ghetto is not born in me'

things that happened will always be the past. whatever and whoever's doing it was, i cannot change it anymore. My life is no longer controlled by others and im looking forward to it. i know who loves me and who doesnt, the list is very clear in my head.

loves,
blog later

2010-05-03T15:06:00.002+08:00

bad weather is literally killing me, realised that my temper expanded in proportion with the temperature of my environment. little things and events get right onto my nerves and BUAAAAHHH, im totally pissed.

past two days is a mixed of great and bad things. bad in the sense where i kept blowing up at mr lorrylongcar and the anger hits me right at my face. got really upset about issues, at the same time it was clear that i wasnt the only one who was upset by it. im sorry mr lorrylongcar, we've braved through so much all these while and i was still having doubts. we had also confirmed a secret event that we will be going which is totally great! there were talks regarding this 'secret event' but nothing much was done. extremely elated that things are progressing and we will carry our 'secret event' soon, just two of us!! lalalalaa~

anyway, take care my friends

cya!

2010-04-28T10:24:00.002+08:00

I wont even question about what you have said, im able to apprehend the meaning of it. Its not by accident, not a joke and definitely not because you blurted out without much thoughts, this is the Nth time ive heard it.

no use pointing fingers or blaming whosoever for this, the only fault was to have different expectations. finally able to grasp your thoughts, be true to yourself because all these are not what you want.

im no longer able to hold back.

apple, you've hurt me badly

2010-04-13T13:11:00.002+08:00

Now im sitting inside the library with dearest while he is doing his last minute revision. hope that he will be able to do well for this examinations. all the best my dear ~

Sometimes i get this weird feeling when i look at him, its like 'who the hell this person is?'. its funny how we have been together so long but there are times i couldnt recognise this lover of mine. perhaps in my opinion, this relationship feels like a dream and unreal. how a person like me deserve someone like my dearest? im like the real-life version of 'nightmare-girlfriend', extremely hard to please and get along with. Yet instead of giving up, i see him trying hard and harder each time just to please me =))

the longer im with him, the better i am able to appreciate him. maybe maturity really grows with age or im opening my eyes bigger to see the things he did for me.. whatever it is, we are happy and getting stronger each day.

loves!

2010-04-07T13:53:00.002+08:00

Just a few nights back, i decided to hate this particular person to the core. Though I'm not really sure about what actually happened but the thing I was certain about was my then-feelings regarding this person.

There was absolutely nothing that occurred that created the seed of hatred in me. I had this kind of feelings out of a sudden, so I ended up following my heart and did not even use my head to think a little.

In the next morning, the person that I've just decided to hate appeared right before me again. Being the extremely guai-lan person that i am, obviously i gave the victim cold shoulders. Then, it began to rain gently and i thought that even the weather was a reflection of what I felt within. ( damn emo right?) Sadly, I had to visit the market with the person that I've just decided to hate to get our lunches.

Guess my attitude towards this particular person was extremely obvious that at one point the person asked

' why you looked so sian?'

me: because you are right infront of me

At this point, i would like to reveal who the person is...
.......
......
.....
.....

tadah! my boyfriend

anyway when we were going back, he suddenly passed me the green umbrella that he was using initially while he used the red one i was carrying when we went over to the market. I was puzzled by it as he hesitated a little before passing me the green umbrella but did not give too much thoughts about it.

In the end i realised what was actually going on when I was walking behind him. The red umbrella that I was using was actually damaged from the start. Honestly, i didnt notice it until I was walking behind him, determined to hate him till forever~~ lol. So i guess he saw it and just changed the umbrella with me without saying much.

It dawned on me how my boyfriend always gives me the best and keeps the sub-standard for himself. I was actually very touched about his small gesture on the umbrella incident. perhaps at times i get a little forgetful and need constant reminders of how good my boyfriend is to me.

so, give a good thought of how great your partner is before getting angry. sometimes unhappiness can be avoided if one just be a little more appreciative!

<3 yongqiang!

lovesssss

2010-04-01T10:08:00.003+08:00

Things are now in a way that Ive never expected. Its getting uglier and uglier, starting to get very turned-off with 'someone' by the self-centered nature of hers. Extremely insulting for me to be even related to someone of that standard, I will watch this 'show' and see how low you can get. Being a coward and lying your way through does not make you a better person, your just merely sinking deeper into the pool of shit that you are born in.

The only good thing about this whole incident is that changes are bound to happen. Im happier.

Still jobless and i feel like a bum. HAI! hopefully i am able to get a job soon and start saving more $$! currently, im filling my time with youtube and im getting real tired of it =C

stay positive! stay positive!

take care!

2010-02-27T04:41:00.002+08:00

supposed to upload pictures with regards to dearest's birthday, blogger went nuts on me. managed to only get 6 FREAKING PICTURES UP after more than 15minutes and the next lot of pictures HANGED when the uploading was near ending.

crap, now im fed up with the system. WHY SO SLOW!?!?

Anyway X's meimei was sooo sweet today, she gave me a sweet! what a darling! this really made my day, a small move by someone can really brighten up another's day. I LOVE YOU MEIMEI! =))

Kept telling myself to ' remain true and always remember to stay this way' when i was reflecting awhile back. looking back and after doing some self-reflection, indeed i have changed alot. ive became more materialistic and demanding in some ways. maybe to some it seemed like a bad changed but for me, i feel that my life has brighten up alot through these changes. no longer that teenager who feels that theres nothing in the world left for her and life has no meaning.

now, i learn to cherish and treat most of the unhappiness as a challenge for myself. theres a clearer picture for me on what i want to achieve and hope to be. so hopefully things will go my way since efforts are put in to ensure changes will happen.

change will occur for sure.

sometimes i get upset wondering if i did the right thing. now i realised that all i need is to remind myself constantly about how evil that person is then everything would be worth it.
HOPE YOU WILL BE HAPPY!
'cause i will be extremely delighted when this problem is removed from my life.

ahh, just erase all the unhappy thoughts.

gonna be attending the 3rd wedding for this year! 3RD WEDDING. i guess when i reach mrlorrylongcar's age, everyone will be having their weddings. THEN I WILL FEEL THE REAL PINCH! so please please please dont get married all at once okay my dearest friends. wahahaha.

hope that debbie will have a blissful marriage =)

2010-02-19T02:15:00.002+08:00

Lots of things had happened over the past few weeks, im happy and grateful to everyone who had make the effort for me. i love you guys tooo much!

obviously, first would be dearest's birthday! mr yeo is finally 25million years old! had a really bad argument with him right before it, im really glad that all the stupid stuff is finally over. one more stupid crap to laugh at =)

As usual, kuku stuff happens when celebrations are planned. brought a balloon that cost more than 11bucks to surprise dearest. it was one of the cutest balloon i ever seen and I WAS DAMN FUCKING PROUD OF THE CHOICE OF SELECTION! in the end, the balloon was punctured by the most ridiculous thing that anyone could think of ; dearest's hair. -_-''

guess i was slapping the balloon too much into his head that it was eventually punctured by his hair that was gel-ed. managed to tape over the small hole before it deflates completely. the balloon was able to survive for another 2-3 hours with tapes on it.

the resturant we went to was nothing but marvellous!

20 BIG STARS FOR THE SERVICE~~
10 BIG STARS FOR THE SCENERY~~

impressed by what i saw and was inspired by it. now i have a clearer idea of what i should do for my wedding. HAHAHA! the bill came and everything we experienced was worth every penny of it. im certain everyone will like the place too!

the day ended up really simple with dearest sending me home.... specially arranged the dinner to be at the earliest time to ensure that he have enough time to send me home. lalalalaa.~~ smart rite?? =))

will update with pictures soon!

2010-01-09T02:15:00.002+08:00

Absolutely tired today, was baking with dearest for almost half of the day. My body gave in at around 9pm and i slept till 10plus. When i woke up, *ta-dah* all the remaining cookie dough was baked.

My shoulders have been giving my problems for the last 4-5days. Im having problems raising, moving and carrying objects. initially i thought it was the bad sleeping posture that caused it but dad said something to deny such possibility. Its really causing some inconvenience in my daily life and i guess if things remained the same till monday, i shall see a doctor! I PROMISE YOU LORRYLONGCAR~! I WILL!

Thats all for the little update! =))

byes

2010-01-06T15:38:00.002+08:00

Decided to remove the music player, it gets really annoying at times.

Ever heard of the band Queen? Yes? No?

Anyway it doesnt matter because FREDDIE MERCURY is my current love! though he has left but his talent cannot be denied. I LOVE HIM. felt that he is a versatile singer and the genre of music Queen explores is more than rock or heavy metal. listen to Queen's songs if you can, you might find a few that is familiar to you =)

a video that i like where he scolds the audience 'Move it, you fuckers'

Enjoy it!

2010-01-06T02:14:00.004+08:00

Review : Canmake Nail Glitter

People who knows me well would very well know that i am very into nail products again. LOL. so i will share the nail products i have just bought and tried. In the case anyone has set their minds to get it or never heard of these products, do take a pinch of salt before settling for it. Im no expert so opinions applies for me only.

This would be my first nail product review so i hope the one reading it will find it informative =)

Product Name : Canmake Nail Glitter
Price : $13.50 @ John Little before 20% discount ( maybe you can get it cheaper somewhere)
Source: my beloved judy lim who bought this product for siyun as present. i thought it looked interesting and decided to give it a try

Application Instructions

From what its illustrated,

1st coat : apply nail polish on about 50% of the nail

2nd coat : apply nail polish on about 30% of the nail

last coat : apply nail polish on about 15% of the nail

however for my version i decided to change the proportion to what i have pictured in my mind.

Packaging

First look

The nail polish is saturated with glitters of different sizes, polish is a little less viscous than normal nail polishes.

Try-On

Remember to first put on the base coat

(no, i do not care about cuticles!)

1st Layer

2nd Layer

Last Layer

End Product

Review
Application

Though product is less viscous than normal nail polish and the application is slightly challenging to create even shade throughout the nails. However the nail polish is meant to create such effects, so no worries at all.

Time to dry

Relatively fast, took about 2-3minutes for each layer to dry

Finishing

rough finishing and top coat is needed to smoothen out. this is to slow down the process of glitter from falling off due to normal wearing off.

Verdict : 7/10

I was having higher expectation of this product and it did not come out as well as i thought it would

Tips: Effect will show up only on light shades of polish of just on ur nude nails with top coat on.

what do you think about the product?

2010-01-02T01:32:00.002+08:00

wanted to sigh and say
'hey man, i think you ought to wake up. YOU HAVE NO CLUE what shit you have got yourself into'

on second thoughts, who am i to even say the 'shit' situation im in is sooooooo much better than his that i have the rights to demoralise him? how much of a person/object worth depends on self-valuation and not determined by the rest of the world.

so here i wish you all the best.

2009-12-28T23:18:00.001+08:00

met up with two of the most important people in my life.

loves...

will blog about it when im free..

lovelove!~

2009-12-16T15:23:00.002+08:00

being in the twenties ( im only 20 by the way. not THAT old ) is a 'danger zone'. people around you starts getting married and all these intensive marriages will bound to cause a hole in your pocket. just take a look at mrlorrylongcar, 3 weddings to attend in the two coming months. no doubt its occasions to be happy and celebrate about but ITS REALLY INTENSIVE! thankfully new year is coming, losses will be recouped and the new-weds cannot hide from the HONGBAO GIVING. anyway i was also invited for all the 3 weddings so i will feel the pinch toO!!

so friends, please start saving up $$ for the 'red bomb'. we are all reaching that critical stage soon. wahaha.

anyway, i found my dream bag! same design and colours combination that i hoped for at half of the price.!

okay im bored right now.

byes

2009-12-09T20:31:00.002+08:00

have to agree to a large extent when men say that the greediness in women is directly proportional to the rate of the increase of their age. perhaps it is not being increasingly greedy but increasingly used to being pampered and adapt to the environment quickly that lead to such misconceptions.

took a train the other day and overheard a group of xmm (aka xiao mei mei) talking, not on purpose but they were just standing next to me. they were discussing about not having the money to pay for some event that they were going.

one girl said this aloud while looking at her friend
'AIYA, you so rich. go pawn all your branded stuff lah. look at your watch and bag, all so branded!'

obviously being an inquisitive person that i am ( ahem!), i turned and took a good look at the 'branded' stuff that she was referring to. the items took me aback and i realised that i have grown up so much in this few years.. its been a long while since i have last considered puma and Adidas as branded. maybe i have got more materialistic as time passes or i forgot about how my dad worked hard for the money that i have been using.

ive started to adapt to this adult world so quickly, i actually forgot that 4years back, puma was 'extremely' expensive for me.. LOL! time to start value money more!

anyway branded whore lorrylongcar has a new found love!
Patek Philippe!

take a look at their advert!

just make you wanna go 'WAHHHHHH'

after hearing non stop complaints about how lousy my camera is all the while, ( idiots)

finally changed to a BRAND NEW CAMERA!

welcome mr TEETEE!!

panasonic tz7

did alot of homework before settling for this.

i love mr tee tee!!

byes!

2009-12-05T01:50:00.004+08:00

wee~~ wee~~

bought two revlon nail polish today, 2 for the price of one, the results were impressive. it dries up really fast and the finishing was good. guess i add more to my collection before this offer ends.

in for serious excessive shopping, whos on? i kind of regretted when i bought 5 BABY FOOT online, thought i must be outta my mind. why the hell did i even bought 5 of it? luckily shiying huizhen and judy had reserved from me so im left with one which most probably im gonna sell. dad was even crazier to suggest that 1o BABY FOOT should be bought. siao!

life has been wonderful and fufilling for the last 3-4 months. rediscover personal relationships with family and mrlorrylongcar. truely understood how pampered i was at home and the endless love showered on me. though we might have differences due to the similarity in characters, i do love my dad alot alot =)) hes one of the most important people of my life and obviously one of those who loves me the most.

mrlorrylongcar has been the best ever. have to admit that nothing comes easy and even till this moment we are trying as hard as we can, at least we have not given up on all that we worked for. maybe things will be better cherished and held on when we really go through tough times that challenged our hearts and minds. i love my boyfriend! YES I KNOW YOU DOTE ON ME!!

to add on, i had wonderful people around me whom had helped me and studied together during the tough period of time. THANK YOU ALL! we are free! free~!! the hard times were unbearable at times but we overcome everything with our determination =)) the constant reminders from each other to study study and study were the movitation that propels us forward! i love you guys!

then, it comes to my dearest friends who showed concern and especially SINING!!! thanks for all your sms-es. it took me by suprise and im elated to read all the encouraging sms-es. =))

lastly, thanks to a BITCH who had always disturb me whenever peace is needed! I LOVE YOU GIRLGIRL! muacks!! you made my day with your always-sunshine face. wahahaha. the thought of you makes me wanna kick you! wahahaha.

anyway the toughest journey had ended and now im waiting for the yield of the seeds ive sowed. hopefully things will turn out great !

wish that everyone will stay healthy and happy..!!!

think about a positive event everyday and you will feel blessed with all that you have =)

im really happy, are you?

2009-10-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

felt like a stupid crap for not seeing this selfish world carefully. how could i lose my glass of defense and let this kind of truth hit me so hard? im beyond words, this had really taken me by shock.

guess im so much smarter then, why am i even so naive?

your not a good person

you're never.

2009-09-27T00:30:00.002+08:00

my reccomended video of the day =) hope you guys LOVE it!

girlgirl was finally discharged from hospital today, thought she was okay and the recovery was a success. bad news came around 7pm when dearest called and said something else happened. hopefully things will get better in the coming days.

my love, you will be okay.

loves

2009-09-19T03:14:00.002+08:00

Just got home after a trip to the emergency ward for girlgirl. she was vomiting non-stop for the whole day and it made dearest damn worried. she was less energetic like how she used to be and her temper got worse. perhaps the uneasiness had gotten into her, that might be logical to explain her eccentric behaviour.
so with little time for any thoughts, we sent her over to the nearest vet hospital. the moment we reached and left her on the floor, she was running around and sniffing like how she would normally. -.- WHAT A SICK DOG UH?
the bill eventually came up close to 300bucks!
though its not cheap but its worth it to know that girlgirl is doing great , the problem is a small issue.

lovelove!

now shes sleeping next to me,
im relieved to know shes fine.

2009-08-14T01:53:00.003+08:00

i feel this strain inside my body. it seemed like something is choking me inside, making it harder and harder for me to breathe. perhaps something is wrong with my lungs. no, this uneasiness is coming straight from my heart.

feeling the heat right now, its all the tension that Ive been suppressing all the time..

there's a gut feel that something is wrong and i couldnt pin-point what is exactly the problem that cause so much disturbance to me.

work harder this time.

2009-08-12T04:16:00.001+08:00

wee

2009-08-10T02:55:00.000+08:00

Old blogger posting board is down. Tried the method to reverse the effect taught by Judy inside her blog but failed! Guess im a complete computer idiot and all these stuff seemed alien to me. Now im trying the blog draft version, hope that im able to publish this successfully.

Have not really updated my blog for awhile, so i will just do one right now =)

My dearest sister has went to tekong for her BMT training. There were initial plans on bringing huizhen and i to Tekong on her first day. Sadly the plans were spoilt due to the outbreak of H1N1. since the virus was deemed as 'UNSTOPPABLE', guess the best way to minimise the harm is to restrict the number of vistors in order to prevent the spread of virus.

She has been there since god knows when. I miss her dearly and hope to see her soon! She sent me the note before she left for her 'mission'. haha.

Yes, i love you too okays.

BGM was rather fun this year =) The KBox session at safra and free nelgene bottle. HEHEHE. Wenghua and i stuck together for most of the day. Poor wenghua has to listen while i complaint about Huizhen Pangseh us. HAHA. there were many new faces at YEC that i never seen before. I bet they were thinking 'who the hell is this member?' when they saw me. YES I KNOW IT, it was written all over their faces. DAMN! i really need to attend the meetings more often. Wenghua and i sang to our hearts delight at KBox. Need to do it lah! so many people over there, so little time. Kbox not cheap hor! hahaha.

This month is filled with lots of events that is rather anticipating. Hope to meet up with vicky and shiying soon. erm...... i guess thats about all the excitment for this month.

July has briefly passed us and its time to work even harder!

Im looking for a better sky,

Wish me luck!

2009-08-10T02:27:00.000+08:00

Im looking for a better sky. wish me well.

hearts!

2009-08-08T02:16:00.001+08:00

Now i'll be going ' OH! I SEE!'

this is the type of life you want. OH! I SEE! the differences in opinions, i no longer wish to waste my time to talk about things. talking out and trying to make things better. Why do that when in the end its gonna turn out to be the same. we will always be stuck at the same old point.

OH! I SEE!

if this is what you want, go on then. do whatever that pleases you, it no longers bother me. as each day passes, it feels like i couldnt care more and more.

ya, so go on. Make My Life Easier.

OH! I SEE!

2009-08-03T03:18:00.000+08:00

blogger has turned its back on me again. the posting mode was okay when i last blogged but now i guess it has revert back to its old self. well, i can only wait.

met up with lia today =)) its been awhile since i last saw her. nothing much has changed but huizhen has fly our aeroplane again. wtf? its a day with all the loves in my life. LIA,HONGU,YIXIAN,WENGHUA =)) the meetup wasnt too long but i enjoyed their company. its great to know that everyone is doing fine. thats the most important thing.

after that i went over to the SOME shop. got fooled by the gimmick and i do not like it. felt like a wasted trip and effort, dearest and i agreed that we have been fooled. we walked away like idiots after staying at the shop for like 10seconds? hahaha. decided to go take a look at the new ion shopping mall. IT WAS REALLY REALLY HUGE.

recieved a message that i wasnt needed at anymore. it kind of upsets me because i thought everything was doing great. i even bought a gift for the little one and i wanted to ask the other about things. there were plans for changes and things i wanna do for them. im disappointed but nevertheless, it was an enjoyable experience. it could be a good thing! im having more time for myself and less overworking. haha

things happened again today. when i first heard of it, there are 101 mean things that i almost blurt out. i controlled my emotions and cooled myself down. maybe im really like this, i have nothing good to say about people that hurted me. hurling nasty words and having heated arguments are just part of who i am. thankfully im able to keep it down today and think positively.

its 4.02aM

wish me luck!

PRESS ON!!

2009-08-02T00:19:00.002+08:00

Blogger is finally working! wee~

new found strength and energy to continue my destiny =) hehe~

PRESS ON! PRESS ON!!

im trying to learn self discipline and sleep earlier right now. saw hengling's dark eye rings and it is really terrible. DONT BE SO STRESSED LAH!

meeting dearest lia tomorrow with the rest of the gang. wahahaha. its been donkey years since i last saw her and I STILL HAVE YET TO RECEIVED HONGYOU'S BIRTHDAY PICTURES!!

PRESS ON! PRESS ON!

burnt my saturday studying my stuff. THIS IS A RETRIBUTION FOR NOT WORKING HARD WHEN I SHOULD. =c its fine, at least im happier and i dont feel the guilt for not working hard enough.

PRESS ON PRESS ON!

Have been so busy lately that i feel like im losing time for myself. why why why why? sometimes i feel like i was being stupid for doing things irrationally and it caused so much trouble for me. though working is hard but i really enjoyed it. =) they might be the ones im complaining all the time but they are also the ones i loved dearly.

its not easy but WE CAN DO IT TOGETHER.!

PRESS ON!! PRESS ON!!

LOVES LOVES!!

PRESS ON! PRESS ON!!

2009-07-28T16:48:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, dearest mentioned that he felt that i have changed alot in the one year plus that we have been together. He said that i used to call and 'niao' him whenever he delayed in calling me. Whether he was just taking a short breather after work or for whatever reasons, i would call and scold him impatiently for the delay. Thankfully i have changed.

Though i cannot remember all these that had happened but i have no doubts about it. That was the type of person that i was and i remembered vividly that whenever i scolded him, i would say that i did it because he is important to me. it was exactly how i felt back then, because i care thats why i will say something. Looking back, i dont really understand how my boyfriend is able to tolerate all these and still stuck with me through all these times.

many things had happened and i finally thought it through. there are things that i let go and never wanna take them back. Ive made my decision and true enough, im alot happier. ive threw everyone who did not cherish the chances away and use the energy to love everyone else who loves me. im not angry, i cannot even be bothered to.

indeed, the new gained perspective has made me cherish and love others more. =)

i need to work harder, i fought for the chances.

thanks to all.

loves!

2009-07-21T16:42:00.002+08:00

Lia finally called me on the night after i blogged about her NOT calling me. Im elated to hear her voice and know that shes doing great inside. =) LOVE LOVE LOVE!

Both of us even came out with a prank to be played on Huizhen. thank god she didnt fall for it, if not our dearest lia will be crying on her bed.

hahaha.

loves!

im experiencing problems with blogger, anyone else have problems too?

2009-07-14T17:16:00.002+08:00

Life is in a mess.

It appears that im sinking into a deep pool of misery and at the same time im pulling you in. Im sorry. theres nothing much i can do for myself, my life is being controlled and im the joke over here. i hate it and i cannot do anything.

its only the 14th day of the month and i spent ALL my allowance. Now living on credit and hopefully things will get better........ I need $$$!!

blah blah blah blah..

anyway lia has went into tekong there was NO CALLS, NO MESSAGE from her since yesterday. She promised and THERES NOTHING! kns.................................person.

tired.
time for maths

2009-07-10T03:30:00.000+08:00

the level of stress is building up once again.

it feels like i have so little time, what can i do?

work, work work!

2009-07-09T03:22:00.002+08:00

Its scary how greed is able to consume one's moral values. Worse when the greed morphed into ignorance and selfishness in one. It would be more suitable to say that it didn't morphed, some people just choose not to see it and pretended that all the excuses are correct.

My reasoning became your excuses, your excuses are bullshit to me.

The worst is that you not only hurt the people whom had loved you unconditionally, you have also hurt everyone else who loved them. I always said that i wouldnt think that you are 'kelian', your just simply 'kebei'. do you even bother to find out the difference? i guess not. you do not deserve all the sympathy others gave you. YOUR THE REASON WHY YOUR IN SUCH A SORRY STATE.

guess you will always stay the way you are, blaming everyone else but yourself for all the failures n mishap you experienced. so stop shedding your crocodile tears infront of me. i promised myself to remain unmoved no matter what happens, i gave up on you. everything that i owe you had been returned. for all the disappointments, torment, pain and tears that you caused, it was all the installments for what i owed you.

just stop saying that you love me the most, how come you are always hurting me then?

thats the end, life goes on.

2009-06-23T15:00:00.002+08:00

Starhub just made a call to me... TO FREAKING REMIND ME TO PAY THE FREAKING BILL!
I swear that i will cancel the freaking line as soon as the contract ends. SUCH a big company yet kept pestering me nonstop about the bill. No wonder SINGTEL will always be NUMBER ONE, starhub doesnt even come near.

I hate starhub.
( no idea how many times i said this, saying it one more time to emphasize my degree of hate.)

saw the invitation for gen's birthday celebration yesterday. Unfortunately, it falls on the same day where i have already promised Hongu to celebrate his birthday together. lets see what happens bah? i really wished to go for both the celebrations =))

Its your life, do whatever you want to. for all the things you have done brought nothing but disappointment and lost hopes towards yourself. i dare not wish for anything else but a peaceful life from today onwards. dont bother with your small little tricks trying to get my attention, i seriously dont even bother or have desire to talk to you. if you would, just get out of my life and dont even appear infront of me. we shall live our lives in peace, thats all.

used.

2009-06-22T02:19:00.002+08:00

Picture taken on 28th Aug 2007

Its really amazing how i feel while looking through the old pictures.

Perhaps 22months had been a really long period of time to make me forget how happy i was holding onto your hands.

i guess i didnt forget, the happy feeling had changed into a sense of security and trust.

I can always count on you to pull me back if i lost balance,

now im happy in a different way.

whenever i saw an old couple holding their hands together,

I always asked ' Will you be holding my hands even when we are old and my skin is wrinkled?'

you will patiently answer 'yes, i will'.

As of today, you had been faithfully keeping this promise of yours. =)

Thanks for holding on in a different sense.

2009-06-17T13:13:00.011+08:00

Photoupdates!
Lia's bbq =)

my love!

both of my love!!! =))

Girlgirl's birthday

luge ride

gift from dearest =)

ah gua facial

transition of jiayou.

see how much he have grown up?

children are really amazing =)

graduation of lovely aiais!

enjoy!

2009-06-15T21:50:00.003+08:00

Just received a message from Hongu which he apparently sent to the wrong person. however it is a good thing that the message bares a good thing! My dearest aiai is becoming an uncle soon! Gosh!! congrats congrats. Here wishing Uncle Hongu to have a great time becoming a good uncle! its not easy but YOU CAN DO IT UNCLE HONGU!! =))

The last 4 days had been simply amazing and i had lots of fun! Im really happy with all the excitement and joy that was brought to me. Most thankful to MrHappiness ( aka mr lorrylongcar) who had been extremely supportive throughout the time. I always wondered why friends and loved ones morphed into a bad temper creep whenever they are driving. Even though im a victim of it right now, i still do not have a clue what was actually injected into me during the course of it. HAHAHAHA. maybe its something call 'basic instinct' or perhaps driving itself is an angry virus.

thanks to all the people whom i have met the last 4 days, it was simply amazing.

to all the gan-mas of girlgirl,
my girl's birthday is tomorrow, so any present(s)?

saw an award deserving acting just now, im truly appalled by it. why must a family degrade into such unspeakable situation? why must i be forced to drive you to the end of your wits inorder to make you understand? its painful for me, i think im losing the sight of the actual you whom i used to know. why cant you come back to your old self? why let things changed? why? why? why? why must you force me to hurt everyone like this? i hope you would do something about yourself, this cannot go on.

disheartened.

2009-06-10T02:06:00.002+08:00

The weather had been really bad these days, its getting warmer and warmer. Dad said that the weather will get worse in the coming two months. HOW AM I ABLE TO SURVIVE? ask me out only if you are going to a cool place ,ie air-conditioned area. HAHAHA.

Guess im getting sick from all the heat. Have been drinking liang teh non stop for the past few days. Drank 3 bottles yesterday when i felt like shit, thank god im only left with the 'dry cough' today. so people, make sure you have plenty of water to dissipate out the heat inside of your body.

managed to hear my ai ai hongu's voice today. lalalalala~ i missed him so much. thought i was able to meet him this fabulous weekend but i guess there are some problem. perhaps next time bah? so im meeting the rest at the end of the week, i know that we are gonna have a good time!! im really really excited by the thoughts of it =)

My chiobu came into my life on monday. i love you i love you. She made me really really happy and all i wanna do is to hold her and be next to her all the time. hehehe. ai ni wor =DD will post her beautiful picture up when i have time. i love you wors!

to you,

things has been really hard for you but do hang on okay? i know that theres not much that i can help you but i want you to know that i will always be here for you no matter what. so jia you jia you!!

nights people!

2009-05-31T02:58:00.002+08:00

Finally a chance to blog!! laziness had actually crept up on me a long time ago. the desire to blog was there yet the moment i enter blogger.com, i thought to myself that theres always ANOTHER TIME.

Another time, another time, another time, another time and blah blah blah blah.

Another time until today, there wasnt any shitty decent blog entry that was entered......

no , your wrong. im still on the 'another time' mode right now. however i do realise my weakness and force myself to come out with this entry before my memory actually failed on me.

congrats to all my friends who have graduated from poly! welcome to the world of 'JOBLESS'!! wee~ i have been jobless since forever and now im happier that sooooooooooooo many of you are joining me. HAHAHAHAHA.

i was really busy on the week where most of my Ngee Ann Poly's ( sorry if i got it wrong, cannot be bothered to check anyways) darlings graduated. i was at NP in 3 0ut of the 5 working days.
YES, THE CEREMONY WAS BORING
YES, I SLEPT DURING ONE OF THE GRADUATION AS IT WAS DAMN BORING, I REALLY COULDNT HELP IT.
YES, THE FOOD WAS BAD.

after which, i attended raina's graduation in SP.
Yes! the food was equally bad and i was fucked up by the bad weather. loved the air-conditioning system in SP though =DD

honestly, the graduation at SP was much more grand compared to NP. SP was a little kua zhang, there was even a live telecast outside the venue for guests with no invitation card or who was late.

so whatever it was, CONGRATS EVERYONE =DD pictures will be uploaded when i feel like it. however i seriously doubt there would be such a day.

perhaps time have really catch up on me, im getting old and the things that i can remember become really limited. i find myself asking people same question more than once even after they told me the answers before. yet i have no impression of asking them the question so i will clear my doubts again by asking. it really make me look like a very unsincere person who couldnt be bothered to remember the things that my friends told me. IM NOT 'BO CHAP' but i really cannot remember it for some reasons. HAHAHAHA. im really getting real old....................... or maybe i was like this all the while? you'll be the judge =)

saw alot of RSVP thingy around, i think i 'sort of' know what it means but i never really understood what is it about. go read up about it, its interesting when someone send you a RSVP invitation to a party. i find it really interesting how people are able to use find words even from different languages to be used to explicity convey their message. Degree of words is very important bah?

im getting tired from blogging.

byes!

2009-05-18T06:13:00.001+08:00

i dont need your love if its selfish.

get out of my life,

please.

2009-05-17T21:05:00.002+08:00

its been a damn long long long time since ive last blogged, many things had happened. im positive that more great things are sure to come.

a knot that had been around for the last 3 years had finally been untied, i felt free. i was never able to do anything for the past 3years until that fateful day. i held my breath for the moment when the truth was revealed... Yes, i finally found my answer.

the answer had led me to cherish what i have now. its the best i can ever have....

thank you fate,
the answer came when i was swayed by my past.

thank you, i now have a clearer picture and state of mind.

im having the best =)

2009-04-14T13:25:00.002+08:00

Getting a little moody, not feeling good at all.

Complex emotions are surging up yet im feeling very very empty right now. Seems like i get this sudden enlightenment that perhaps what i am having in life isnt what i want at all. Im really starting to question myself about the things that i appear to have.

Is the green eye monster creeping up on me? Im envious of you, i am truly jealous.

It feels like im dying right here yet you are thriving in your own world. Sometimes i wished that this could happen to me, that would occur on me......... this that this that. yet everything just stayed at thoughts and wishy thinking.

There would be times i questioned myself if everything i was holding onto actually makes me happy or i was just hallucinating it? Is my life a projection of a snail? What appears to be hard outside can actually crumble easily and is totally empty inside. When i lose my shell, most probably i would lose my life and everything i ever had.

thats all

2009-04-13T02:23:00.002+08:00

Last night, i had a really unbelievable nightmare. okay to me it was more like a dream containing a scary truth that never crossed my mind. i dreamt of my dearest friend,

JudyL

nothing special about it, perhaps she just happen to appear in my dreams cause i miss her sooooo much. it was the truth in the dream that was awfully scary!

In my dream,
1) She is a volleyball player
2) She became TALLER THAN I AM!
3) She was really snobbish and gave me that guai lan look when i was exiting the toilet while she was entering
4)She had a one night stand
5) SHE WAS PREGNANT!

OMG! i was in cold sweats when waking up, how on earth did i even dream of this?
guess i miss my dear friend too much that im starting to hallucinate so badly =C

btw,
i realised i have not blog anything about my birthday! will do it.......

soon!

2009-04-08T13:47:00.008+08:00

Had been thinking about all the beautiful and interesting stuff that i wished to blog about. All of that sadly stayed as thoughts and pure imagination.

getting lazier and lazier as days passes, im starting to talk in bits and pieces instead of sentences. it would be wise for everyone to shun and avoid me at all cost, just in case my infectious disease of laziness starts spreading to ya (you-all).

really really really late entry.

Day with the girls =)

we went bowling that day, i was very eager to prove that my bowling skills are BETTER than expected. i had lots of fun that day, it was a laughter filled day. i love my girlfriends!!

superbowl

choosing the right one. =))
she was pulling her shorts all the time when we bowl =.=''

wee!

siok eng!

In the 'BN' aka Behind Nei Nei.

yes, im behind huizhen.

the final score for the first round. i still manage not to make a single pin fall for 3 rounds. just look slots 7-9.

during the game whenever it was huizhen's turn i would stand behind her and chant 'LONG GOU LONG GOU'! so if you take a good look at the scores, she had alot of dashes too! wahahaha! my power to curse is really really powerful okay? good work huizhen! HAHAHA.

after that we went to newyork newyork to have our dinner after the long day.

the nyny in jurong provides FREE COTTON CANDY! of course we were damn excited that all of us demanded for our free cotton candy even before we have our dinner.

judy tries to hide behind the cotton candy, proving that it is indeed a great big cotton candy. WAHAHAA.

mine!

perhaps it was the cotton candy, i went to the toilet after the meal as my tummy was hurting. perhaps it was the shit conversation that huizhen was sharing that caused my toilet trip. ( affected psychologically)

i was damn angry that i had second servings to make sure that it wasnt the cotton candy that made me go to the toilet!

yes, it wad the cotton candy.

i went to the toilet again after i finish the second serving which i shared with huizhen.

-.-''

a great day spent with people that i adore and love. its been a long time, hope that we can go out more often =))

thank you girls!

Girls night with sistas!

im getting lazy, let the pictures do the talking.

half drunked face. -_-'

great night out.

love you girls =))

2009-04-06T03:10:00.002+08:00

currently im really sick, perhaps it was the unpredictable weather, maybe it was something else. one thing is for sure,

I FEEL LIKE SHIT.

theres really really so many things i hope to blog about but my laziness is holding me back. great, now i have one more excuse to shelf out myself from other important things.

been doing nothing much but living life as it is, boring and dull. next important date would be 28th April, it determines whether the 2k++ was spent wisely or wasted away. im hoping for the best =)

wish me luck.

2009-04-02T01:49:00.003+08:00

will upload tonnes of photos the next time, i hope?

met up with people i love last weekend. =))

seeya!

2009-03-19T01:51:00.002+08:00

GREAT NEWS FOR FLAT CHESTED JIE MEI MEN! =))

turn off that stupid music at the side bar on the right! quick! do it!

now, you are going to step into a new life, a life full of hopes and torment. the others will start cursing and making fun of your boobs, not because its insignificant to the eye but ITS THE GREAT BOOBIES!

watch the video below =)) YOU WILL ENJOY IT!

been staying at home to slack lately, im kinda enjoying this kind of life and the freedom. im happy leading a simple life like this, things would be better if i can meet my friends more. yes hongu, i miss you too =))

Things wasnt great for me these few days, im kind of relieve that at least things are getting better. there are so many times that i thought that i hated you and would do everything that i can to hurt and harm you. the pain you brought me has become so deep and the implications became complex. yet i know that i only have you to share this relation with me and that you only have me in this world.

Im trying, trying my best to be a better person that i can be proud of. Sometimes i hope that i am this and not that ( that kinda stuff lah). Have to admit that i have a blissful life with things that i dreamt and wished for. material life have gotten so much better since last year. i remember how mrlorrylongcar used to pay for everything when we first started dating. he would always put on this simple smile and tell me its okay. obviously i felt bad but i know that im freaking broke and theres nothing i can do about it. that assuring smile touched my heart each time, not because he paid for something but because i know he really meant what he said.

no wonder they said younger girls are easier to please -.-'' now i understand it.

amazing how the greed in people grows with age. im also the victim of such culture that i am truely ashamed of. so from today onwards, a little more appreciation and less grumbles.

loves!

2009-03-18T22:43:00.002+08:00

EH,

i pui you.
go pick that shit that ive just threw away. =)
THANK YOU stupid!

pui!

2009-03-17T01:41:00.002+08:00

Dad just passed me his phone and make me read this sms that is entirely made up of chinese characters. Initially i thought i wouldnt be much of a problem, come'on ITS JUST CHINESE! even though im know to have diffculties in this subject but HEY IM SPEAKING MANDARIN LIKE EVERY SINGLE DAY WITHOUT FAIL.

The sms was about the bad economy and blah blah blah..

I started off great and gained so much confidence as i skim through the first page. I felt that i did great being able to recongize the words even though the sentence came out in chunks and bits here and there.

Then the second and third page. DAMN! even though i was able to pull it off, i was half guessing and half making up what the actual meaning was.

Im really wondering how did i ever pass my exams with this kind of standards.

well, thats boring and move on. haha

went over to dearest house to pei him study(more like he study while i slack and sleep). i was really tired and girlgirl came over to sleep by my side. hehe. im loving her so much right now and i just wish to hug her all the time. even though there are times she really pissed me off so badly that i would just love to strangle her to death, yet she is really one sweetheart to me =D it doesnt take much to make her happy, perhaps a simple toy or treat will do. all it take is for her to show that cute face, it makes everyone smile =)

when dearest was done with his studying, we went over to IMM to get tickets. YES! we are going to oasis concert! Yes im smiling even though im not very sure who they are.! however im extremely excited about goin indoor stadium because ive never been there! wee!

dearest sent me home after dinner, i was a little guilty it.
hes tired, i know yet theres this little selfish part of me that wishes to see him more =c
thank you,
i know , i know, i know, i know
im happy just to have you

wee~

2009-03-15T01:41:00.003+08:00

today had been a fruitful day and i have gained a little more confidence =D

went to NTU to take a look at the courses. boarded this bus with some secondary school girls and i realised that how crazy young girls can get. they actually screamed when they see this group of guys -.-'' wtf?

after that i met up with lorrylongcar and went to supreme court together. its quite an experience actually, to see how a court looks like and the way they speak. im quite impressed by almost everything =D Saw a really young judge, it was beyond my imagination. i guess i have been watching too much television and it influenced me so much.

then we ended up in marina square to walk around. saw SP's students graduation projects, looked around and was quite impressed by some of the work done. then as we were walking around the circumference and giving a quick glance at the works as we were walking, i saw something that caught my eye. It managed to make me walk back and take a second look at the picture of this lady on the small booklet. To my delight, the small booth belonged to jiejing =D tried walking around to find her and wish her the best. couldnt find her so we went back home =D

i understand that sometimes i get emotional and my mood starts swinging. its this sudden feeling of unfairness that pissed me off for that moment. i dont know why but at times , things just gets to me and i feel all the negative things. thanks for sticking by, thanks for being patient

i dont know why but recently i just love using =D

so,

=D!

2009-03-12T23:07:00.002+08:00

Have not been blogging for a long long long long time. Been caught up with my own things.......NAH! Ive been spending a great deal of my time doing nails and getting bloody frustrated with it.

thats all for the update.

BYES~

2009-02-22T01:00:00.003+08:00

Our 1year and 6th month anniversary

its cliche to say 'time flies',perhaps it is but its really hard to deny this fact.

its already our 1year 6th month before i even realise how far we've come, time just flies without me knowing.

this relationship was never easy to even begin with and im glad that we hung on through the hard times and came to where we are right now.

there were times that we tested each other's patience and our faith in each other, the conclusion is the same for everytime : we couldnt let go, the love was deep.

before we even started, i thought i understood you. perhaps the understanding was too shallow. i gained greater understanding in this 1year and 6months.

i never thought i would go crazy over anyone else, you made that happened.

i thought my heart was locked, yet i never realized that you were holding onto the key all along.

everytime when i wanted to let go, you held onto my hand tighter.

you gave me the warmth when my world was cold.

ive found comfort in your arms.

you stayed true and being forgiving everytime.

you gave me the best while you didnt mind settling for something sub-standard.

for everything you gave me, i appreciate it.

i love you

for everything that you are

for all that you gave

for the man that i love

thank you.

our one year sixth month.

2009-02-15T11:53:00.002+08:00

Judy tagged me awhile back. Gonna do this here, i dont really know how to use facebook =)

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

1) I love to drink cold water.
2) Im doing this because im really bored =c
3) Im currently in love with nail art
4) Hope to own more OPI colours! =)
5) its been at least 3 good years since i last got addicted to anything on TV ( still going on )
6) At this point, it feels that its damn hard to continue this list.
7)oH! im learning driving right now =)
8)I love my dearest sista =) miss them too!
9) Wonders if i should ask sistas to celebrate our monniversarys together! since it falls on the same date =)
10)Wants that Kenneth Cole watch badly =)
11)Feels that the music video 'Please dont leave me' by pink is psychotic but damn in love with it anyways =)
12)Loves my new/old Xelibri phone. wee~
13)Managed to keep ants away from my beautiful sunny! sunny the sunflower dearest gave me yesterday !
14) have the urge to step on girlgirl again. hehe~
15)Slut for nice bags and shoes~
16)Hates smokers
17) HATES FBT. THE UNIVERSAL SHORTS. i really hate how people misuse it and walk around with it all the time.
18)hopes and prays that davee get well soon.
19)Wants to win TOTO/4D really badly. A BIG ONE PLEASE
20) praying that my hardwork pays off. please payoff ~!
21)TIRED

2009-02-04T23:29:00.002+08:00

Today could be recorded as my top 20 suay-iest day of all time.

Planned to wake up early so i can go bbdc to apply for my PDL. Not only i fail to wake up early, i had to go down to the bank because of a mistake the lady over the counter made. By the time i was done with all my shit, i was late. I thought of taking a cab down so i will be in time to apply for PDL before my lesson. TA-MA-DE, hao si bu si i flagged a silver cab without noticing and HAD TO PAY AN EXTRA DOLLAR.

Even though i appeared to be really calm, the thoughts in my brain was 'AHHhHhHhHhHhHhHhHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, why am i so cockeyed?'

Then after apply for PDL, i went for my lesson. Had a hard time looking for the right vehicle but eventually did with some help from other instructor. Found my instructor and he asked me to go over to the driver seat straight away. wah , i was so nervous lah! i went over to the driver's side and opened the back door to place my bag at the passenger's seat. TO MY HORROR, THE BACK WAS FILLED WITH ULU-ULU STUFF. there was no place to place my bag.

okay, im lazy

to conclude :

went over ngee ann and jiahui pangseh me after i waited for her for one hour. -.-''
i saw the only person i hated in this world today. YES, I WAS SO SUAY AND IT WAS SUCH A BAD SIGHT THAT UNTIL NOW MY EYES ARE STILL TWITCHING FROM ALL THE HORROR

lastly, ( the worst of all )

STARHUB CUT MY LINE AGAIN FOR THE 2ND/3RD TIME. I CANNOT REMEMBER.
i swear that i wouldnt use starhub mobile ever again. ta-ma-de, so money hungry.

i will use singtel the moment the contract ends.

BLOODY STARHUB!

2009-02-02T21:46:00.001+08:00

A little appeal to your kindness to start my entry, please take a look at this blog

http://maovellous.wordpress.com/

read about Davee's case.

When i saw the picture of the wound, there is this pain that surges up. I really cannot imagine the pain that the poor dog suffers from. Sometimes i get blisters from all the walking and the contact of foot and new shoes, it pain is almost unbearable. So its beyond the imagination of you and I regarding the amount of pain the poor dog suffers. Its really heartbreaking for me yet i understand that there aren't much i can do but to pray and hope for the best for her.

There are many many animals out there who is in a worse situation than this. Pass on the address to your friends to raise awareness regarding the poor animals that need help.

Please dont buy dogs, adopt them.

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Okay back to blogging about what had been happening.

The photos below had been uploaded a long long time ago but i was too lazy to organise and blog. Blogger is super super user unfriendly. I had to post up tonnes of photos and after it was uploaded, there is like a huge space between two photo. I had to spent close to 10 minutes just to delete all the empty spaces inbetween and its super turn-off. So the decision to blog when im free just kept dragging on and on until today. Im not very sure if i have the patience and ability to blog about everything that had happened. There is not much will to complete them either, so i shall stop when im tired. waahahahahaha.

During the mid Jan, dearest took one freaking week of off and i was able to spend one whole week with dearest. YUP! I was able to see him E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y for that whole week. We did alot of things and went to alot of places. There was no record of what we did on which days so im gonna blog by the EVENTS that happened.

so enjoy it!

1a) KTV session

mr lorrylongcar's throat was itchy and he was dying to showcase his vocals to me. Ended up waking up real early and rushed to Clementi Kbox.

i was really forgetful that day and left my wallet at home. I HAD TO PRAISE MR LORRYLONGCAR NON-STOP FOR THE DAY. i called him yandao,shuai ge and all kinda crap that came to my mind.

im going hell for lying, IM SORRY FORGIVE ME PLEASE!

he was so happy that someone (me) told him that he was handsome for the first time in his entire life.

first and only time.

His fake smile again and trying to make my face look big in this photo.
SUCESSFUL LAH YOU!

B) Ktv with sista,wenghua and lorrylongcar

Visited the famous 10bucks ktv at chinatown. It was a really nice place and very worthwhile! However i do notice that the choice of songs is like 98% of kbox's collection.

I always complaint that kbox do not offer good music video for english songs and most of it ended up being some girl in swimwear or random scenery to pair up with that song. i have to admit that it is really lousy, but nothing beats this.

NO VIDEO AND JUST WORDS ONLY! WAH LAU?

2) Newyork Newyork

after the great dining experience with lia at newyork newyork the other time i decided to bring mr lorrylongcar over to give it a try.

YET

HE IGNORED ME

CONTINUE TO IGNORE

and kept pressing his lousy phone

their rootbeer float.

notice that mr lorryshittyass is still messaging somebody in the background?

rock candies!

i think this was bought during the last day of 2008 so its totally irrelvant. however i just wanna blog about it to show my love for it!

YUMMY!

3) Night at neighbourhood park

As usual, we went to the park near my house and talk cock.

child-like? yes

cute? no

4) Donation to Salvation Army

Packed 2 big box of bags and donated it to the salvation army. I was a little paiseh to donate the bags because the box that holds them was damn dusty.

oh! dearest sent mummy to work before we went to salvation army. i guess my mom was too happy and started to act like her usual self and embarassed lorrylongcar.

paiseh hor dearest!

5) Mount Faber Park

Honestly and SERIOUSLY, theres not much there so try not to go.

if im not wrong, this is the canopy bridge? not suitable for humji people like us who whimp at the sight of the distance from ground.

he saw a construction worker!

6) The railway track near bukit timah

it was a really nice view! =)

However the stones?pebbles? on the track almost pierced my foot lah! so painful!

YES, WE ALMOST GOT HIT BY A TRAIN.

WE RAN DOWN THE TRACK LIKE SO CRAZY IDIOTS!

7) Took pictures at dearest's secondary school

Google it, the school does not exist anymore. whats left is only a building full of great memories

the building was abandoned and locked. even the pond that was there had disappeared.

time can really do so much. i really wonder how the toh-tuck campus is right now? even though we might complain a hell lot during our school days, yet it is exactly what we hated that we missed the most.

8) East coast with girlgirl!

shes was so angry with the sea that she had to show her teeth

shes scared lah!

she never forget to sit like a 'shu nu' infront of cameras =)

NOTICE! THIS IS DAMN INTERESTING LESSON:

how to take photos with your dog!

1) hold your dog up and pose!

2) put down your dog asap..

or....

she will attempt to bite yoU!

this is the cutest photo of her.. =)

shes saying 'YUM'

9) Dinner with Shiying and paul or pual

we gathered at this japanese resturant at yishun. ive been there before and the food was great!

nice curry!

nice salad!

the curry and salad was so nice that i forgot to take the picture during the rest of the evening.

then lorrylongcar drove us to...

lorry longcar ordered a damn weird icecream

this is nice~~

10) Safra @ Yishun

we went there with a happy mood but i ended up going out of that place feeling shitty.

see this , im the helloooooo fella i cannot believe that my bowling skills is so bad lah! at one point the gates where the pins are actually refused to open up. then lorrylongcar hoax and said that it closed because i was a lousy player as none of the pins fell.

KNS

i was so fed up and we proceeded on with pool.

i suck at this stupid game. that shittylorrycrap was so fed up with me that he told me i was wasting time. TMD!

next time dont cry when you lose to me arh!!!

11) UBI SHOPPING!

its a very unexpected place but we went all the way to ubi industrial park to shop! read some good reviews on the internet and decided to give it a try.

the perfumes there are much cheaper than the market price and so its very worth it. on top of it, the salesgirl gave really genuine and honest reviews of the products.

in the end i bought this

the market price for this is 80++ ( small bottle) while i only got it for 38bucks

lorrylongcar bought this.

the market price is at least 100bucks and he bought it for only 60bucks!

message me if you want to know the address =)

then we went tp to get our chocz

all these for 48bucks. worth it or not?

12) pet cafe with girlgirl

sleepy when she is in the car~~

the pets there are really adorable.

however i will not introduce the pet cafe at all. the food is nice but the service is lousy like fuck.

we passed by wan qing yuan!

thank you for everything dearest! it was a great week!

thanks for being there when i needed you. guess i must have acted like a baby and crying so hard had made me real ugly.

the hug you gave really comforts my confusions. i will want to hold your hands to the end.

i love you.

ps: if you take good look at the photos ive posted, see what mr lorrylongcar is wearing

2009-01-24T03:33:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday my dearest.

i hope you've enjoyed it.

LOVES!

2009-01-06T14:59:00.006+08:00

The first official entry of year 2009! It was supposed to be a damn great event but i am damn bored and feeling useless.

I am :

1) Jobless

2) waiting for my crappy asos delivery

3)reading manga everyday

4) taking afternoon naps.

however i do have some astonishing achievements these few weeks

1) finish watching Skip beat ( 1-13)

2) finish watching slam dunk anime ( up to esp 1o1)

3) almost finishing meteor garden ( which i gave up because it was really boring )

4) done a wall paper for my beloved sistas!

i love them so much lah. if there is anyone i wanna thank, it would be my beloved sistas who stuck by all the time. it seemed like there is this common agreement to spend certain dates together like last day of the year, christmas, each other birthdays and the yearly event of 060606,070707,080808 and the years to come.

it wasnt easy to stick so close together but we overcome everything together with mutual respect. i love you all so so so so so so so so so much.

im now in the state of confusion.

IS THIS BAG NICE? I WANNA BUY IT.

but i dont know whether it is worth my money leh?

HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW. =c

guess i will think about it and.................... forget abit the whole bag issue. hais, it is simply out of my budget.

(random events)

decorated my lappy with my signature apple smiley face =) it looks so friendly and cute right now. im thinking of doing g-mask for my lappy despite the lousy experience i had with them. another way to waste money uh? i really dont bear to have a single scratch on my new baby, I PAID LIKE CLOSE TO 500 for it while the rest was sponsored by dad.

finally went to eat at newyork newyork for the first time while shopping with lia.

i would recommend anyone to have the chicken chop.

BLOODY NICE LAH~ SHOULD HAVE IT AGAIN AND AGAIN.

wee~

i have a gut feel that marina square 'recycle' their lightings.

it looked exactly the same as the ones being displayed during last year.

finally

dad broke a chair again.

Im having driving lessons tomorrow!

wish me all the best.!

loves!

2009-01-01T01:43:00.001+08:00

stop, erase,rewind,play.

happy 2009 people.

2008-12-29T01:52:00.002+08:00

My heart twitched momentarily when he said that. That kind of pain had not been felt for a long long time. I have forgotten how it hurts and even to spell it. Following that was a tensed/anxious mind that i started to lose the concentration and lose the momentum of the things i was doing. The only thing that was in my heart was ' No, no he wouldnt. he wouldnt, he wouldnt' yet i was at the same time questioning who could she be? it was a mixed feeling that swept me off my feet. my body felt numbed even when i decided that the event was impossible because i could trust him.

i knew what was going through my heart and body.

Jealousy would be the word to sum up all these feelings.

im loving you all over again.

2008-12-28T02:53:00.002+08:00

Today i felt something that i couldnt see for a long time. Perhaps i was blinded by my own pride and self-centered behaviour for the past one year plus of my relation that i failed to even see it. or maybe the length of this relation had wear off my vision. i always claimed that i understood and know but when i look back, how much do i actually think i know?

i was living in my own world thinking that i could see everything.

yet, today dearest made me the happiest girl ever and everything is so much clearer right now

i love you dearest.
today i saw it, i saw all the efforts that you have been making.
that satisfied face when you told me that you are happy because your world is happy.
i know your tired and unsure yet you have never failed to show me that smile.
your heart-warming smile never fails to comfort me.
sorry to be blinded all the time and failing to see how much all the simple things meant.
i dont know what i have done to find someone like you but im sure it must be some world-saving deed.

love you =)

2008-12-26T13:36:00.006+08:00

Christmas this year was really great even though there were some dead fish eye moron who tried to give me a hard time. hey, im not mad or anything but i pity that moron's ball-less boyfriend who is only capable of acting like a wimp! i really look down on wimps who couldnt control their girlfriends and allow their girl to behave like some lunatic or lose cannon.

with people like that around, im more thankful that i have chosen a right boyfriend. every time when i witness or experience some crappy events that my guy friends do, i will look at my boyfriend and be really really really thankful towards him. wee~

spent my time walking around marina and suntec yesterday then watched YES MAN with dearest. it was funny as usual and jim carrey's movie had never disappointed me. yay~ while waiting for the movie to start, dearest and i decided to take pictures because we hadnt taken one for a damn long long long time.

anyway i have been telling boyfriend that he has a fake smile whenever he has his photo taken. he always give that time smile which only showed the upper row of his teeth and the sides of his face looks cramp. Okay, this is bad description but his smile is just bloody fake and he would be so much better not smiling at all. =)

here are some examples

1) Act innocent and dont know want to smile anot. awkward face

2) typical bloody fake smile

3) aiya might as well dont smile

4) one dimple smile ( yes, he only have ONE dimple on his tiny face)

perhaps dearest have noticed how stupid and fake his smile looked all the time that he decided to give a sincere smile during christmas. i am really happy that dearest actually appeared to be sincerely happy for the first time after the past 30 years of unhappy photo-taking. so here it is!

wee

he is not shy. he is attempting a new stunt of hiding his entire head behind his shoulders and he failed. i would fault his big nose for the failed attempt.

before having the picture taken, he insisted to have it taken at a 90degrees angle. i was screaming 'NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, MY FACE WILL LOOK VERY BIG!'

.................

............

........

....

YA IN THE END MY FACE IS LIKE FREAKING BIG LAH. KNS

best picture of the day =) wee~ AND MY FACE IS FREAKING SMALL, WAHAHAHAA

christmas eve was spent with my dearest sistas. it was rather simple but very very very interesting. hehehe

it started with the dinner

the dinner was so filling that huizhen and i almost puke.

so in the end lia had to stuff everything down again. wahahhaa

then we went to lia's house to watch some 'interesting' movie. okay not very interesting actually, i almost fell asleep on the bed while the two were concentrating intensively on the screen.

ya lah, we watched some prostitute and gay movies.

the interesting part is the gift exchange.

the three of us are obviously unapreciative of the gifts prepared by each other. THEY EVEN CONDEMN MY MELROSE FLIPFLOPS just because of the colour.

lol, whatever lah~~~~~~~~~~

i love you guys!

2008-12-23T18:53:00.004+08:00

Been extremely busy these days doing things that i always love!

1) walked around town till my legs gave in and started to complain non-stop by sending painful messages.

2) Hang out with my favourite crappy girlgirl for half a day.

3) Watched anime on youtube for the whole day.

4) Jogged whenever i feel like it ( its unbelieveable but i actually did it okay?)

5) Played psp until the battery was totally drained off. ( Thats before shit ass took it away )

so whatever it is, i shall just post up pictures. im too bloody lazy to elaborate what happened recently.

so enjoy!

nites!

2008-12-18T01:42:00.002+08:00

someone gave a great advice just now,

'There are so many ways that a man can use to show that he really loves the woman. The first thing to start with is not to upset and hurt her. By avoid those things that would hurt her, you are showing that you love her'

its so simple yet so many failed to even express the meaning out to the ones they love, that includes me.

think if the things you do actually hurt your girl, avoid it if she really mattered to you.

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2008-12-10T14:07:00.002+08:00

wee~ yesterday i went for a facial treatment with shiying!!! lalala. anyway i was so impressed with the skill of that lady because she managed to squeeze out the pus from my 'ever-lasting' pimple ( which was located at the most prominent place on my face and bothering me for like more than a month) and got rid of almost all the nasty white or black heads on my nose.

now i have a squeeky clean nose and IM LOVIN' IT!

since i have a damn clean face, i decided to further 'take care' of my face by using the eyemask. YES, THE ONE I HAVE BEEN INTRODUCING TO ANY AND EVERYONE WITH SERIOUS DARK RINGS! being the lazy me, i left the eyepatch overnight and ta-dah! the darkrings around my eyes really lighten up!

gosh, i must be damn bloody lucky to meet great products for my face =)

still remember that i had pimples outbreak when i was secondary two and suay suay that year my form teacher want to 'por' the principle by acting creative. he took the individual picture of the entire class and stuck it on the walls of our class. fucking suay lah, i had the worst skin ever on that day when the photo is taken. when we got back the photo at the end of the year, i tore it away. guess i was running away from the truth but fuck it lah who cares?

aiya, i tired

bye

2008-12-10T01:48:00.001+08:00

'I sit on a man's back, choking him and making him carry me, and yet assure myself and others that I am very sorry for him and wish to ease his lot by all possible means—except by getting off his back. ' - Leo Tolstoy

this quote is si bei mean but it says so much about the nature of human.

reflect on it.

2008-12-09T01:54:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wish that...

...you would pay a little bit more attention on the things that Ive said. I'm getting older and it has become a torture to repeat myself time and time again.

...your wandering eyes would just fix on me. after all, I'm the one who had promised eternity with you.

...that things would become simpler so that we would not be distracted.

...we would hold a little tighter. the world is filled with wonders and we might get too fascinated that eventually we lose track of each other.

...our hearts can merge as one, misunderstandings would decrease and there would be less mind-guessing games.

...we would feel each other with our heart and soul. everything else in the world would falter and fade away one day but only the true self of one would remain strong.

...your memory would be better so that all the promises made would be kept.

...my presence in your heart would be deeply rooted that you will think about me and the things we did when your unhappy and that would be the reason enough to make you smile.

to you:
there's nothing but the most sincere love for you. your the one who saved me from all that misery i have caused myself. when i reflect about how my past, it became so unworthy because your the one who showed me what love is. you hang onto me after all the hardships, i understand its not easy because we are so different in all the ways. yet as time goes by, all the differences had become into similarities, we've tried to accept, embrace and adapt to each other.

i love you like i never did before.
hearts

2008-12-07T02:41:00.003+08:00

read some 12 year old girl's blog and AHHHhHhhHh i blog like them!! exactly the same way when i am trying to build up suspense... arhhh, children in the new generation learn pretty fast uh? or am i the who have not grown up? wahaha

ohh, about the topic of growing up, the thought of this movie that i just watched crossed my mind.

yes, i watched winx. Its not the one on tv but the actual movie.

i really dont know what to begin with, remembered that hengling told me that the movie was ending soon and there was no one who was interested in it. watched a couple of children's movie before like Charlie and choc factory ( my favourite ), madagascar (1 and 2) , kungfu panda and wall-e. all of it was really funny and meaningful so i thought this one would be around the same standard. watched the preview before and the animations were impressive, really different from the ones on tv.

come'on its only winx, how bad can it get?

i thought to myself.

im stuck, i dont even know how to go on further to comment on my close to 2 hours experience in the cinema. its really a movie for kids, hengling complaint that i made alot of noise during the entire movie. not that i do it on purpose but i.......i....... i cannot help it lah! mostly the noises were made up of sighing and huhs?

if im nice i would say

" if my age can be deducted by 7-10, i would love it! its all so princess-cy, like a dream come true. its like a girl's dream come true with all the magic and good looking prince/king just for that princess alone.''

okay. but im not nice, im mean! so i wouldnt even bother to comment.

i guess the drama element really shocked me.dont hate the movie, i dont like it either. i would suggest people above age 13 to completely give up the thoughts of watching this.

comentless

2008-12-06T19:05:00.004+08:00

Bad news, bad news and more bad news.

today could be labeled as one of the worst day that had ever written in the history of my life. it really sucks to the core, leaving me really disheartened and tired.

woke up in the morning feeling extremely restless and rowdy. feel like i didnt want to attend the stupid graduation ceremony because it dont really make much sense. im really someone who look out for 'signs' to predict how my day would go.

so as i were preparing for the day, there were 'signs' to warn me about the day

1) i woke up feeling like crap and tried to run away from event by messaging mandy and hoping that she would tell me that they didnt prepare my seat.
2) i broke the mug that my juniors gave ( bad )
3)at one point of time, i thought i 'lost' my keys. ( CRAP, WHY DID I EVEN FIND IT?)
4) dearest and hengling told me that they dont have extra safety pins for me so i thought that the academic dress was gone.

ALL THE SIGNS IS STARING RIGHT INTO MY FACE! WHY DID I EVEN GO.

ya, i went lah. list of lousy events.

1)I FREAKING LOST MY EZ-LINK
felt like my world was down and everything starts to fall apart. WHY DID I LOSE MY EZ LINK LIKE ONE MILLION TIMES JUST THIS YEAR? though i kept telling myself that it was okay as i will be paying adult fare soon. yet it screwed my plan of chiong-ing my driving lessons during the december because the student transport fares would be cheaper.

so hell with it! my plan is screwed so i will be taking my own time to complete the driving lessons. that sucks

2) i missed that freaking sales. im fucked up.
70% Marc Jacobs Sales
30% DKNY
30% Burberry

='c

why why why?
( btw im in love with a dkny bag~ wee~)

3) dearest had a last minute instruction that he had to work last minute. he was pissed and it affected me.

4)it rained when we are about to bring girl girl to the park to see her friends. even though the rain stopped when we reached there , it still sucks. there were only 2 dogs and one of them pissed girlgirl off by trying to hump her.

5)dearest couldnt send me home even though he had a car. it saddens me =(

6) im feeling all like crap and damn tired. guess i have been missing alot of sleep the last 2 days.

even though its crappy, lets look on the bright side

1) i finally got my diploma and over with that stupid blah blah blah school
2) i attended the ceremony for free~ it cost $190 leh
3) dearest impressed me again. he gave me things that he will never bear to give to himself. i appreciate it, thanks.

in conclusion, the crappy events outweighs the brightside. so im feeling crappy.

hai..

2008-12-01T17:08:00.012+08:00

wee~ im back after settling some blog thing. real tired right now after do so much html codes for one day, i wanna take a rest bah. wahaha.

anyway i have changed the blog skin and added MUSIC PLAYER. this should add some entertainment to this blog bah. i personally love the songs in the player. if you dont like it, just shut it up. wahahaahhaa.

anyway after blogging for such a long time yesterday, i only managed to blog about what happened on the actual day of both off my sistas birthday. okay here comes the celebration part.
huizhen's birthday was rather simple. just a simple meal with us and her beloved at bugis. i do not remember taking pictures of it because i was in a rush so i did not bring my camera along. we had korean meal and it was nice lah. ended up eating alot of kimchi because it was free and drinking alot of spicy soup which again is free. wahaha.

oh shit, im getting more and more stingy leh!

after that we went to have some desert on the opposite road. the mango thingy was so damn nice lah. i would love to go there again and again!

in the end lia took her bike home and hz left bugis with her sweetie. LEFT ME AT BUGIS ALL ALONE ='C lol.

hope that she had a heart warming day with people who loves her =)

the next one was lia's birthday celebrations.

three of us attended this special event.

her birthday present this year is a ring and to match it up, hz and i both got ourselves one each. i remember last time we got rings for ourselves and in the end i lost it. wahahaha

this time round i wont lose it anymore. SO EXPENSIVE CAN.??? i wont lose it de lor! to add on, its so special right now. the rings was engraved with each other's name.

lia's ring with huizhen and my initials

huizhen's ring.
my ring

special right? wahahaha.

here are all our rings put together.

we proceeded to have our dinner at Mr Beans.

oops! caught you zilian wor!

went to play some games after that at minds cafe.

laughed until we cannot help it. some games are really damn funny lah.

went home with a tired body but obtained a pleasant experience.

the lightings are really beautiful.

do you like it?

2008-12-01T13:14:00.002+08:00

changed my blogskin back to the previous that i had. guess i still love the simple design rather than the kiddish colourful skin. this is much soothing to the eyes uh? haha

need to get back to work.

blog later

2008-11-30T22:16:00.017+08:00

baroo anyone?

http://cosmos.bcst.yahoo.com/up/player/popup/?cl=10851625

this video is damn bloody cute lah. i swear every time girlgirl do that i would scream

'AWW SO CUTE~!'

ya, she is really annoying during most of the time but it is really this kind of small thing that make me go 'awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, okay maybe i still love her'' hehehe. as i blog about her right now, im begining to miss her already~!

i guess i have already changed alot after interacting with her for such a long time. she changed my perception towards pets, especially cats. im not saying im no longer afraid of cats but i dare to touch them right now =) not to even mention that i find most of the dogs very approachable and friendly.

theres really not much to fear about most pets and the reason is damn simple.

even if they bite, they will choose to bite their owners first. i can understand the fears of being bitten because i kanna it so many times. she is really kns and i only have one thing for her.....

CANE. WAHAHAAHAHAAHA.

still, theres nothing but love for her. i really hope that she would be happy as that is what that actually matters the most.

that cutest you, i love you~

now looking back at my life...

my computer had some anger management problem a couple of days back and i had to do everything i could to save up all the important documents that i have. obviously my choice was the pictures that i have inside my computer. it contained so much beautiful memories of my all my loved ones.

i tried my best but i just couldnt save them all up. managed to keep part of my memory with me.perhaps it was an attempt from some higher powers for me to reflect about the past by forcing me to take a look at the pictures that was taken.

there were just happy moments writen all over the pictures and the sad ones are erased. many of the hoo-ha(s) are kept underwrap and never to be mentioned because friends would protect each other no matter what.

no doubt there are changes that happened this entire year. im happy that all of it are in place right now. at least for now, everyone is happy.

'if i could, i would........'

this thought had never crossed my mind even though of all the things that occurred. im starting to understand that things have been said and done. there is no use of hoping i could turn back time and re-write the what-so-ever desirable result ahead. the only thing that can be done is to think of solutions and move on. i believe that all these are process to make each of us grow stronger and its considered as 'tough period' of times.

your life is not a story that you orchestrate in the manner that you want. it is the product of all the people and events that have ever crossed your path. think about it, its for you.

im happy right now, its all that matters.

i have everyone and every thing that i ever needed.

thats all that counts.

now beware, the long long part of the entry comes.

okay, i have disappeared for like close to 2 months from my blog? there were many many great events that had happened. so i will now try to blog all , urm how about MOST about it. haha.

1) my dearest sis's birthday! (huizhen)

i had a crazy idea for my dearest sis's birthday. i dont know why the hell i even proposed the crazy idea to lia. the crazy idea was to appear infront of her at 12mid-night to wish her a happy birthday. sweet right?

i had the great honour to be the first pillion of my dearest lia. i have my own helmet one okay? im a professional bike passenger. wahahhaa. actually i have no idea what the hell a pillion is ,i have never heard of it until that day.

her bike. it was all shiny and dont look like its actual age. wahaha

and we gang up with him~!

so we reached her place at about 11pm and waited.

and waited

and waited.
so at 1145pm, we took the lift and then walk a damn big round just to avoid being seen by her. for some strange reason, lia and i wore our helmets. i dont know for what actually.

so at 12am, we walked towards her door and...........

press the bell.

then.......................

nothing happen.

so we press the bell again...........

nothing happen.

and kept pressing...............

until a damn long time she came to the door and saw us! wee~

with her......

her pink present

lalalala! here she is at 12 mid night with her cake. actually theres a video of it but i cant find it so never mind lor!

this is the cake that she was holding. i know its very 'diao' but i couldnt find hello kitty cake on that actual day. wahaha. so must bear with it.

she is making a wish.

i wish my sis a very happy 19th birthday.
hope that you enjoyed the little effort that we put in.

with much loves =)

2) sis lia's birthday =)

the next very important event was lia's birthday. it was damn qiao that i am only left with my last paper and so i am more relaxed and had more time. okay, the plan was about the same as the previous event but the only difference is that i bought candles from ikea~ altogether there are 100 of them!

this time i met huizhen at around 11pm near lia's house.

we found this really great location to begin our secret mission of.......

arranging the candles. lol.

the place was just perfect, when lia open her window she can see all the wordings! the task was really tiring. after arranging the words, we had to light up the candles.

huizhen and i burnt our fingers a few times just to get it all lit up. painful but its worth it.

final product.
so at 12midnight, we thought that by calling lia and get her to open her window.
wrong, she was dead asleep.
so i estimate that huizhen and i combined make around 20 calls yet she did not wake up.

we panicked and thought that the plan was failing lah!

luckily something happened and my sister did wake up.
hao cai arh!

lia blowing off the candles =)
i hope you like it sis.!
hugs hugs.
happy 19th birthday, stay happy for always k?
loves.

im getting really tired now. thought that i could finish blogging but i failed lah.

so i will blog tomorrow. im getting real tired.

goodnight =)

2008-11-30T13:04:00.002+08:00

wee~ im finally back for a long long time after some fucked up experience with my fucked up lousy desktop. im so pissed with it that i have actually gotten myself a new LAPPY~ okay, no lah. my dad paid for most of it and i only fork out 400bucks for my new baby!

wee wee wee~

im so happy. i can be found online every single day so come and chat with me. wahahahaha. i will have no life for at least for the next 2 months because i am simply broke and have no money~ wee~

fuck. im bored liao. waahahahahahaha. bbyebyye

2008-11-23T00:01:00.002+08:00

Okay, i have been away for such a long time. but hey, WEE~ life still goes on well and great! =)

right now my computer is dying on me and i am doin all my best to save all the pictures that i have from the past 2 years. it really sucks not to update my own photobucket account and now i am going through hell just uploading pictures.

recently :

i have been spending hell lotta money and im gettin very pissed with that. i need $$$$!! ever since the A levels ended, i estimate that around 400 bucks is missing from my bank account. yes its sick and guess whats even worse. its only been 5 days since A levels have ended.
DAMN KNS.

been extremely into something damn facinating these days. that amazing thing is......
YAKULT!
yes, i love yakult so much that im gonna change my blog skin to yakult or mango theme when my bloody computer ends its rainy days. fucker computer~

oh! great im tired.

bye!

2008-10-03T10:35:00.004+08:00

dearest sent me this song.

everytime he would send me alot of songs and ask me to listen. most of the time i ended up NOT LISTENING to them, wahahaa. good that i bought Mr Zen not too long back so i uploaded all the songs he sent to me.

yesterday was the first time i noticed the words of this song. so i wondered if he was trying to tell me something. went on to listen to other songs he sent and there were so many that was so sweet.

sorry dearest that i couldnt see this earlier. =) i feel the same for you.

your my only one. <3

this shoe thingy belongs to girl girl. ironically, its not meant for walking but for her to EAT. it has this really nice milky smell. Damn, why can i smell girl girl everywhere?

smelly. wahahaha.

went to have dinner with lia after my emo trip 2 days back. she treated me dinner at this really nice place. wee~

i felt that the veggie was damn bitter but the dressing was really nice and refreshing. lia on the other hand feels that it was too salty.

as usual, i just dump whatever i dont wanna eat to my dearest sis. wahahahaa. she had not choice but to swallow them all. wahaha.

this was good!

chawamushi! or whatever the spelling is. lia and me gave each other this diao face when we saw it.

it was damn small. -.- and that thing that the chawamushi is in is not bowl but onion.

innovative uh?

one of the nicest chicken i have ever tasted =) really damn nice lah.

yummy salmon =)

thanks to my dearest sis, i am able to enjoy all these.

love you so much la! hugs.

dearest came down to visit me and brought me a gift.

sweet right!

this relationship has lots of ups and even more downs.

yet my silly boy hung onto me each time i said ' i dont want you anymore'

i dont want you, i need you.

theres so much patience and tolerance from him simply just because im not that kind of person.

im falling again and again for you all over again.

i love you =)

just you, yq~

2008-10-01T03:36:00.001+08:00

i love you lia!

hugs.

and you huizhen!

hugs!

2008-09-22T16:02:00.004+08:00

hello, im back blogging again. wee~

there's really no meaning to this picture but just feel that its really cute =)

i like this so much. dear bought this for me after he pissed me off because of his ahm run. i kind of forced him to buy this pair of shoes for me. its very special because its the first pair of shoes that dear had ever bought for me. that day i got that when we celebrated our first year.

i love you dearest =) hehe

i simply adore URS shoes =)

i think i clipped my own thumb when i tried to close the box for my watch. kns it was damn painful lah. when i told lorrylongcar about it, he was too busy singing and trying to make me deaf.

of course, having a bad temper of mine. I NIAO-ED HIM.

kelian wor~ but you deserved it lah. so orh bi orh bi.!

amazingly beautiful earpiece that lorrylongcar exchanged with me. he got that free creative earpiece so again i forced him to get a new earpiece for me.

i love this. its really cute and damn pretty. on top of it, really good sound quality can be expected.

this has become one of the top 5 must-haves on my list when i am goin out =)

this dog is cute.

cute like hell

so she is hell.

-.-

lol. but still i love you sooooooooo much!

this year's suprise, im damn fortunate sia.

anyway went to chinese garden with lorrylongcar and family.

this year's theme is HELLO KITTY n friends.

sis.zhen will love this. so pinkish.

hmmmm.. red for my favourite sister lia!

wahaha. i like this so much =)

okay im bloody lazy to continue.

congrats to lia for her new licence ! wee!

i have my own helmet. so when uh?

loves loves!

okay, do chem

NOW

2008-09-19T03:23:00.002+08:00

its 3.30am right now. just got back home not long ago.

i guess nights are very good reflective time. been thinking so much about my life and everything.

what is there to ask for more?
i have my most perfect boyfriend in the world.
i love you , yongqiang =)

missyou

2008-09-17T20:15:00.002+08:00

excessive drinking can cause brain to 'melt'.

its really scary and the center of the brain becomes hollow, just a pool of water right in the middle of the brain which has 'melted'.

i never knew brains can melt.

lol