Im addicted to him all over again =) VOYEUR!!

I was damn idiotic. mr lorrylongcar ( yes, its my nick name for him) kept calling me voyeur when i tried to take his picture. yeah, initially i do not know what the fuck it meant and hence the smartest move i thought was to LAUGH WITH HIM.

my smart move = stupid move

taken from dictionary.com

voy·eur (voi-yûr')

A person who derives sexual gratification from observing the naked bodies or sexual acts of others, especially from a secret vantage point.

KNS. he gave me such a bad term yet i lauged with him. if i were him i will laugh even harder because that idiot right infront of me is laughing at her own stupidity.

come to think about it..............

HE DID LAUGH HARDER WHEN I LAUGHED !!

i do not get sexual gratification hor. not from you at least. WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA

despite my stupid act and stupidity, the only good thing i did was to ignore his comment and continue taking his picture like nobody's business.

until we reached a stage when he completely ignores my actions.......

that sian face. -.-

headed off to bukit timah for dinner. the stretch of shophouses opposite of beauty world. only been there twice for lunch the whole of last year even though my school was a stone throw away.

yumyum. we had zhu chao!

it was really really yummy. almost everything was yummy besides that plate of hor fan that dearest ordered. kept telling him that it tasted like it had been dropped on floor and picked up before it was served to him.

wahahahaha. who ask him to comment my fish burger taste like crap when we were at mos burger. by the way, their fish burger really taste like crap, dont buy iT~!!

i ka0bei-ed nonstop about my desire to play pool. he finally gave in and brought me to this ulu ulu building. the journey there seemed to be taken from some ghost movie, the dark park with poor lightings, scary trees and big freaking drain that has no end to it.

as we were walking on the dark path, i asked him

'darling, is this considered romantic or scary?'

'romantic bah'

okay, then i must be a damn piece of shit. throughout the whole journey, i acted like we are going to be attacked by some ghost any time. started to hold his hand tighter and babble nonsense. perhaps it was really childish and stupid to be acting like this.

he smiled and brought my hand closer to him.

'dont be afraid, im here wif you'

that moment really touched me, felt really blessed to have someone to be standing by me at the darkest moment. the whole situation is symbolic to some point of my life, he was there for me. when i needed that hug , that hand to hold onto , he was there. in front of him im cannot pretend that im strong, he is able to see right through me.

thanks for everything my dearest.