STRESS

my blog was in the result of the search of

'why children make in their languge the mistake'.

the search engine that lead to this result was Yahoo.

fine, i would accept gladly this kind of result. i admit my English standard is darn low and i cant spell properly. ( it's true, i refer to dictionaries whenever i blog). the question that whirls around my mind is... WHAT IS THE PERSON TRYING TO SEARCH FOR??

forget about it. it really dont bother me much. I know i am bad in everything i am doing.

i guess there is this REALLY BIG CHIO BU in NTU named Huizhen. someone is trying to search for your profile online!! good for you but honestly it is damn unlucky for the person to end up in my blog and got disappointed as Huizhen in my link is only 16.

if you typed either

chinese girl fuck for 10years
or
9years old fucking girl

into your damn search engine. how about getting instant results and fuck yourself in your own head.

dont question how i know what others type in their search engine and my blog is in one of the results. IT'S THE COUNTER!!

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took MYE English paper today. It's freaking diffcult. saw some distress faces in the toilet after paper two. DAMN SUAY. 30minutes after the paper two started, MAMA DE , there was this severe pain in my stomach. it hurts so much that i thought i almost died there. no, it's not period cramp or what. it's the call for me to go toilet.

the stupidest thing was i refused to go. i was only at question 4. im afraid that if i went, i wouldnt have time to complete the paper. Bo Bian, endure with the pain until the end of everything.

MOOD SWING

been acting crazy these few days.

really felt that i am at the lowest point of my life.


1) my handphone has problem . SI BEI SUAY ( very unlucky)


it's good that my handphone is still under one year old so i am able to send it to the Samsung service center. was told that the service center was behind IMM. true, it was. it looked so near on the map but when you try walking, you will wonder how accurate the stupid map was.

The traffic lights were damn far away so i jay walked. i stood in the middle of the road after crossing half of it. waited and waited. in the end i got so fed up i couldnt even care if there were cars speeding pass. i cross the road without bothering about anything.

2) Caught of having long nails

i knew this day would come sooner or later. it was quite ridiculous as almost half of the class was caught of having long nails. BULLSHIT. i saw some of them with nails that are freaking short yet they were caught? it was later only i found out that if there were white section on you nails, it is considered as long. quite stupid.

3)There was a check on the day i bought my handphone to school

CRAP. i dont even have the habit of bringing handphone to school. THE TIME WHEN I BRING IT, THEY HAVE SPOT CHECK. what the hell? obviously i was nervous but honestly even if they want to conficate it, i dont really mind. i had plans of sending it to service center that afternoon. if they took it away, it is just a spoilt handphone and maybe i would have a reason to get a new one. HAHA. it's quite impossible, my family is currently broke but it is always good to have dreams.

4) Other incidents

not in the mood to explain much anyway.

Its the dreadful day of the week again. SUNDAY. it means that my dad would force me to mop the floor again. im not out today im in a freaking bad mood. what should i do if i have to MOP THE FLOOR , which is something i dislike the most.

easy. i have come out with a fool-proof plan. i will PRETEND that i have WHOLE PILE of homework that is not completed and trying my best to finish it when my dad wants to force me to mop the bloody floor. hope my plan works. *prays*

i guess i am really lazy. that is the truth and i wont argue over it.

had two idiotic old people drinking alcohol around 3am this morning. one is my dad and the other one is my mom. both of them were bullshitting nonsense from 2 plus all the way to 3 plus. it woke me up and i stayed awake for 3 whole hours. i went out to the living room at around 3 plus. obviously both of them knew that it's their big mouth which woke me up.

my dad started to blame my mom and her big mouth for it. Typical him. always shifting responsibilty to someone else and treating it like he was not in the wrong. my mom was so drunk that i dont even think she knew what was happening.

she pissed me off even when she was drunk. she started screaming at me when i refused to sleep. DO YOU THINK I WOULD WANT TO WASTE MY TIME OPENING MY EYES AND NOT SLEEP? NO!! IT'S YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND WHO WOKE ME UP WITH YOUR MORONIC CONVERSATION.

bullshit. she said she will wait till i sleep then she will do the same. CRAP. did i even ask for you to wait and WASTE your precious time? NO.

sometimes i really detest my mom. i feel that she did not even play her part of being my mom. honestly for the past 4 years, i hardly even see her face. still, she is my mom and i love her alot.

freaking family.

POP

My paradise

FINALLY, the day has come. NOW, I can finally concentrate on my studies!!

okay, nobody will even believe when i say it. i am going to delicate most of my time for my studies now. really hope to do well.

I dont know if it is coincidence or what but it all seemed so fake. are you really like this or the mask you are wearing is covering yourself too well? Hope it is not the latter.

blog later

Let me open another page of my old diary.

20-3-99

I hate Mrs Soong because the rule is one week write one time diary but she call us to write everyday.

after reading this entry, the incident just pops up and i remembered about it. i was quite pissed off about the 'writing-the-freaking-diary-everyday' thing. at that point, i felt that it is almost impossible to write different things every single day. put it in another way, i had a freaking boring life. i was just a no-brainer idiot then. couldnt really understand the rational of why we are forced to do things. anyway i started to write bullshit in the diary and obviously there was no comment everytime i handed them in. haha

i still remember that my primary 6 teacher told us about her writing diary when she was young. when she got older and read them, she found herself really ridiculous. in the end, she threw every of her diary away.

What might matter now, might not seemed to have any effect on you in the future. people grow up and that is when the word maturity comes in.

when i was primary 6, the people in class would pass this book around for the classmates to write on. Memo book perhaps? almost everyone in my class has a copy and the book was rotated around the class for people to write on. now i am really hoping that i did not write rubbish on it but some things will never change.

I still love Eminem alot. =D

Found part of my diary yesterday. Let me type out the exact words that i wrote more than 6 years ago.

21st Jan 1999

Today is still Jan our teacher Ms tan have left us and a new teacher have the come the new teacher is Mr chong. I knew many of them hate him because they said he is very quite and scolded us very loudly and they said he is very bored. he dont make us laugh.

can anyone tell me what was i have wrote? the worst is that the next day, i wrote exactly the same thing.

27Th Jan 99

The class

In the class the classmate that I hate most is A, B ,C and D.

B, C and D thinks highly of themself.

A I hate her because when she shout shut up I say shh to her she say you then keep quiet I say you then shut up she say keep quiet. I say to her I just calll you to shh and why you scold me. she say keep on saying shut up she also thinks highly about herself.

* Names changed to A, B , C and D to protect the identity of the people.

Honestly i never realise that i have actually hated them before reading the stupid diary.

Currrently
A - disappeared into thin air
B- she has turned into a butch
C- a total bitch in her school
D- ???

maybe i will try to dig out my old diary and start to laugh at myself again.

I need to go out tomorrow. I have to. I must!!

reason? it's easy.

My dad is going to mop the floor tomorrow!! i hate mopping the floor. usually i am able to run away from the mopping operation because my school usually ends late . can either sleep through when my dad is mopping and after that complain how tired i am or get home AFTER he finish everything.

the stress level is building up. really tired and im becoming more and more like a zombie most probably due to my sleeping habits. its easy to see that people around me are getting more and more stressed as each day pass. but please, dont do stupid things to release them okay?

PEOPLE, PLEASE TAKE GOOD CARE.

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my dad saw me typing this entry. the moment he came by, i switched to another window. yet he managed to catch the word DAD. NOW HE IS INSISTING THAT I AM TALKING SOMETHING BAD ABOUT HIM. okay, he threatened to deduct my allowance. WHAT THE FUCK? but forget it. old people forget about things they said very easily. my dad is one of the old people who does it. haha.

Ebony is the champion house again this year. The cheerleaders made a comeback and POOF! they won. anyway i think they deserve it cause they have been working really hard for it.

Last year when Ebony won, we ran the track. This year, the same situation has repeated. But this time, something stupid had happened.




Caryn dropped one of her shoe after running for a short distance. the problem is after her shoe fall off from her foot, she did not stopped and take it. instead, she kept on running for close to 200m and came up to me and tell me SHE WAS RUNNING WITH ONLY ONE SHOE.

I laughed. i was kind of out of breath but i still laughed. i told her to get it but she refused. so in the end, i went to take her smelly shoe for her. HAHA. i did not went to smell it, so i dont know how it smell like. DONT ASK ME.

A short while after the stupid run, we were dismissed. Xiaojun and me took bus back to Jurong Point. There was already a big crowd in the bus stop. The bus came and everyone was flushing into the bus like anything. anyway, that doesnt matter because i was also one of them. HAHA.

Xiaojun and me were sat behind this Fucking Old Ugly Woman. when the bus came, it only have one PATHETIC passenger inside. obviously it was the fucking old ugly woman.

She is quite inconsiderate. She knew that she was gonna sit the bus all the way till the interchange, yet she refused to sit close to the window so that it would be easier for someone else to sit beside her. That's only the starting.

The bus was quite pack after most of the people in the bus stop boarded. there was this empty seat beside that old woman ( WHICH SHE REFUSED TO MOVE HER WRINKLED BUTT TO). This girl from our school asked kindly if the old woman could move aside so that she can get in and sit.

The old woman did it very unwillingly and she gave this black face and for that face , i would give her a 10 for the ugliest expression and face on Earth.

It was a very hot day. so after the girl sat down, she stood up again to shift the air-condition direction to her. she shifted both and suddenly, THE BLOODY OLD WOMAN SCREAMED. she was complaining about how she needed the air-condition too. yeah right, to freeze her wrinkles huh?

that poor girl was stunned and she move one of them back to the old woman's dirction. after that the girl sat down.

i know it was quite inconsiderate for the girl to do it. but MUST YOUR REACTION BE SO BIG? at most she is only 14 and yet she got to face this old woman who cant be understanding. if you feel that it is wrong, ASK KINDLY. so what if YOU ARE OLD? it is quite clear that the old freak has been in the bus for a long time. WILL IT KILL YOU NOT TO HAVE AIR-CONDITION FOR A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME? you mean you are made up of ice and you need something to cool so you dont melt?

I always hated the 'scold someone right infront of them but not mentioning their names and going up to them'. but anyway i did it.

i said ' SO if what you are old. OLD MEANS YOU CAN SCOLD WHOEVER YOU WANT HUH?'

i think she did not hear it. but it doesnt really matter.

when the bus was reaching the interchange, the frightened girl stood up and move all the air-condition direction to the old freak.

I hate old people who are like this. They make use of the fact that THEY ARE BLOODY OLD and that is why youngsters would at least give respect to them. even if they do things that are overboard, we will still give in. WHY? because THEY ARE OLD. inconsiderate idiots. OLD DOESNT MEAN YOU ARE RIGHT IN EVERYTHING YOU DO.

most of the old people are not like this. THANK GOD. only some of them that are like pain in the ass.

Pictures of Ruhua. Most of them are sent to me by Xiaojun. Million thanks to Xiaojun! anyway its not alot. so dont have high hopes for it. haha














Anyway, realised that more and more people are searching for the pictures of Ruhua. Decided to place all the photos i have of her in this blog.

When you see me the next few days, please do me a great favour. DONT POINT AT MY UGLY FACE AND QUESTION ME WHY MY PIMPLE IS SO BIG. it's not a pimple. IT'S NOT. i wouldnt be so troubled over it if it is a pimple. the bare minimun is that pimples doesnt hurt so much. This is so fucking painful and i really hope that it will go away soon. *prays*

Something happened and i wanted to blog about it. yet for some reason when i wanted to blog, the system was down. Now i have the chance. HAHA.

As we all know, the KFC in this particular mall near my school has this fucking irritating old woman who pokes her nose in every single shit happening in that stupid outlet. Went there a few days ago, cant remember when was it.

There was 4 of us. We settled down on this table for 6. 4 seats were occupied by us and the remaining 2 was reserved for our freaking heavy bags. obviously there was no space if you want to squeeze 4 bags onto two chairs. so 2 of our bags were left on the table. one of it was mine.

After we finish eating the stupid old woman came. she was holding onto the cloth and she placed her hand on my bag. i saw it and screamed. i started to make a big fuss about it. obviously that old woman was shocked she took one of the tray and went away. still, i was opening my big mouth and screaming all sort of nonsense.

then, she came back. i guess she is really thick skin to an extent i never expect it. she told me that i shouldnt put my bag on the table. i was so shocked. i didnt even bother to look at her face.

ignored her totally. no point trying to make sense with people like her. it is clear that she is in the wrong and she tried to cover up by telling off CUSTOMERS? what attitude is that?

please, i work there before.

<< see the prove?
even though i have no ranks or any shit. but i guess i will at least know what i should do and not do.


i have never heard of a rule that says bags cannot be placed on the table. even if i want to put my fucking arse on the table, YOU CANT EVEN GIVE A BIG DAMN ABOUT IT. why? customers is always right. so dont bullshit with me.

really wonder why she is able to survive so long. maybe that outlet dont have standard at all. HAHA.

attend the English supplementary class today. i really like it alot. learn alot of things i never knew about in the past.

for writing composition, to score for vocabulary it seemed to be easier. there is no need for MANY MANY bombastic words. all you need to do is to learn a few. for the first time i heard that COMPOSTION CAN BE PREPARED. wow, that's something i never heard of. really looking forward to what would be taught in the future lessons.

Fell down today. Dammit the worst part is many people saw it. when i stood up i refused to turn back and laughed at my own stupidity.

my dad feels that the stupidity of mine could be something good in disguise. i felt the same too. maybe because of the brain-wash he is giving me?

my skin is damn sensitive and the mosquito bites are stiffen and hard. its really itchy . CURSE ALL THE BULLSHIT THAT BITE ME. hate you!!

haha

head hurts.

More and more people is starting to like RuHua. i think so?

RuHua is one of my favourite female artist. for now, she is the only one on television who is able to crack me up to a stage where i cant even control my laughters.

hope that there will be more and more who feels the same as i do. i really like her alot.

went to Pulau Ubin yesterday. we were driven out by this unknown guy from the protected area. it was quite funny and before that someone was stucked in the mud. -.- two of the brave people went to the rescue and got her out.

i ended up with many mosquito bites and even Mopiko doesnt really help. it was still really itchy. i hate the mosquitoes.

i hate when my parents compare me with my cousins. especially in studies. i really hope that one day they can shut up about this kind of things. obviously i know how good they are. but sometimes you cant really expect much from me. get this right, im just bloody lazy. thats all.

sometimes life really sucks.

Backstabbers, Go to hell

Backstabbers, Go to hell

Backstabbers, Go to hell

Backstabbers, Go to hell

Backstabbers, Go to hell

Backstabbers, Go to hell

Backstabbers, Go to hell

anyway, the one above was just my anger. sick of people who claims that they hate this type and that type of people and in the end, they are the fucking type which they claims they hated.

simple cycle of hate

if you hate me,scream at my face.
if you refused to it, then keep your bloody mouth up.

dont be such a big pile of shit and open your mouth and backstab people.
bullshit, you dont even have that type of innocent. so you dont have to act.