I dont know when the hell i got it but today when i woke up, i found blisters on my foot. Damn it.. the worst is that it looked damn scary. Actually, i did not notice it until i felt pain on my foot when water is running over it.
Starting to wonder how oblivious i am even about things. More and more scars are found on my hand. I DID NOT EVEN REMEMBER HURTING MYSELF or feeling any pain. shit, am i senile or wad crap?
when i started to think that everyone in the world must have been good in their own ways that is why they have people called 'FRIENDS' with them.
someone changed my mind. dont really know what to say. i guess you need to learn how to be more responsible and considerate bah.
Saw that moronic duo today. The immediate reaction was to turn and walk the other way. It's sick hearing humors about both of them.
CRAP
24.9.05
Im damn happy. I have finished watching Stairway to Heaven. Really touching and i kept crying the last two days while watching it. That Quan Xiang Yu is so damn handsome.. heh.
When i was on the bus yesterday, something happened that made me reflect on myself.
There was a girl standing around the door where people alight. It was clear that she was talking to something. EVEN IF I CLOSE MY EYES I CAN TELL. she was talking so loud that from where i was sitting, i could hear her clearly.
That is still okay. every often, im always like that. talking loud like fuck and the whole bus is filled with my voice and my stupid laughters. she made me reflected on myself. I could imagine someone sitting at the back getting amused by the way i talked. DAMMIT! i will try to kick off this stupid habit.
The irritating part was this guy sitting right across me. HE WAS FUCKING ANNOYING. He was talking loudly. yeah, okay its fine. The problem is the conversation he had with his friend is completely nonsense.
OKAY LAH.TALK NONSENSE LOUDLY NEVERMIND LAH. EVEN IF I AM TRYING TO KILL TIME BY WATCHING THE TV AND ALL I CAN HEAR IS YOUR STUPID LAUGHING , NEVERMIND LAH. YOU HAVE ALREADY ENTERTAINED ME BY YOUR CRAPS.
Next, he was showing off his handphone and ringtones. it seemed that he was extremely satisfied with his handphone. he claims that nobody knew that he had that handphone model. please lah, you sure???
im really sure that by the look of the face of the girl he was having a conversation with, she was irritated. 99.99% of the time, he was talking. i could hardly hear that girl talking.
When the girl wants to alight, that guy followed even though it was not the stop.
HOW I KNOW IT?
it really seemed at every of this action have to be followed by a sentence.
that girl tried to askin him not to follow. he insisted. poor girl....
Aiya, i have nothing to blog on. so try this lor. HEH.
hleB!
When i was on the bus yesterday, something happened that made me reflect on myself.
There was a girl standing around the door where people alight. It was clear that she was talking to something. EVEN IF I CLOSE MY EYES I CAN TELL. she was talking so loud that from where i was sitting, i could hear her clearly.
That is still okay. every often, im always like that. talking loud like fuck and the whole bus is filled with my voice and my stupid laughters. she made me reflected on myself. I could imagine someone sitting at the back getting amused by the way i talked. DAMMIT! i will try to kick off this stupid habit.
The irritating part was this guy sitting right across me. HE WAS FUCKING ANNOYING. He was talking loudly. yeah, okay its fine. The problem is the conversation he had with his friend is completely nonsense.
OKAY LAH.TALK NONSENSE LOUDLY NEVERMIND LAH. EVEN IF I AM TRYING TO KILL TIME BY WATCHING THE TV AND ALL I CAN HEAR IS YOUR STUPID LAUGHING , NEVERMIND LAH. YOU HAVE ALREADY ENTERTAINED ME BY YOUR CRAPS.
Next, he was showing off his handphone and ringtones. it seemed that he was extremely satisfied with his handphone. he claims that nobody knew that he had that handphone model. please lah, you sure???
im really sure that by the look of the face of the girl he was having a conversation with, she was irritated. 99.99% of the time, he was talking. i could hardly hear that girl talking.
When the girl wants to alight, that guy followed even though it was not the stop.
HOW I KNOW IT?
it really seemed at every of this action have to be followed by a sentence.
that girl tried to askin him not to follow. he insisted. poor girl....
Aiya, i have nothing to blog on. so try this lor. HEH.
hleB!
18.9.05
Watched One More Chance yesterday.
Im extremely grateful that i did not pay a single cent for that movie. Otherwise i would be complaining like crazy. Its not really worth the money at all. Maybe i cannot feel anything and did not put myself in the shoes of the character. I feel that it is too dramatic and everything was only concentrated on one character. should diverse a little bit more. I was anticipating something about their work opportunities. It was however, touch and go topic. Quite disappointing.. should feature more on what they went through while working.
As i was eating yesterday, an old man came out to me and asked if i wanted to buy tissue paper. Next, he placed a few packets of tissues on the table and said all of that for a buck.
-.- i was caught in a diffcult situation. i took my wallet out and gave him a buck. told him that i want that tissue. he seemed suprised and asked me if i really dont want it. i replied politely that i dont want. then he left. Honestly, i would i need so many packets of tissue sia? i might look stupid giving him money for no reason but i guess he must have his diffculties that is why he is doing this?
I cleaned the toilet bowl today!!!
Remembered the first time i tried cleaning the toilet bowl. I was a complete idiot. Poured the cleaning gel into the toilet bowl and i left the place. I actually thought that all i have to do when i get back is to flush it and the dirt would be removed. My dad laughed when he heard it because i was complaining about how inefficient the gel was.
Guess i was really affected by the commercial shown on television. Advertise until like the gel will do all the cleaning and no scrubbing was needed. It was always they pour the cleanser in and the next scene was them flushing it . after it, everything is cleaned!! however, i guess it is not like this in reality.
Eh!
Im extremely grateful that i did not pay a single cent for that movie. Otherwise i would be complaining like crazy. Its not really worth the money at all. Maybe i cannot feel anything and did not put myself in the shoes of the character. I feel that it is too dramatic and everything was only concentrated on one character. should diverse a little bit more. I was anticipating something about their work opportunities. It was however, touch and go topic. Quite disappointing.. should feature more on what they went through while working.
As i was eating yesterday, an old man came out to me and asked if i wanted to buy tissue paper. Next, he placed a few packets of tissues on the table and said all of that for a buck.
-.- i was caught in a diffcult situation. i took my wallet out and gave him a buck. told him that i want that tissue. he seemed suprised and asked me if i really dont want it. i replied politely that i dont want. then he left. Honestly, i would i need so many packets of tissue sia? i might look stupid giving him money for no reason but i guess he must have his diffculties that is why he is doing this?
I cleaned the toilet bowl today!!!
Remembered the first time i tried cleaning the toilet bowl. I was a complete idiot. Poured the cleaning gel into the toilet bowl and i left the place. I actually thought that all i have to do when i get back is to flush it and the dirt would be removed. My dad laughed when he heard it because i was complaining about how inefficient the gel was.
Guess i was really affected by the commercial shown on television. Advertise until like the gel will do all the cleaning and no scrubbing was needed. It was always they pour the cleanser in and the next scene was them flushing it . after it, everything is cleaned!! however, i guess it is not like this in reality.
Eh!
15.9.05
Of course i love reading blogs. I SIMPLY LOVE IT.
With people like you around blogging, IT ENTERTAINS ME.
Yes, I love your blog. Yeah you!
I love confident people like Steven Lim. Dont worry, you will get as famous as him one day okay? =D
I feel so sad for the two bloggers that had been sued. I do not know what they have wrote but i heard it was something about racism? Even though everyone says that everyone is equal but is it really that way?
Xiaojun watched a Tv programme in Channel U yesterday. It was about this foreigner who got cheated by the middle. They promised him that they will help him to get a job but in the end it did not turn out the way they had promised?
Xiaojun was utterly upset about it and kept mentioning that she wants help him if she has the money. I felt sad the other time when i watched the show talking about similar cases. However even if i want to help, im really not capable enough to.
Really wonder why the hell are there heartless people in the world. At this point of time, i can really imagine people going....
'WAH YOU SO KIND MEH?'
DONT EVER QUESTION MY KINDNESS!! The whole world knows that i am really kind one RIGHT? haha. ( okay, its crap.)
Im still considering whether to buy the VCD of stairway to heaven.
CONFUSED
With people like you around blogging, IT ENTERTAINS ME.
Yes, I love your blog. Yeah you!
I love confident people like Steven Lim. Dont worry, you will get as famous as him one day okay? =D
I feel so sad for the two bloggers that had been sued. I do not know what they have wrote but i heard it was something about racism? Even though everyone says that everyone is equal but is it really that way?
Xiaojun watched a Tv programme in Channel U yesterday. It was about this foreigner who got cheated by the middle. They promised him that they will help him to get a job but in the end it did not turn out the way they had promised?
Xiaojun was utterly upset about it and kept mentioning that she wants help him if she has the money. I felt sad the other time when i watched the show talking about similar cases. However even if i want to help, im really not capable enough to.
Really wonder why the hell are there heartless people in the world. At this point of time, i can really imagine people going....
'WAH YOU SO KIND MEH?'
DONT EVER QUESTION MY KINDNESS!! The whole world knows that i am really kind one RIGHT? haha. ( okay, its crap.)
Im still considering whether to buy the VCD of stairway to heaven.
CONFUSED
13.9.05
This is interesting.. Quite accurate sia..
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
HAHA.... The last paragraph.. first line.... HAHA.....
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
HAHA.... The last paragraph.. first line.... HAHA.....
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
You know what's happening. Im sick of it. Stop coming to me when you need help. Im fucked up by your attitude.
I have been sick for the past two days, fuck it. i felt so terrible that i couldnt sleep for the first day. when i cant sleep, all my temper burst out. i woke up in the middle of the night and started to get pissed by everything around me. its stupid but i did it anyway.
I have this stupid habit of kicking things when im fucked up. very often, i will end up hurting myself and I GET MORE PISSED. When im pissed, I KICK AGAIN. then the cycle goes on. Now im conscious and awake, i really wonder why i did that. I guess my anger really blasted my brain off at that point bah?
Prelims started yesterday. my pace of revising is damn slow. Im distracted by almost every shit in the room. When im distracted, my natural instinct is... sleep. the longest i can take just studying without any break is less than an hour. im doom......
Taking Social Studies and English paper 1 tomorrow. Im worried for both. I have been failing my social studies constantly. HAHA. im the border line case lah. My spelling sucks like shit. Its atrocious.( OMG. I CANT BELIVE I CAN SPELL ATROCIOUS!! ) i really cant spell properly... Especially with simple words. the simpler the words are, the worst it will get.
Procrastinating is the thief of time.
Yeah! i have even tasted the consequences! i have been slacking non-stop for the past 4 years. God dammit, it got me no where but HERE!! hella, im still gonna slack anyway. haha
Bullshit.
I have been sick for the past two days, fuck it. i felt so terrible that i couldnt sleep for the first day. when i cant sleep, all my temper burst out. i woke up in the middle of the night and started to get pissed by everything around me. its stupid but i did it anyway.
I have this stupid habit of kicking things when im fucked up. very often, i will end up hurting myself and I GET MORE PISSED. When im pissed, I KICK AGAIN. then the cycle goes on. Now im conscious and awake, i really wonder why i did that. I guess my anger really blasted my brain off at that point bah?
Prelims started yesterday. my pace of revising is damn slow. Im distracted by almost every shit in the room. When im distracted, my natural instinct is... sleep. the longest i can take just studying without any break is less than an hour. im doom......
Taking Social Studies and English paper 1 tomorrow. Im worried for both. I have been failing my social studies constantly. HAHA. im the border line case lah. My spelling sucks like shit. Its atrocious.( OMG. I CANT BELIVE I CAN SPELL ATROCIOUS!! ) i really cant spell properly... Especially with simple words. the simpler the words are, the worst it will get.
Procrastinating is the thief of time.
Yeah! i have even tasted the consequences! i have been slacking non-stop for the past 4 years. God dammit, it got me no where but HERE!! hella, im still gonna slack anyway. haha
Bullshit.
9.9.05
Finally handed in EVERYTHING on the coursework. NO MORE NIGHTMARES OR BACKACHE BECAUSE OF THAT STUPID DNT COURSEWORK. heh.
Went back to school on Monday. bloody day.
I guess i was really high that day. I talked really loud ( or exclaimed )
*Looking at the solution when doing chemistry practical*
'EEE.. LIKE SHIT'
after that was said, everyone around looked at me and Ms Sim called my name. -.-
it continued with another comment made by me when i saw the sample to do the experiment.
'WAH LAU, SO LITTLE!'
yes! ms sim called out my name again. then i looked at Jaclyn and said in a softer tone
' wah, she can hear me meh?'
ms sim : yes, i can hear you.
-.- do i actually talk so loudly normally?
After it, i went to DnT to hand in my folio. when i was touching up the contents in my folio, my phone rang.
i did not know it at first, i thought it was xiaojun's. I almost open up my mouth and laugh at her being so oblivious. at that point, i realized that the ringing comes from my bag.
It was Hongyou. YOU VERY SUAY LE HONG YOU. NORMALLY DONT CALL ME, WHEN CALL ME THEN GOT ME INTO SHITTY POSITION.
anyway, i told him i was very mad at him. He did not even give much damn or apologize to me. perhaps i was laughing when i was saying that , that is why he thought i was kidding? But i was very mad when i told him that.
Im really starting to feel the dumbness inside taking over me. I was tricked by Xiaojun twice consecutively in less than 5minutes. It was not the first time and i always believed what she said even though it sounded ridiculous, in the end, i was tricked.
I heard that the Stupid English course will continue even when we were having prelims. i dont think im going. many complained about the course being useless and not able to learn anything from it.
Perhaps its too late.
Went back to school on Monday. bloody day.
I guess i was really high that day. I talked really loud ( or exclaimed )
*Looking at the solution when doing chemistry practical*
'EEE.. LIKE SHIT'
after that was said, everyone around looked at me and Ms Sim called my name. -.-
it continued with another comment made by me when i saw the sample to do the experiment.
'WAH LAU, SO LITTLE!'
yes! ms sim called out my name again. then i looked at Jaclyn and said in a softer tone
' wah, she can hear me meh?'
ms sim : yes, i can hear you.
-.- do i actually talk so loudly normally?
After it, i went to DnT to hand in my folio. when i was touching up the contents in my folio, my phone rang.
i did not know it at first, i thought it was xiaojun's. I almost open up my mouth and laugh at her being so oblivious. at that point, i realized that the ringing comes from my bag.
It was Hongyou. YOU VERY SUAY LE HONG YOU. NORMALLY DONT CALL ME, WHEN CALL ME THEN GOT ME INTO SHITTY POSITION.
anyway, i told him i was very mad at him. He did not even give much damn or apologize to me. perhaps i was laughing when i was saying that , that is why he thought i was kidding? But i was very mad when i told him that.
Im really starting to feel the dumbness inside taking over me. I was tricked by Xiaojun twice consecutively in less than 5minutes. It was not the first time and i always believed what she said even though it sounded ridiculous, in the end, i was tricked.
I heard that the Stupid English course will continue even when we were having prelims. i dont think im going. many complained about the course being useless and not able to learn anything from it.
Perhaps its too late.
3.9.05
Finished my DnT artifact on time. Honestly, it looked like a piece of shit because of the stupid spray paint thing. My finishing is gone. I guess i have an itchy fucking hand. I kept touching the surface before it is even dry. Ended up having damn ugly marks on it. Idiotic me.
Am i sick? or im just making myself sick?
I felt terrible yesterday. My headache and all the shit. I kept telling myself that im sick and i felt worst. Izzit me or im really not feeling well. crap.
There is this long cut on my hand. I did not realized it until i was taking a bath. It hurts and i dont even remember when i hurt myself. Perhaps im too oblivious to everything around me, even myself.
I had a problem pronouncing this fucking word yesterday.
Consecutively.
I kept trying and trying. IT DOESNT SEEM TO COME OUT RIGHT AT ALL. im laughed at and after laughing at me, Caryn also cant pronounce the word herself. HAHA.
There was public canning yesterday. First time ever in Westwood history. All because of Miss Larua Lau's car being vandalized.
Honestly, i will side with them.
1) We belonged to the same batch
2) I detested Ms Lau's attitude towards disciplining students.
Perhaps it's time for her to think about the way she is doing things. There are so many irritating teachers in school eg Miss Agnes Teo the fucking big head. why Ms Lau and not the others le?
Honestly i know some things she does is meant to be good for us. But what we see is a mad dog screaming like fuck at us. Stop using words like ' I dont like... so you must change it'. it really make you sound really arrogant and stubborn. and who says Discipline teachers cannot smile? Its crap.
Looking at the canning thing, i felt old. I dont know why but i felt old.
Faith
Am i sick? or im just making myself sick?
I felt terrible yesterday. My headache and all the shit. I kept telling myself that im sick and i felt worst. Izzit me or im really not feeling well. crap.
There is this long cut on my hand. I did not realized it until i was taking a bath. It hurts and i dont even remember when i hurt myself. Perhaps im too oblivious to everything around me, even myself.
I had a problem pronouncing this fucking word yesterday.
Consecutively.
I kept trying and trying. IT DOESNT SEEM TO COME OUT RIGHT AT ALL. im laughed at and after laughing at me, Caryn also cant pronounce the word herself. HAHA.
There was public canning yesterday. First time ever in Westwood history. All because of Miss Larua Lau's car being vandalized.
Honestly, i will side with them.
1) We belonged to the same batch
2) I detested Ms Lau's attitude towards disciplining students.
Perhaps it's time for her to think about the way she is doing things. There are so many irritating teachers in school eg Miss Agnes Teo the fucking big head. why Ms Lau and not the others le?
Honestly i know some things she does is meant to be good for us. But what we see is a mad dog screaming like fuck at us. Stop using words like ' I dont like... so you must change it'. it really make you sound really arrogant and stubborn. and who says Discipline teachers cannot smile? Its crap.
Looking at the canning thing, i felt old. I dont know why but i felt old.
Faith
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