My heart twitched momentarily when he said that. That kind of pain had not been felt for a long long time. I have forgotten how it hurts and even to spell it. Following that was a tensed/anxious mind that i started to lose the concentration and lose the momentum of the things i was doing. The only thing that was in my heart was ' No, no he wouldnt. he wouldnt, he wouldnt' yet i was at the same time questioning who could she be? it was a mixed feeling that swept me off my feet. my body felt numbed even when i decided that the event was impossible because i could trust him.

i knew what was going through my heart and body.


Jealousy would be the word to sum up all these feelings.



im loving you all over again.