27.1.08
19.1.08
im in the state of solitude, i didnt choose it but im forced to be like this. guess my only friend right now are my tears.
the presents will stay with me for a long long time because there are too much uncertainty. seems like the answer i have for every question would be ' i dont know'.
maybe its better this way, im learning. im learning about the art to think about the future. its like spending money, there is no control of it until i master the true art of management.
im alone.
14.1.08
Nasty comments and harsh words was splurt/blurt out that times at the moment of anger, there seems to be no turning back. there were so many times i regreted the next moment when i said things i dont mean. wanted to apologise, but no, no, no, no. for some reason i couldnt bring myself to do it.
there were so many incident that i flare up with no apparent reason.
im sorry.
im lazy, blog later.
went off to meet my mrlorrylongcar at cityhall. watched alien vs predator and i screamed twice. and yes, most of the time i was acting like so hum-ji queen, holding onto real tight and burrying my face into his arms.
mrlorrylongcar made a damn stupid comment
'the merlion not tired meh? everyday shoot the water out'
of course i shoot him by saying something as ridiculous
'look at this metal barrier, not tired meh? everyday keeping so upright and straight?'
couldnt believe how stupid this can be! x.x
stop by at FULLERTON!
he is enjoying the piano that was playing. damn nice!
last stop for the day was his office. it was much bigger compared to his old office. by the time i was there, my foot was filled with blisters and scars. adding onto it , i was so bloody warm and whiny. it was good that he suggested that we go to his office, i might have complaint nonstop if we were to remain where we were!
guess boy is deeply asleep at this point. starting to miss him so much once again. =)
i love you so.
11.1.08
*yawns*
decided to quit my addiction to warbook and start doing better things. i have been a really good girl this whole week and managed to complete assignments that was given.
maybe it will be painful to begin with, however i need to do this for everyone who loves me =)
that plunge that i took caused me so much of pain that im limping all over the place. its a good thing that there's something called 'LIFT' in the school. cannot imagine myself going up 5 levels by stairs, i will die in the middle because of the pain ='c
mrlorrylongcar complaint about why my sisterx can drink greentea and he couldnt just now. yes, im a bad girl and i banned green tea from his life because ......... ( some very nasty reasons).
so oie, unless your statement of you being one of my sisterx is true, you will be banned from greentea =) ( i still remembered what you said hor)
starting to miss sisters so much, the last time i saw them was last year. haiya! we shall meet up soon eh? hehe.
wei!
10.1.08
it was not a really great day to even begin with.
perhaps all these are good because it gives us a chance to better know each other.
im happy because im touched by your actions again.
cried in your arms like a little child, at the point it was only you and me. everything else around us seemed to freeze and im disconcerned by it.
security should be the word.
can we rewind and go back to that moment?
3.1.08
Been very much in love with long blog entries filled with pictures. Dont know why but it feels great reading my own entries and think back about the times that i have spent bah. i have serious case of SHORT TERM MEMORY (STM), this blog really helps me alot in recalling =)
perhaps now im blogging for my own sake bah? the part on letting my friends know what i have been doing would be more of a side-line thingy.
other than long blog entries, theres something else that i have grown so much love with over the few weeks...
no, not mrlorrylongcar. hes always my love =) hehe
yes,
itss...
its abit like 'laoren' food, it seems that not many young people are in love with this. dont be shock, i love this! dont mind being called laoren attitude because of congee~! yay!
talking about congee, had a congee session with mrlongcar. it was a peaceful night and i really enjoyed the time, just me and him.
kept telling him that i want to bring him there to have supernice congee but never had a chance. that day was a great chance, we walked from my house all the way to that place. it was really long but i love holding onto him and knowing that im safe.
when can we do that again?
it was so nice nice nice nice nice.
wee~
quarrelled with mrlongcar on my last diploma lesson. it was such a bad argument that both of us remained quiet during the trip home. the silence between us pierced my heart and my only wish was to get as far away from him.
he always say
'how come kuku things happen when im with you'
its true, the kuku things included being served the wrong things in one of the famous fast food in singapore. but that kuku thing was good okay! mrlorrylongcar, you also benefit from it hor!
so ya, even when we were waging war with each other, something damn kuku happened and it was funny.
things was so bad that i didnt even wanna get near him, so there was this big distance between us. he lead me to this long path that hardly anyone was walking on it. so this family of 4 who was walking in the opposite direction pass by us.
perhaps we looked like we are gonna have a huge fight or heated argument. the family of 4 stopped and watch us as we put on a 'show' for them to see. did not actually do much but when lorrlongcar tried to get near me, i will a few steps back to walk away.
then i overheard the women said ' IF HE DARES TO HIT HER, I WILL CALL THE POLICE'
urm.. -.-?
then we went to orchard road! wee~
mac-cafed again!
lol, blog until this point i realised something.
ive been hanging out soooo much with my boy, the next thing is going to be about him again. wahahaha.
i hope he misses me =)
so happy that he loves me so much now. hahahaha.
urm, a great improvement from the last time. really a gift from heart~
new year's eve
woke up real early to meet sisters and junwei to go east coast. took a really long bus trip there. started to talk crap because of the boredness and stupid genes.
huizhen is really acting real crazy with here nonsense.
kept complaining on the way there due to the stupid weather and long distance. all of the girls complaint nonstop and the heavy stuff that we carried almost killed us!
ta-dah!
sisters was the only that stayed well, just like us =)
then lia started to play her kite that huizhen stomped and step on during the moring. leaving it half crushed and on the verge of dying. wahaha
so while lia was flying.............
MY FACE SO FUCKING BLACK CAN?
romantic lah!
kexin was there with me, so i guess its enough? we talked while admiring the beautiful scene infront of us. it was a good experience =)
lorrylongcar only managed to come by at night. hai, he missed the sunset le...
boy gave me flowers again. at the first sight of it, i asked
'why give me white flowers?'
ya, in my impression i thought white roses are for the dead lah. wah lau, why give me that?
he told me it was yellow rose eh? hehehe.
spent of the night with him. we countdown in macs!
-.-'''
everything is so peaceful and sweet when im with him.
just when im with him =)
went over to lorrylongcar's house last saturday. the only thing that i managed to do was to sleep lor~
really tired after studying and rushing the project for my diploma. =c
it was a really romantic place with nice lightings and perfect view. the river was just right infront of us.
there's cream in my drink again! weee~~
acted like i was in some ghost movie and held onto him really tight.
apologised to him about that.
he was really sweet and smiled at me. haix
=) just you and me.
