Getting a little moody, not feeling good at all.

Complex emotions are surging up yet im feeling very very empty right now. Seems like i get this sudden enlightenment that perhaps what i am having in life isnt what i want at all. Im really starting to question myself about the things that i appear to have.

Is the green eye monster creeping up on me? Im envious of you, i am truly jealous.

It feels like im dying right here yet you are thriving in your own world. Sometimes i wished that this could happen to me, that would occur on me......... this that this that. yet everything just stayed at thoughts and wishy thinking.

There would be times i questioned myself if everything i was holding onto actually makes me happy or i was just hallucinating it? Is my life a projection of a snail? What appears to be hard outside can actually crumble easily and is totally empty inside. When i lose my shell, most probably i would lose my life and everything i ever had.

thats all