i feel this strain inside my body. it seemed like something is choking me inside, making it harder and harder for me to breathe. perhaps something is wrong with my lungs. no, this uneasiness is coming straight from my heart.

feeling the heat right now, its all the tension that Ive been suppressing all the time..

there's a gut feel that something is wrong and i couldnt pin-point what is exactly the problem that cause so much disturbance to me.

work harder this time.

wee

Old blogger posting board is down. Tried the method to reverse the effect taught by Judy inside her blog but failed! Guess im a complete computer idiot and all these stuff seemed alien to me. Now im trying the blog draft version, hope that im able to publish this successfully.

Have not really updated my blog for awhile, so i will just do one right now =)

My dearest sister has went to tekong for her BMT training. There were initial plans on bringing huizhen and i to Tekong on her first day. Sadly the plans were spoilt due to the outbreak of H1N1. since the virus was deemed as 'UNSTOPPABLE', guess the best way to minimise the harm is to restrict the number of vistors in order to prevent the spread of virus.

She has been there since god knows when. I miss her dearly and hope to see her soon! She sent me the note before she left for her 'mission'. haha.

Yes, i love you too okays.

BGM was rather fun this year =) The KBox session at safra and free nelgene bottle. HEHEHE. Wenghua and i stuck together for most of the day. Poor wenghua has to listen while i complaint about Huizhen Pangseh us. HAHA. there were many new faces at YEC that i never seen before. I bet they were thinking 'who the hell is this member?' when they saw me. YES I KNOW IT, it was written all over their faces. DAMN! i really need to attend the meetings more often. Wenghua and i sang to our hearts delight at KBox. Need to do it lah! so many people over there, so little time. Kbox not cheap hor! hahaha.

This month is filled with lots of events that is rather anticipating. Hope to meet up with vicky and shiying soon. erm...... i guess thats about all the excitment for this month.

July has briefly passed us and its time to work even harder!

Im looking for a better sky,

Wish me luck!

Im looking for a better sky. wish me well.

hearts!

Now i'll be going ' OH! I SEE!'

this is the type of life you want. OH! I SEE! the differences in opinions, i no longer wish to waste my time to talk about things. talking out and trying to make things better. Why do that when in the end its gonna turn out to be the same. we will always be stuck at the same old point.

OH! I SEE!

if this is what you want, go on then. do whatever that pleases you, it no longers bother me. as each day passes, it feels like i couldnt care more and more.

ya, so go on. Make My Life Easier.

OH! I SEE!

blogger has turned its back on me again. the posting mode was okay when i last blogged but now i guess it has revert back to its old self. well, i can only wait.

met up with lia today =)) its been awhile since i last saw her. nothing much has changed but huizhen has fly our aeroplane again. wtf? its a day with all the loves in my life. LIA,HONGU,YIXIAN,WENGHUA =)) the meetup wasnt too long but i enjoyed their company. its great to know that everyone is doing fine. thats the most important thing.

after that i went over to the SOME shop. got fooled by the gimmick and i do not like it. felt like a wasted trip and effort, dearest and i agreed that we have been fooled. we walked away like idiots after staying at the shop for like 10seconds? hahaha. decided to go take a look at the new ion shopping mall. IT WAS REALLY REALLY HUGE.

recieved a message that i wasnt needed at anymore. it kind of upsets me because i thought everything was doing great. i even bought a gift for the little one and i wanted to ask the other about things. there were plans for changes and things i wanna do for them. im disappointed but nevertheless, it was an enjoyable experience. it could be a good thing! im having more time for myself and less overworking. haha

things happened again today. when i first heard of it, there are 101 mean things that i almost blurt out. i controlled my emotions and cooled myself down. maybe im really like this, i have nothing good to say about people that hurted me. hurling nasty words and having heated arguments are just part of who i am. thankfully im able to keep it down today and think positively.

its 4.02aM

wish me luck!

PRESS ON!!

Blogger is finally working! wee~

new found strength and energy to continue my destiny =) hehe~

PRESS ON! PRESS ON!!

im trying to learn self discipline and sleep earlier right now. saw hengling's dark eye rings and it is really terrible. DONT BE SO STRESSED LAH!

meeting dearest lia tomorrow with the rest of the gang. wahahaha. its been donkey years since i last saw her and I STILL HAVE YET TO RECEIVED HONGYOU'S BIRTHDAY PICTURES!!

PRESS ON! PRESS ON!

burnt my saturday studying my stuff. THIS IS A RETRIBUTION FOR NOT WORKING HARD WHEN I SHOULD. =c its fine, at least im happier and i dont feel the guilt for not working hard enough.

PRESS ON PRESS ON!

Have been so busy lately that i feel like im losing time for myself. why why why why? sometimes i feel like i was being stupid for doing things irrationally and it caused so much trouble for me. though working is hard but i really enjoyed it. =) they might be the ones im complaining all the time but they are also the ones i loved dearly.

its not easy but WE CAN DO IT TOGETHER.!

PRESS ON!! PRESS ON!!

LOVES LOVES!!

PRESS ON! PRESS ON!!