Daddy,

How are you wherever you are? I miss you, its still a torture everyday to wake up to find that you are no longer here. I cant see you or hear your excessive nagging. What i can do is to keep as much of you that is left as close to me as I can. I cant lose you in other ways anymore.

Dad, did you come back yesterday to find me? I could smell your perspiration while i was half asleep. Do i still make you worry? Im sitting on the computer desk, looking at the door that you will never open.  Im tired, why did bad things happen to good people?

She picked on me knowing i care most about your belongings. She deliberately start throwing them away to get my attention.

She can still hurt me not because i dont care
She can only do that because i care too much.

I miss you, please be well.