Today marks the 4th month without you. Sitting at the dental clinic brings more pain because you promised to send me home after my operation. Daddy, without you I'm struggling.
You never knew how important you are to me , if you did you would know I cannot do without you and would take better care. Breathing, eating, sleeping,smiling and just doing every days chors hurts. We could be happy and laughing at stupid things like we always do. Now all I can do is to sit in the empty house and wonder where you are, how are you, what went wrong?
We were always together and now you left me here. I don't even know who I can depend on or complain to when I argue with yongqiang. I remembered all the times we watched television together and I complaint endlessly about how lousy my boyfriend is but dad would always say nice things. You are my world and supporter no matter how rough the times are.
I miss you more than anything in the world. I wouldn't ask to speak to you one last time , separation still hurts so bad. I would ask for your happiness if given a chance and meet you again in my next life. Please continue to be my dearest father and I will love you more.
I miss you dad.
