everything seems to be a bleak to me.

cried nonstop yesterday, couldnt help it at all. the thought of disappointing my dad is killing me, i hate myself for even opening up the possibility of that.

others spent 2 yrs, im spending 3. how can i end up being a loser with the extra year? i cannot, i dont want to.

i dont really have a clue about us right now.

i..... i..... i.....

i really dont know.

i really dont.