FRIENDSHIP

i really wonder about it.

i forced Meixin to send a F.I.R song to me just now. i was listening to it and after one minute, i come to realise that NOBODY IS SINGING IN THAT DAMN SONG. i never heard this song before so at first i was wondering why the front part of the song which introduces the tune is so fucking long. after one full minute, i came up with a conclusion. that is only the karaoke version of that song. sometimes , i wonder why the heck i can be so slow.

heard many unpleasant things AGAIN. this is expected, it is what usually will happen after some time. at first i thought that things was going to have a little twist because of how people treated each other. but then again, not the first time that this had happen. and it wont be the last.

TIRED

maybe blog later

im sick. now, im trying to get this whole bottle of drink which is meant to be SWEET. i dont know what the hell is wrong with my tastebud cause it seemed so fucking bitter now. WHAT THE?

i have the urge to blog out whatever shitty things in life. but since i am so mad right now, i guess i will end up swearing more than blogging out the truth. guess keep it for the next time when i am less angry.

what do you think?

REPENTED on my sins. no, im not christian. there are things in life that is making me feel really awful and especially since THAT happen, i want to be a better person. felt alot better when people starts to forgive everything i did in the past. i did not do anything evil or any sort close to it but I HAVE LET THEM DOWN. im sorry for it.

my dad shouted at me yesterday over a stupid door. i saw a cockroach flying around and it went into this fucking room. obviously i will SHUT THE FUCKING DOOR to keep the annoying cockroach away. who the fuck will know that when the door is shut, it will lock by itself. HELL! IT'S NOT EVEN MY DOOR. HOW THE HELL WOULD I KNOW? for that, my dad was pissed off. obviously i couldnt give much of a damn and walked away.

im sick right now. blog later

what do you think?

THIS GOOD FRIDAY SEEMED TO BE MORE LIKE A UNLUCKY FRIDAY TO ME.

my EZ- link card was stucked in the machine in the MRT station where you can check value, add value of your EZ link card and other services. obviously it is due to the fact that my EZ link was in a totally bad shape and the sides are coming out. after the incident, the card is in a worst shape.

I kept tripping over my own shoe and almost fall. -.-

had a idiotic kid infront of me while watching movie. he was damn irritating. he kept using his own head and hit against the chair. yeah it's really stupid and i can easily ignore it. but my legs were leaning on the chair he was sitting on. so decided not to lean on it and cross my legs (in the guy's manner). that kid did something that irritate me again. he stretch his hand ALL THE WAY TO THE BACK till it touches my leg. -.-

after the neoprint was took, THE CARD WAS STUCK in the machine. anyway it was a fucking ugly picture too. i mean im the fucking ugly one. not the other one who was in the picture.

what do you think?

Sometimes people do alot of stupid things in one day. yesterday, i did 2. i dont regret but when i think back i have no clue why the hell i will even try to do this 2 idiotic things. the issue of my stupidity is raise up again. and true, im stupid.

played scissors, paper, stone with aziz yesterday. i was the idiot who suggested the stupid game. it left me with nothing but pain all the way till the night. this taught me a lesson. never play this game with someone who has a really big palm. whenever that idiot hit me on the back of my hand, somehow his fingers will land on my wrist. NEVER SAY THAT FINGERS ARE WEAK. it really hurt alot especially when you are hitting on the wrist.

the second idiotic thing i did was eating a tiny piece of paper. it started to be a dare from aziz (again. so it means when it comes to stupid things, it got to be linked to him). then fazilla came into the picture telling us that she ate paper before and it's like nothing. i have no clue WHAT THE FUCK i was thinking about at that point. i swallowed it.

i told my dad about it and he made a disturbing comment

'WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID? YOU MEAN YOU WILL DO EVERYTHING YOUR FRIENDS TELL YOU? IF THEY ASK YOU TO SUICIDE , WILL YOU DO THAT?'

if you think that your daughther is so fucking brainless, then i have nothing to say. please dont even think about throwing a moronic question right on my face and expect me to agree to it. what the fuck made you even to even ask me something even a 3 year old kid wont even do.

what do you think?

rushed through all my work and able to complete most of them in 4hours. 4 long tiring hours to be exact.

anyway, im tempted to blog but im really tired
bye


what do you think?

im back.

im tired, really tired. all the things happening in school is really exhausting me. i really wonder how long i can take this. how much longer? but i guess i will still go, hope i will be fine. i hope.

my dad is now staring at the monitor screen while i am typing. i dont really bother and did not change my window. again, he said that im stupid. forget it, he doesnt understand what i am doing at all.

anyone watch XuChunMei on Sunday?

she is worst than i expected. she claims that others said that she is beautiful. -.- who the heck will do that? i dont know what else to say but i still prefer RuHua Compared to XuChunMei.

anyway, going to read on my geography now.

what do you think?

Eminem - MockingBird

YeahI know sometimes things may not always make sense to you rightnow
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laughI can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do itLaney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this worldWhen it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's whatdestiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the nightI know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel insideIt may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

It's funnyI remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'emI'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole nightcryingCuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you ina jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr.Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't likeit
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you'resisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still hereI like the sound of that,
yeahIt's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment

[Chorus]

And if you ask me tooDaddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neckI'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't f**k with dad (haha)


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that is the lyrics of my favourite song at this moment. i really like it alot. it's really meaning and the first time i heard it, i cried. cause i have read about Halie's mom and i bet she is having a struggle over matters at this point. this is a great song that tells everything about how a dad sees his daughter's fear.

i think the whole world is now trying to tease the dog next door. heard them laughing as they walk pass and the poor dog was barking for no reason.

im really tired now, going to do my homework.
have a great day people

what do you think?

People, let me shower you with GOOD NEWS.

YES, i was right! she did not do anything about our English file! yay!!

let me guess, so after she settled the fucking S&D the files matter will come in. AND SHE IS GOING TO BLAME THE CLASS. somehow i guess. since she is so free to find reasons to push the blame to others. she will never admit that she is in the wrong. NEVER. it's all about laziness and the bullshit she is giving us. i really hope to change teacher for that subject. the longer she stays on to teach, the class will gradually see the level of her laziness.

how i know about the files?

DAMN, i saw it. it's right behind our class. UN-TOUCHED. i find it really stupid right now to think about the time when she reprimanded us for not bringing the files. no point right? the files were shoved at the back of the class for more than a week. now, you get to see it at the exact spot and nothing like she promised was done to it.

HA! more promises = more lies
guess she should stop lying. big fucking liars go to hell.

what do you think?

This fucking pathetic life is really in total shit. My dad sucks, really to the core.

CHEEBYE. if you want me to do something, then KEEP YOUR BLOODY MOUTH SHUT. Dont keep saying that IM STUPID if i dont do it right.

SINCE YOUR SO BLOODY SMART, DO IT YOURSELF

DONT ASK ME FOR ANYTHING NEXT TIME

ASSHOLE

I am back 10minutes after i posted my last entry. i suddenly remember something.

i think that teacher will die of laziness one fine day. more excuses and lies that is what she has drown us with. she's not here today. why? she CLAIMS that she is not feeling well that is why she cant get her bloody ass to school. i have seen teacher feeling like SHIT and came to school as they know that they have an appointment with the students.

if you NEVER know, there is a word called RESPONSIBILITY? in case you dont know or NEVER knew what is that all about, let me tell you.

It's KEEPING YOUR WORDS. if you have told US to come, please get your ass to school too. not giving lame excuse that cannot be accepted. you mean my dad pay taxes and school fees just to let me how lazy you are?

Since teachers should be an example for students, then she will be mine. i left within 45minutes after knowing that she gave some lame excuse. i know it's wrong. shrinking HER responsibilities is what she is good in, i will do the same.

HELL WITH YOU!

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Im starting to suspect if SHE is really a lesbian. it's scary of the things she did to protect this other girl. And obviously im sad to say the person she is protecting is a backstabber and good actress. i have to credit for her good acting skills, if not, why did SHE ever treat her so well?

im kind of sad for her. until this point she couldnt see through the girl she tried to protect every single moment.

If there is really SOMETHING she want to know, please ask her to come to me directly? cause you are NOT her and she doesnt have her MOUTH attached with you. if YOU want to protect someone who is a backstabber, i have no opinion about that. it's your life, nobody can take charge of it but you. think about it.

what do you think?

He rejected me. when i told him that i love him, he said that he hate me. after that he started to scold me by using all sort of animal's name. ='( how could he? but forget it, he's only a 5 year old kid. hehe.

im starting to think back at my life. all the things i did. it scares me. if i am able to think back about things that had happened to me, it only means that i am damn old. that is why i rather pretend to have senile and not to remember too much in life.

Jeremy is bloody angry at me. yes, i know it. after i swear at you on your birthday, you stopped contacting me. but i was really pissed off at you when YOU RATHER SPEND YOUR BIRTHDAY with YOUR other friends and not me. come to think about it, i was really childish. im really sorry and i regret what i have told you. Im sorry. forget it, you wont read this anyway.

im really into some thing called spontaneous human combustion. it's really a fascinating issue. ive watched a documentary television programme about it, i was immediately attracted to it.

it's about human getting burn without having contact with any heat source. cool right? the chemicals inside human ignite and burn the human up. HAHA. im not kidding and there have been cases. the documentary i watch talks so much about it to a point it become a fascinating thing to me. imagine you are reading this stupid entry and suddenly you are caught with fire for no reason. this issue is considered as a phenomenon.

what do you think?

This entry is written by special request of Miss Lim Xiao Jun. In her latest entry, she referred the event to my blog because she was too tired to finish it. an event that almost cause her life and she is too tired to blog about? weirdo.

Once upon a time, there is a traffic junction.



familiar? yes, it is the damn fucking short road just outside our school. really dont understand why they cant design one whole stretch of road instead of dividing it into half and have two totally different traffic lights control for it. anyway, as you can see it is RED MAN. redman = No walking




no names mentioned. but we shall use initials. this is to protect the identity of the two pa jiao people. haha. but it is very obvious that one of them is Xiaojun

Grey stickman is X.J while the hot pink is Y.X. The blue stickmans are the other 4 who almost became the witness of an car accident.

so we were standing and waiting for the traffic lights to turn green. XJ decided to MOVE herself from one place to the other.



Xj stood behind YX. it's like a key for a car. the moment XJ's hand was placed on YX's shoulders, YX started to move. please take a closer look at the picture. the traffic light is still red man.




while the both pajiao people are walking. there were already horns sounded by the coming trucks and cars. both of them seemed to be pajiao and deaf at the same time. they did not realise how noisy the horning were. they were moving really slowly and when they are in the middle of the road, XJ turned and....




XJ screamed. YX realised what had happened and screamed too. but take a closer look at XJ's posture. it's really funny. both of them scream for a few seconds then went back to the starting point. obviously the rest, including me, were laughing like shit. =D

pajiao = Cockeyed

PS: sorry for the delay of this entry. i was really busy.

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im really sick and tired of things. recently there is a conflict in class over a small fucking S&D. honestly i feel that everyone is right to believe in their stand and the main reason we couldnt agree is because of a piece of shit..

THE FUCKING TEACHER WE WERE GIVEN TO 'ASSIST' US

i used to think that is she is alright as she is able to survive under Miss Kok. but the things she did in the 3 months just proved something. she is really bloody lazy. worst than LOH JEE KEAN. if there is an award for the laziest teacher in Westwood, it would be her.

alot of people in class is starting to hate her. she is so fucking lazy to a point that hatred has grow. remember about this analysis test that were given to us? we kept asking her about it and she kept on telling us and giving us a date that she will tell us the results. she assured that she have finished marking everything and has all the marks with her. the small request of announcing the marks was dragged for weeks. in the end when the paper was returned, WHAT HAPPENED? she did not finish marking. LIAR! lie to cover up her wrong doings.

the stupid S&D. we gave her our ideas 2 weeks before the holidays. she said she got the script ready. in the end, WHAT HAPPENED? she blamed us for writting craps. if you are unhappy with it, you should tell us earlier and so we have time to plan the whole shit. why wait till the last minute then tell us that you are unhappy about it. there can be only 2 reasons

1) you have lost the scripts that we have gave you and you have not read them

2) you waited for 2 bloody weeks then you are willing to read the scripts

trust me, i have a gut feel that our English files will have problems too. Even though she PROMISED that she will file everything in for us. but i bet she promised us because she have not finished marking all the assignments. that is why she dont dare to return us everything and instead, shower us with another fucking lie.

what do you think?

It's the freaking holiday. i should be really happy about it but honestly i am not.

1) Fucking pile of shitty homework
2) Time flies

It's only one damn week of pathetic holidays and we still have to go back to school for remedials. why the hell the teachers give us so much homework? it really sucks. this time round the situation improved. last year, we can almost drown in the whole pile of homework. the homework given in the week was more than the work done in the whole week if we go to school. great for this year but still, IT'S ALOT and we still have to do a stupid project for CME.

i hate spending my time doing projects for CME. i did not hand in my project for CME when im in secondary two. the teacher kept telling us how important the thing is. In the end, I got an A just because i did well for that paper. how important is that project? i really doubt.

This time the CME project is a little interesting. Interviewing an old folk. xiaojun suggested that i interview my grandmother. obviously it is not possible as both my grandmothers are dead. but she explained that it's YIXIAN. i called Yixian as my 'ah mah'. i told yixian about it and she laughed. the person she had in mind was Geok Ting, the 'ah mah' for the class.

This holiday is a waking call for me. It's really shocking how fast time flies. seemed to be like a blink the 3 months passed. It means that i am nearing to my O levels.

why is it that i feel that this year moves especially fast? is it only me or is everyone taking O levels felt the same way too? it's really scary. i remember that last year, each day seemed to pass like years and i was having a hell time in school. but now, time seemed to fly like a breeze even though we are having the same teachers everyday going through all the boring subjects.

im starting to hate some things in life. actually alot of things. im ignoring more and more things. still there are things i want to acomplish

1) Learn to shut up. Keep ALL the secrets that others told me. not a big problem since i am keeping MOST of the secrets in me.

2) Dont Bad Mouth

3) Less Swearing

4)Start saving money

5)Concentrate on studies

let me start with this 5 first. if i am able to do it, i will add more to the list.

what do you think?

had a fierce quarrel with my mom yesterday midnight. i was really fucked up and obviously i started swearing like fuck. i was flaring up all my anger and i told my mom she doesnt have the rights to discipline me. not at all cause she has not fulfill her duties. if giving a life to me means she can treat me so shallow, then she might as well fuck herself in the head. imagine you are really fucking mad and the other party says something really stupid at you want to laugh at it. my mom did. she kept saying

'Im your daughter. im the one who give birth to you'

i was so damn fused and she said something so stupid. i controlled and tried not to laugh.

she was the one who started to swear at me first. i tried to control my anger, but i failed. there's a limit for everything and that is not the first time she did that.

to be honest i called her nasty names in the middle of the fight. i regreted it and when i give a second thought about it, i feel that it is quite funny. i called her

'lao chee bye'

it is a vulgar and i shouldnt say it to my mom. but i was blowing off my tops at that point. i cant really be bothered by what i have said at that point. the name i called my mom remind me of this stupid joke that i was telling everyone.

i know i have my faults when i quarrel with my mom. i shouldnt do that. i was really sad after everything. but forget it. life is always like this for me.

-broken mirror-

it started out to be a damn awful morning. i went out of my house without my D&T folder. the stupid folder has been on my damn floor since the last D&T lesson which happened to be last thursday. i remember to bring the folder last night cause it was on the floor and it is damn eye catching. when i woke up this morning, i saw the folder but i did not bother about it. it seemed to be merged to the floor and is part of the floor. obviously when i knew i did not bring my folder. i rushed home.

Stupid Eddie Lau caught my ear studs and threatened to pierce my head. what the hell? everyone around was laughing and looking at the joke. and whenever he walked past me, i was cursing him to fall down. after that i decided not to waste my time. that would be 5minutes after he caught me. This is damn fucking suay. it's the 4th pair of fucking ear studs i bought. anyway my dad is thinking of getting me a pair of gold ear studs. but i dont see the point. im gonna lose it and in the end he will scream the hell at me again.

got back my pathetic results. it is really pathetic. when my dad saw it, he was going ' WAH SO LOUSY. ALL JUST PASS ONLY' obviously the 'what the fuck' word came out. my lowest is 57 and my dad considered it as JUST PASS? i complained and ask him how about 50marks? he said that it would be treated as 'Never study and go into the examination halls and write crap'

bullshit.

he doesnt know how fucking hard everything and how diffcult it is to cope all the moronic subjects. if i were to put the same situation i am going through on my dad. i think it would be red marks all over.

anyway blog about something happier.

fazilla did some questioning and got this conclusion

'the whole stretch of last row ( from ashvin to hisham) is ALL currently single'

and she was asking why all the good looking people in class are single? her list of good looking people includes hisham and saf. after the question, a weird sentence came out of her mouth

'Im also single'

i was wondering what she is trying to make a point over there? trying to tell us that

1) she is also the good looking people
OR
2) she is one of the single souls around

my thought was then cut off by aziz's golden words ' who wants to know sia?' haha. i was laughing like crap.

our dearest Mrs Betty Chow had a long talk with the school's population today. and one of it is about the usage of vulgarities. obviously that XiaoJun was smiling all the way behind me and pointing at me during various times.

in her long boring speech, she says that we are not supposed to use words that are

1) Rude
2) names of private organ
3) Hokkien vuglar
4) Any type of vulgarities
5) not even words like 'wah lao'

-.- she told us to look for words in shakespears books to replace all the vulgarities. she feels that it is better to scold people without them knowing that you are scolding them.

what the hell? when you are mad, would you even think about beautiful words? the only reason why you want to use vulgarities is because you want to express the anger and want the person to know how you felt.

i feel that it is ridiculous to go and look for books which contain beautiful words that you can use to scold people. it's not about being refine but stupid. if you want to scold someone, at that point, the person is totally worthless to you. why you want to waste your time and think about beautiful words to drown that idiot? it's wasting precious time.

im really not bothered by what she says, hence , you will still find me using improper language. it comes natural to me. =D

Terrible headache. it really hurts.

when i woke up this morning, i lost one of my ear studs and two ear sticks. at first it seemed to be nothing but a horrifying thought suddenly sinks in and i wonder if my ear studs and sticks went INTO my ears. i dont want to think much about it but i know if my ears bleed, i will go to the doctor no matter what.

maybe i will blog later. the headache is killing me

I laugh, It doesnt mean that im alright.

Feeling like crap from the first moment i woke up. heard something that i shouldnt and dont want to know yesterday. i tried to keep everything in but it seemed that it's too painful to fight back my tears and i gave in. woke up today and felt the same. i did not have control over anything. gave into my tears again. felt really down the whole day. my sadness is suffocating me and feels terrible. but i think after everything, i will be able to concentrate on my studies. i hope.

something to brighten me up a little.

I passed my chemistry common test. finally! after such a long time i passed. i was prepared to failed and got really used to it. a little bit glad and wished that i will be able to understand her lessons. i really want to do well for my O levels. im a little pressured by my mom. my cousins did well for their O this year. my mom is expecting alot from me and i know. hope that i can do well.

- take care -

i promised Xiaojun that i wanted to blog about my idol yesterday. but i did not as i was really tired and not really in the mood. so i guess i better blog now while i still have the interest blogging. anyway thanks xiaojun for searching the pictures for me!! haha

my idol is.... RUHUA!!


Ta-dah!!

it's really obvious that it is not about the looks which attracted me to like her and honestly she is my most favourite female artist. i really like her alot. you may see her in variety shows of Jacky Wu.

she is the MOST real artist i ever seen. Unlike fucking bitchy artist , ( fill in the blank yourself), who fakes and say crappy shit.

you might think that RuHua is really thick skin and other shit about her. but i feel that it really takes alot for someone to do what she is doing. she is really brave and honestly there is no need for her to disgrace herself.

i like her as the things she says is really funny and cute. sometimes it is really no brainer thing but it really makes me laugh.

i remember watching this piece of shit who kept throwing water at RuHua in a variety show. He is damn fucking petty and i hope he NEVER GET POPULAR. even after all the shit he did, RuHua stills smiles at him and treat it as nothing had happened. she tried to shield herself from the direct splash for water. ( it is painful k? ) but she did not run. the worst is that RuHua did not do anything to that asshole and yet he kept doing it to RuHua. Fucking Bastard. dont even know his name, it shows how Fucking unimportant he is.

Compare Xu ChunMei and RuHua.

XuChunMei is honestly pure shit. she said that there are people who commented that she is pretty. i mean WHO THE HELL will want to ever do that. the worst is that SHE REALLY THINKS THAT IT IS TRUE. comeon, if it werent for your fucking money, will that guy even stick with you? or even STICK something in you? HELL NO!

RuHua did says that she is pretty. that is for high entertainment value. who the heck will wear make up so thick that it looks like the person used flour instead of cosmetics?

When XuChunMei says that she is pretty. i feel so damn disgusted and i know she is really serious about it. i mean look at her actions, gestures and the way she speaks. she thinks that she is what she said.

When RuHua says that she is pretty. i laughed. not at her but cause it is funny. obviously she is not serious about it.

i used to think that RuHua will have average looks if she did not put on make-up that is so thick. but i guess i changed my mind after i saw this picture.




i feel that she looks like Joker from batman.


what do you think?

i think im getting older. at this point, i can go ' Xiang Dang Nian' which is equivalent to Once upon a time. there are alot of things that i can 'Once upon a time' with. my pre-school days, primary school days and secondary school. time really flies. it really seemed like yesterday i just got my fucking pathetic PSLE results and now *tink tink tink* im secondary four.

sometimes time seemed to be stagnant. it usually happens when i am doing things that I HATE/DETEST or after doing your damn important exam you have a hell of time. then you will be sitting on your pathetic table, waiting for time to pass. there aint really anything you can do beside to check your papers. most of the time i cant find mistakes on my paper at that point even though there is redundant time for me to waste. it often happens that after the paper is marked and returned back, then i realise how fucking stupid i was to make that type of mistakes.

im fucked up and i feel so cheated. i felt that i have been cheated by the school. WHY? it's about the damn cca. my school is emphasizing on CCAs. my stand is ' GO AND DIE!!' . as we all know CCA lets you deduct points from your O level reults. What i heard about the fucking system when i am secondary 1 and 2 is totally from what i heard now.

When i was in lower secondary, this is what i heard....

'Your CCA will let you deduct your points. for example if you scored 16 points then according to what CCA you are in and your contribution you will be allowed to deduct points from it. lets say if you have 1 point for your CCA then it would be 16-1=15. so with the 15 points then you can choose which teritary insitute you want to go'

understanding from this shitty paragraph is....

the final o levels points is after the cca points is deducted.

dont get the meaning? for example if for O levels you have scored 16 points. then that is not your final results. your final result is AFTER your cca points have been deducted. let's say it's one pathetic point after four damn years for pure torture. 16-1 = 15. Then your final result will be 15 points.

im not the only dumb ass who had thought that it is like this.

now, this is what i heard...

'If you have scored the total of 16 points. that would be your final results. your cca points will come in ONLY when there is a competition for space in the school you have chose.'

WHAT THE FUCK!!?!?!

no wonder they are not clear when im in lower secondary. this method is to TRICK us to go cca. so that when we are left with one pathetic year, then they tell us the truth. obviously we will still go for cca. left with four pathetic months and we will not want to waste one pathetic attendence point.

low level trick .