CHICKEN!!!!!!!!! FUCKING COMPUTER!!!!!! yesterday i wrote this extremely long and inspiring entry (urm-urm) and what this fucking piece of shit repay me? HANG AND FUCK YOU I DID NOT SAVE THIS ENTRY AND YOU KNN HANG?!? u UNGRATEFUL PIECE OF SHIT. i gave you this fucking life and electricity okay!! crap. pay so much for the lousy computer and irritating no-good connection and all i get is fucking porn advertisement popping up , virus attacks and freaky slow internet connection!

I will try my best to recover what interesting things i wrote yesterday...

Look at the freaking picture on the left
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that was me when i was still alot younger.

so stop laughing at my nose telling me i have a fake nose or whatever shit. i am born this way okay. haha.

dont SMS me and ask me craps like how to make breast, ass, dicks and other shits bigger. i do not know of any okay. especially breast. excuse me? until i have an E-CUP big breast that can WOBBLE when i walk, then please feel free to consult me in any way. i will be happy enough to wobble my BIG BREAST infront of you and give you information. but fucking hell. i do not have. what makes you think that i will know how to make YOUR breast bigger and not deal with my own first? you can stuff tissue paper, oranges and other craps in it. or... try silicon. or implant some water bag into your breast and then when you take a plane... let it burst inside of your breast. HAHA.

most ridiculous shit ever asked.

'how to enlarge my dick huh?'

what the....? how the hell would i know? the only thing i can tell you is ' go masturbate with your door knob and let it gets bigger for a few minutes.. i guess you would be happy enough then.. haha' nonsense... go eat some dick enlarging pills and fuck off.

I think i will get my fingernails cut. the night before i had a dream. i dreamt that i scratch my eyelids and accidently my fingernails slit my eyeballs and my whole hand was covered with blood. scary~~

Updated : 24/1/05
I have changed the skin of my blog, hence the picture i was refering to is no longer available. however, you can click here. to view the picture. Thanks!

Finally! i understand where the hell i got my crapping ability and the reason why i am so stupid ( kept doing weird things)

My ability to crap: Mother
Reason why i do craps: Father

honestly i am alike with my mom when it comes to talking shits. my mom can talk alot about something when she doesnt know much about it. obviously most of the time it doesnt make sense. ( same as me) sometimes she is kind of 'innocent'. my mom treats me exactly the same when i am 6 and when i am 15. she loves to make assumption. she saw one of my friend and she assumes that all my friend are short. -.- not true. and even they are short, they are much taller than my mom. the same, i assume that all my mom's friend are old people who have really thick skin and loves to play majong. im not wrong. in fact, i hit right on the spot. haha. something really similar about me and my mom. she thinks that i am a nice kid. oh well... mommy, i feel the same toO! haha :p

my dad is afraid of me sometimes as i do weird things when i want to. there was once i was so tired , i went to hug a pillar for no reason. -.- yeah, i really did that. and everywhere i go, i have the urge to squat down. haha. weird habit huh?my dad do silly things all the time but yesterday, he did a hillarious thing. my dad used the HAIR CONDITIONAL as a shower foam. HAHA. when he came out, he asked me what was the bottle of thing is. i told him it was Hair conditional. he laughed and said he used that to shower. -.- stupid? he bought that himself and he doesnt know what it was.

i did something similar before too. i used the hair gel to wash my hands. i was at xiaojun's house and i didnt know that it was a hair gel. so i just press one onto my hand and rub my hands together. at first i thought it was weird. no bubbles or foam came out. so i just was it off anyway. then i asked about it. stupid. i was laughed at. mama de. haha

Someone messaged me today. Really shocked. It's been more than 8 months or maybe one year and more? Im not sure. it come as a shock. wasnt really close to him at all but back when i am still a pain in the ass, i used to joke around with him. haha

Stupidity invaded Jeremy again. STUPID! he went to pierce his tongue. (ew) that would the classified as the most no-brainer thing he ever did. it's horrible.. haha. Empty headed guy. i guess being in SJI during his secondary school years doesnt make someone smarter huh?

the last few entries was really nice and good. hardly swear and complain about any shit in life. oh sorry, i drank the 'PISSED OFF' potion and now i am really pissed off.

fucking pop-ups. what the fuck, that would be one of the most irritating things on earth. it just suddenly pop-up every now and then. even when my computer was left alone and the pop-ups just came out of a sudden one by one. FUCK! i wonder who was the idiot who created this stupid idea. screw your own ass and die! excuse me? do you think that i will buy in shits like 'HEY, YOU HAVE JUST WON A MILLION BUCKS' or 'CONGRATS! YOU WON!' nah.. everyone would be visiting your site everyday just for your million bucks. but hell! no... nobody gives a damn about it that is why you got to use the low-cheap way to get people's attention. FUCKERS. you will never get rich!

yeah, it's true that i am crapping. i am fucking pissed off my shit in my computer!

i have no clue where this fucking porn software got into my computer. there was a 'UNINSTALL' button but even when i click onto it, the thing just stays on. fuck. i do not WISH TO LOOK AT YOUR PUSSY! SO CAN YOU GET OFF MY COMPUTER? im really a computer idiot. i dont even know where this software is located. It's really fine if it is just an icon on my main and when i click it, the thing will pop-up. but this is just another version of a fucking pop-up. it pops for no reason. and ask if i want to visit the website. HELL! NO.... CAN YOU FUCK OFF NOW? no... oh no... you wont.... hope your DICKS AND PUSSY ROTS.... fucker.

anyway, a fucker said to me

'I think my ex ( girlfriend) is prettier than you'

lame. when the hell am i not ugly? i hate your ex-girlfriend okay. she seemed to be this piece of shit living on the earth surface. CHILDISH BITCH! she is damn fucking old and all she do is to call people (like me) and all she did was 'HAHAHAHAHAHAA' over the line. come'on, at this age, i dont even do shit like this. she is older than me and she do that? dont crap. she sucks to the core. to be honest, she is not pretty. know what i mean? AND GUESS WHAT THIS GIRL DID!! she called herself 'CUTIE PIE' oh my god!

QUESTION: who gave her that idea?

obviously i freaked and laughed at it. come'on, this girl really sucks. she is more irritating than FANN WONG that piece of shit. worst, she looks worst than anyone i ever seen. and yes, i have been cursing her for more than 6months. she piss me off the first day i ever know her. im soo happy that we dont live near. anyway that guy is the same age as me. that means he prefers older girls. anyone wants? he looks like a bulldog with this extremely big head and he backstabs people. =D

oh well, blog later! im going off

My dad has promised that he will get me the bag that i want.. HAHA. that is great! it means that i can save money for my new spectacles next year! oh well.. i am lucky!! haha

many people likes to make a big fuss over the way i chat online.here is an example of how i chat

Me: Haha.... good for you...
Friend: not really
Me: Why not?
Friend: I dont want it to be like this
Me: haha.. but good what?
Friend: -.-
Me: Haha
( conversation above was type using short-form)

what's wrong with the freaking way i chat? people kept making a big fuss over it. Because? they feel that i 'HAHA' too much. what's the fucking problem?? why cant someone laugh? even if i 'HAHA' in an excessive manner, you cant hear it . im chatting with you over the net and me 'HAHA' too much only take space on the screen. so stop asking me not to do that. i tried to stop but it just come naturally to me to HAHA after or before a sentence.

someone called me a nerd. wow... im totally impressed. and the comment made was..

'You everyday study study study. all you care about is school work!!'

that would be the ideal me that i want and my parents would DREAM of having a daughter who is like this.

but fuck it. NO WAY. i dont even bother to touch books and there seemed to be thorns in my ass that i cant seat still for a long time to finish a book. unless i am interested, then the chances of me touching it would be closer to zero. i want to be a nerd too! that would at least means that i am fucking hard working and i spend all my time burrying my head in books and suck all the knowledge in my brains. that would at least make me brainy ( WHICH I AM FAR FROM IT). and i do not go to school. i complain the most when i have to get my butt to school for anything.!!

yesterday someone called me. i did not put the vibration on. so i was on the bus and i heard noises. it was really irritating and i was wondering who was the one who had his/her handphone ringing. just then, i found the tone familiar and took out my handphone to see. -.- it was mine which is ringing. yeah, im a dumbass. honestly i dont even know what ringtone i was using. there was once that is even worst. my handphone rang and i thought it was the CD- shop nearby playing techno songs. everyone looked at me as it was really loud. i didnt realize it until the person called me once more. stupid me.

im trying to save money right now. i want to get a bilabong bag.!!
im broke...

hbtywm

this entry was supposed to be published yesterday. but i when i was blogging i decided to stop and go sleep. i was fucking tired okay?

i went to the doctor (AGAIN). apparently i am free from all the worries about lung cancer or any nose-related cancer. which is good. so all the nose bleeding is just some skin which came off in my nose. anyway the doctor suggested me two ways to stop my nose from bleeding. maybe you would want to try it?

1) Put ice in a plastic bag and rub it around the nose area to let the blood vessels shrink.

hmm... good way. but what if i am in school? there is no way i can get ice in the toilet. so here comes the second way

2)Roll the tissue paper and stick it in your nose

-.- it doesnt matter if i do that at home. i always do weird things at home and i am rough at home. nobody cares even if i stick my toe in my nose. but the same question comes. WHAT HAPPENS IF I AM IN SCHOOL? no way i am gonna do that. NO WAY!

forget it.. i guess i will just bleed to death or something.

the secondary ones for next year came to school to register today. i was helping this lady and her child guiding their way out and carry one bag. (damn heavy) so the lady was reprimanding her child for choosing this school as she lives in CCK and our school seemed to be a thousand miles away. but there is a direct bus from CCK to the bus-stop just outside our school , so it doesnt seemed to a problem to me. so the girl tries to defend herself and me, being stupid again said something that i shouldnt

Girl: nevermind lah. i will wake up at 6 o'clock every morning
Lady asking me: 6'o clock can reach here meh?
Me: I think can. cause i wake up at 5 plus every morning also what.
Lady: you live far meh?
Me: No, very near.

stupid me.. scare the lady even more. haha. but i tried to explain the ' NO DIRECT BUS' from my house to school. but i think the lady wouldnt get it in her head i guess? haha

went to watch Phantom of the Opera. before that something unpleasant happened. but forget it. Didi, i really didnt blame you for anything. i did not put it in my heart at all..

Phantom of the Opera is really an excellent movie ( i feel that). some of the lyrics of the songs are really hard to catch but they really sing really well. Anyway, i feel that the female leading actress is really beautiful. she looks like she was taken out from the acient story book or something. true beauty. =D her eyes are really nice.

The phantom is also not bad looking ( half of his face ) haha. if in real life is he 10 years younger, he would be a hunk~ haha.

i cried a few times and as the movie is nearer to the end, i my tears kept rolling down. it's really sad when the whole society discriminate you for how you looks. LIKE ME!! UGLY.. the phantom's love was really really deep and all he yearns for is the girl. everything he did was for her.. anyway you cant blame the girl either. phantom has been doing it in the dark and she doesnt know that it's him and his feelings for her. i think that christine will still be in love with the GUY ( forgot the name) even if there is no phantom. so... put it in the harsh way

Phantom's feelings = One sided love.

if this story is true, then it is really pure misery for the phantom. did he asked for the way he is born to be like? no.... if he had the choice, he would also want to have a FULL smooth face and be like a normal person and not HALF smooth face and the other side disfigured.

Stupid christine said something that has the meaning like this

' The thing that scares people is not your face, it is the devil inside you'

come'on . dont crap. if you have been discriminated for almost ALL of your life, you would be blaming the whole world. Blame your parents for abandoning you, the whole world who teased and made fun of you and maybe even god. it really sucks.

i admit i really got this rotten mouth and i am prepared to go to hell and suffer and of course i will bring xiaojun with me. but i never laugh at people who are born to be like the way they are. it's the people who are really FINE ( normal ) and likes to do weird things that piss people off. really pity the people like phantom.

xiaojun and me talks nonsense. ALOT. but there is something i got to agree with her completely.

why didnt god create equality when he/she created humans?
(he/she depands on what religion you belief in)

it really sucks when DISCRIMINATION comes in. really sad case. this is something that will exist forever... really sad about it..

made a spelling mistake on my last entry. it should be Babble. not Babbler.

im pissed off by the porn stuff again. i dont know how the hell i got this porn software installed in my computer and i cant get it off. fucking wankers who designed that lame-o software. i dont know what to do right now. oh im sorry, i am really NOT interested in your vagina or anyone else. so can you jolly well fuck off my computer and never come back and huant me? it's irritating to have this pop-up crap asking me whether i want to watch porn when i have ZERO interest in it.

been really busy these days... did not get enough sleep. and i guess i will not either in the next few days. *yawns*

yes, i hate yellow. i HATE YELLOW. i also have no clue why. haha. there is this yellow taxi zooming around locally and whenever i see one, i will feel sick. i think im crazy.

lazy to blog. blog when i have more complains later. ta

i was on bus today. this would be one of the most disgusting bus trip i ever had. a few stops before reaching the final destination, i guess people go a little bit screwed lose. the old lady who was sitting beside me kept digging her nose. ( ew) i was really freaked out by that disturbing behaviour. then i heard this young kid saying something more ridiculous

'nevermind lah. i use my saliva to paste it back can liao'

-.- *screams* the kid was sitting quite far back and i heard it. imagine how loud it was. honestly i would HOPE , PRAY AND DO ANYTHING not to be the IT she was refering to.

went around the whole day and was on the MRT way home. then, i saw this man with hairy hands.so i told DIDI. after telling her, i turned my head and this guy was staring at me. apparently, he heard what i have said. Then, DIDI kept pointing at the hairy man. it really made me go -.-' someone already knew what i have said and by doing that, more people will know what we were talking about. -.-

two fucking no breast freaks.. i think you two should die or something. dont try to act like adults when you dont even have the two lumps on your chest. how the hell you two look so old? honestly, they are not flat chested. flat chested is still okay. they are like the run way of the airport. totally flat and no obstruction. or? they are guys in disguise? OMG~ sluts.

i was suppose to buy a birthday present. ended up buying junks and stupid stuff.

moronic black black made this comment about me!!

'aiya cit (sit) beside u summore die ar'

what the fuck? excuse me? did i affect you in any way? no! you selfish and full of ego in your self. your the proud ass who goes around and babbler about your ZERO acomplishment.

* points middle finger at my computer and screams fuck a hundred times* AHHH! this stupid computer is driving me crazy. (other than my parents this should be the first thing that piss me off that badly!) i wrote this really long entry just now and wanted to post it. what the fuck this idiotic machine do? HANG! dammit. i would throw this lousy computer away if i have money to buy a new one. FUCKING MACHINE!

im having fever again. i guess the medicine did not work to well. oh well~ let's SUE the doctor. (im just kidding) guess i should have rest more...

i always thought that i was one who make the most silly comments in my whole family. but i guess my mom likes to talk craps too. today she said THE false statement again. yes, you are right! she said..

SHE IS PRETTY!

honestly i do not wish to bring out that stupid maths equation out again to prove that her statement is totally imagination and crap. well, bear with it. i guess she have not wake up from her dreams and is still stuck in LALA land thinking that she is a princess or something. -.-

sometimes my mom is so 'blur' that the things she said is really funny. like today.. she said

'go ask your cousin how she fare for her exams le!'

my mom saw the newspaper found out that the N-LEVEL results came out. my cousin was waiting for her A-LEVEL results so it is impossible to know how she did for it. I laughed at my mom and explained to her the difference between N, O and A levels. then she said something else more ridiculous.

'oh... wah.. aiya... if hor, you take O -LEVELS then good arh'

-.- my mom doesnt know what the hell i am studying for in school. so i told her that i am going to take O levels next year. my mom was shocked! and she made a stupid comment which i forgot. i guess she isnt the only parent that doesnt know what the child is studying in school.

i dont know why i am thinking of the movie Titanic right now. a movie with really sad ending. i watched the movie when i was still young. when the ship was sinking, everyone was in tears and got really touched by the movie. in the movie there were people falling from the ship and into the waters. so there was this person who fell and hit on something. me, totally clueless and thought that it was funny laughed. i laughed quite loud and all my cousins heard it. they scolded me on the spot. haha. maybe i really deserve it or something. but it was really funny.

im sorry if i hurt you. i never meant to do that. im sorry..

my dad is driving me mad. he is now making this big fuss over my studies and TYS ( Ten year series). the story started out like this..

i was slacking as usual that day. so he came up to me and nag nag nag. so me, being a dumbass i told him

' who says? i got do okay. i only dont want to touch my geography tys' (i am still really pissed off about it. waste my 10 bucks over nothing when that stupid eddie lau is printing all the questions for us. and fucking tys, doesnt come with a answer sheet and i got to spend another 6bucks for it.)

so my dad asked what was TYS and i answered him... and he started to nag at me again and even make fun

'wah! i got 20-years series le! but what is the point if you dont touch it.. only got what... i also know.. you got doesnt mean you know everything that is in it'

wah... it totally pissed me off right away. stupid. really dont understand why do i have weird parents. my mom 'suans' me and my dad makes fun of me. people at this point will want BETTER parents who are supportive to them. but me? i wish that my parents dont even give a damn about my studies. it sucks when your dad tells you that you are dumb and everyday , that is the only responsibilities that he is doing.

so, just now my dad saw my homework list and starts to nag at me again. he is using the same old '20-years series' crap to piss me off. my dad picks on my bad points and whenever he has a chance to make fun of me, he will.. know why? because i have this witty brain and i make fun of him everytime and very often, he is so pissed off by me that he use his rank as MY DAD to pressure me just to keep my mouth shut. haha yeah i am a rude kid, so?

anyway anyone remembers the time when i and so pissed off with the person who left a message on my mailbox ( refer to 9 December 2004) i called back and this old woman ( i think she is old) answered. what can i say? i hanged up and she did not get back to me? weird.....

anyway i had a dream yesterday. i think you can considered as 2

1st dream
i dreamt that this person from xxx newspaper emailed me and decided to send me another copy for free because i have been making a big din over it. -.- weird

2nd dream
this is the funniest dream. i dreamt that i was in this factory that you are allowed to rent BRAs. -.- then the woman who was incharged gave me E-CUP bras.. omg... E-cup le.. ( wished i had it) haha

someone told me a truth today.but i guess it is not my problem anymore. so i wont give a big damn about it. =D

my mom cooked lunch for me yesterday. it's been like a million years ago since she last cooked a full meal for me. but it was really nice~ hehe..

i went to the doctor yesterday. even though i felt alot better but i still went.. i really do not wish to be staying up all night and feeling fucking uncomfortable about anything. obviously the doctor asked what's wrong with me. i poured out all my discomfort. he only ended with one word. 'cold' man.. this doctor is really cool. he doesnt say much.

of course i was given some medication. it was really awful and taste like crap.

'May cause drowsiness' seen this phrase before? i bet you will. it's often found on the sticker of your medicine package. usually i dont believe it and i found it nonsensical. most of the time it doesnt work on me. after eating medicine i am still very awake and dont feel any drowsiness or any crap. but this time. it's different. it's either that i am really really weak at this point or the doctor prescribe me with a really strong medicine. i took the medicine twice and each time.. i really feel veri sleepy within an hour. ho ho! this time, my insomnia problem is solved for a few days i guess. haha.

my nails are getting long right now. ( at least i feel that it is long) i never thought that i will keep my nails long. i remember me seeing xiaojun's finger and having a desire to cut them. her nails are really freaking long but it is really beautiful. at that point, i thought that i had this mental illness or something. i really couldnt stand long nails.

but now, look at my fingernails. haha.. i feel that they are long. ( although not like that xiaojun's) really dont bear to cut them off . ='c hai the long nails are causing me alot of problems.. like:

1) it scratches my handphone!! aahh

2)i cant open the tab of canned drinks.. ( i have fear of breaking my nails)

3) -.- i cant type my sms properly. ( use nails to press the buttons)

4) i kept looking at my nails.. psycho.. haha

really feel like cutting them but i think i wont. it's my effort. =D

anyway i went to read didi's blog just now and found out that someone abused boo's tagboard? urm okay..

HELLO IDIOT. what the hell you are thinking? it's obvious that the girl is fucking sad right there and you want to make fun? are you a moron or something? coward. leave your real name if you dare. it's a stupid behaviour okay. is it fun to make fun of others and in the end you are being bomb with words of insults by their friends? no.... you may think it is funny when you tagged that moronic message. but have you gave a thought for the person? oh.. it would be fun if one day you fall and people starts to rub salt on your wounds. dont worry, that day would come. =D

anyway, im going to take my medicine now and get drowsy once again... i will blog later! haha

im sick now....

last night was even worst. i was running high fever. i paled and my cheeks was a little pinkish. ( can you believe it?) after that i got worst and my whole face turned red and i look like i am drunk. i couldnt sleep the whole night and i was feeling like shit. let me be honest at this point. i cried. i was really uncomfortable. the worst part was my mom was telling me off when i sat in the living room alone in the midnight. i know that she is concerned about me. but i really need encouragements better than that.

im feeling less shit-off compared to yesterday.. but i am really tired.. i couldnt sleep at all.. =c

feel that this is some kind of punishment or something. since i like to bullshit so much and talk nonsense. the virus decided to invade me when i am at my weakest point and give me a cold that affected my throat. it really hurts to even sneeze. feel a sharp pain on my shoulders and neck whenever i sneeze.

as each day pass, the holidays is closer to its end.. but before that, christmas is coming. i really dont give a damn about christmas or anything. im not a christian so i wouldnt spend my time going to city harvest.

your birthday is the special one. i know you wouldnt be reading this but.. i would still want to wish you the best of luck.. really learn alot of things from you.. things i never knew. i really dont know why you are so special to me. you are rooted in my heart.. so deep that nothing can be replaced. i only hope that your happy right now. that is the only thing i can do.. the sunshine you once thought was the source of your life now has become the reason why you are hurt.

this would be one of the 'nicer' entry i blog. = D enjoy

changed my skin again. the main reason i changed to this skin is because of the song. it's quite nice. haha. you probably be thinking that the skin i used is often different from the way i blog. yes, i know that this girl 'swears' too much.

the reason why vulgarities and rules exist has a common goal.
rules are meant to be broken
vulgarities are meant to be swear

if not, why people even inventing this kind of nonsense out. or.. maybe they are like me. bored to death and weird things just pop out of their mind! haha and the rest of the world decides to FOLLOW the trend.

i noticed that my blog entries are relatively long. so i will cut short it from today onwards. haha.. i will try .. im sorry if a long entry pops up the next day and im blogging craps again

Things are getting more and more expensive these days.

I went to buy newspaper today. let me be honest. i NEVER use my own money to buy newspaper before and the first time i did, i have this really bad impression engraved in my heart. dammit! how come the newspaper is so expensive?!?! 80cents okay! i can spend the same amount of money on THE SUNDAY TIMES ( not with my money of course) and get TWO TIMES the thickness of newspaper i bought today. the worst part is they ate out one of the section that should be there. but FUCK!! i cant find it after searching it for many times!

here you go again thinking that i am 'making a big deal' once again. NO WAY! it's always the small things that matters the most. every dollar and cent counts. if you think that 80cents is just ' a small sum of money that i did not even bother when i lose it' then you are WRONG!

let's do a calculation. One week, there are 7 days. out of it, you buy the over-charged newspaper for 5 days.
0.80 x 5= $4
there are 4 weeks in a month
4x4=$16
there are 12 months in a year
16x12=$192

oh.. now 192bucks seemed to be a big sum of money if you are constantly buying sheets for paper? haha. really pissed off by the missing section in the newspaper.

im sick right now.. i dont know what the hell it is but it is pissing me off really badly and i am irritated by it.

anyway, the following content that i am going to blog is going to be explicit material. SO, DO NOT SCROLL DOWN ANYMORE IF YOU CANT STAND IT. i would advice you not to read anyway.

i was checking my email and found out something. almost 90% of it is spam and 50% of the spam are send to get people to porn websites. crap.

if you are advertising on DICK ENLARGEMENT PILLS, fuck off. i do not have balls and dick stick between my legs. and not ALL males will be attracted to a topic like this. size doesnt matters, it is the QUALITY that matters. get it in your thick skull.

i dont know which idiot signed my email in porn websites and i have got alot of emails with topics like ( sorry, bear with me for a little while) 'want to see my pussy? you wont regret' and other crappy topics close to that.(pussy = vagina)

what? you are telling me that you have a very special vagina that i HAVE to and MUST see so i wont regret ? is it make of GOLD or DIAMOND? soo special that you have to FLOOD my mailbox to get me to see? or if i see it and i make a wish, the wish will come true. do i get benefit if i see it? NO! i dont know how many millions of idiots out there PAY just to see it. but i really dont give a big damn about it.

im really pissed off with all kinds of junk mails.. i spend a great deal of time deleting them again and again. even if i filter it off, some how it will get back using another email address. PAY me if you want send me junk for me to delete.

i hate chain-emails too. come'on, do you really believe in email cursing? my life is in total fucked up you can curse whatever you want. there was once i was so pissed off with all the chain-letter, i went to look for the source of this particular chain-email and send it back to the person who started it. not one email. but 10 copies of it. haha. i can flood the mail box with 100 email every 30minutes. but i decided not to. instead, i send another email to curse the person like mad.

yes, i am crazy, so what?

Let me announce proudly the time at this point =D and yes, i am honoured to say it is........

3.08am

you might be wondering what this dumbass is doing online and updating my stupid blog. im really sad to say.. i have been suffering from insomnia for the past few weeks and it is getting worst and worst. yesterday i was only able to doze off at 6am in the morning. im really pissed and i feel that i should go see a doctor or something to pop in some sleeping pill to get over this idiotic crisis. someone HELP!! tell me some idiotic ways to get myself to bed. no blood, no pain, no counting and no hurting of people and animals. haha.

its 12th December! what it means? Happy Birthday Bear Bear!! 19th birthday anyway. haha. hmm....

one year older = one year closer to marriage ??? :x

we will see about it.. haha. anyway i wished him good luck on 12am. hope i am the first one who make his day special? after doing that, i regreted. i should have not do that. -.- his girlfriend should be the one. haha... but oh well.. what is done has done. haha

im now really pissed. i have this 3 fucking volcano-like pimple on my face. ahhhh.... it reminds me of the last time i had this really awful skin problem. when i was secondary two. (anyway that was just last year.... haha) im not saying that i have PREFECT skin right now. honestly i dont. but it was really awful when i was secondary two.

i had ALOT of pimples. mostly small ones all over my face. let's be frank, i never give a damn about my face. i seldom wash it before going to bed. im lazy, in other words. even though at that time i had the skin problem, i still insist of my way of doing things. NOT WASHING IT. then the pimples went away and until now i still hold firmly to my laziness , i did not learn my lessons at all. haha.

Remember DiDi really yearns to get to JJC because she lives oppsite of it. then, i gave a really deep thought.

'Must i aim for NTU too? since i can see it when i open my damn window?'

i dont know. i really hope to study overseas next time. HOPE. haha. but honestly it is good to have a target. at least you will work on it. i dont. the only thing i do was to daydream most of the time. Hope that DiDi will get into JJC as she wished for..

Last night when i went out to have my dinner, i saw my ex-primary school mate. i did not go up to her and say hi. i wasnt close to her in the first place. when we were still in primary school, even i saw her, i did not even go up and greet her. haha.

she really changed alot. SHE IS SOO ELEGANT! i think she either had the word 'ELEGANCE' tattooed on her forehead or that she drank some 'MAKE ME ELEGANCE' potion. to be frank, she is not pretty. but its her elegance that make you notice her. in my memory, i remembered her as this really nice girl. haha. hmmm.. time really change a person. haha.

I had two dreams yesterday. But let me talk about one. the other one is quite freaky.

I dreamt that that UGLY BITCH OF THE CENTURY WITH FRYING-PAN SIZE HEAD AND BULL DOG FACE aka Anges. (how come ur face so big?!?!?) so that ugly woman was inspecting teacher and their performance. 2 teacher at a time. So it was Mr Neo And Mr Eddie Lau's turn. so they sat on the table each. after inspecting Mr Neo, that ugly woman carried on and went to Mr Lau. So that woman check and i forgot what she said. ( anyway i was sitting behind with someone else. i forgot who) Then Mr Lau cried. -.- haha. he said that the bulldog kept picking on him and he cried. after that, all the teachers crowd around them all had their fingers pointed to them and said 'YA, YA'

weird dream huh? haha

I just realised something...

People with their height ending with the number 8 likes to laugh at people shorter than them.

I think it is a curse or something. i used to make fun of two of my friend.

One is Ming. he was really irritating. he is said he had two height. 172 and 174. 172 is his actual height and 174 is the height after he wore high heels. -.-

excuse me? MISTER. you are a GUY. why the hell would you even want to wear high heels? for that i laughed at him for 2 whole years for being short. hahaha. on the 2nd year, he complained. he said that i was this witch that cursed him to be short. he went to measured his height in school and he shrunk to 168. lol. i am really no witch okay. haha.

the other one was Jim.. he really did not say anything and for some reason i 'sort of' laughed at him and this is our conversation.

Me: Oh.. you play basketball for what huh?
Jim: my interest and i want to grow taller.
Me( knowing that he was 164 at the time): i never play le. then i already 161
Jim: -.-' *(%*%*)!@$%&*()_@#$^&*(

okay. i am a little cocky. curse me as you liked. haha.

so back to the 'People with their height ending with the number 8 likes to laugh at people shorter than them'

I remembered the first person who called me shorty was Jiahui. -.- she was 168 at that time. and she was just there laughing and telling me how short i was. okay fine. that aint THAT bad.

then, it came this asshole. 168 also. he was laughing at me really hard and said

'oie, you cook hor, can see the rice anot?'

you might wonder, how come the person is so evil. honestly, he aint that tall either. he is a guy and a height like that for a guy is considered short... that thicked skin idiot dare to laugh at me and said i am short!! can you believe him?

the next one was the worst mocking i ever had. Jeremy. he is 188. stupid . why would anyone even want to grow that TALL!! i think his interest of laughing at me came after i had this conversation with him.

Me: oie jeremy, your bed big anot?
Jeremy: no, i dont have a bed
Me: haha! wah. you so 'LONG' you cant even sleep on a bed. sad arh you.

after a short year, he indirectly mocked at me for being short. this is our recent conversation.

Jeremy: dont worry, you are only abt ONE LONG RULER shorter than i am..
Me ( thinking that he was 185): no!! 24 cm only
Jeremy: what! i am 188! there's a difference of 27cm. close to a LONG RULER okay? * and he said something else which is disgusting*
Me: *shuts up*

it seemed that every bad thing on earth a human can have i have it in my blood. the worst one was people calling me pervert. haha.. i am really not okay. i only call that the Beginner's level. i have not start on the advance level and talk dirty with you people. HAHA. jk. i am not dirty minded!!

Wasnt in the mood to blog the last few days.. my days rot more and more as one pass and the next comes. (ROTTEN DAYS).. but forget it. i dont wish to talk about it

SOMEONE left a message in my voicemail yesterday. it's driving me nuts. All i heard was this kid behind talking nonsense. So i messaged that number around 7plus. No reply. I messaged again at 8plus. (nite)

you might be going ' Oh.. ur making a big deal out of it.. maybe the person got the wrong number'

1) I have a voice message ( WHICH IS MY FUCKING BITCH OFF VOICE) to GREET your damn auditory system before you can even leave a voicemessage to piss me off. so if you hear that croaking voice of mine, you should have already end the call cause you got so unlucky and dialled the wrong number!

2) It piss me off when people leave a message and did not talk. EVEN IF THERE IS A KID BEHIND, IT STILL COUNTS

3)I think that person called the same number before. I remembered hearing the same kid babbling nonsense about spiderman the other time.

4) YOU WASTED MY 28CENTS!! ( i use pre-paid for that number!)

obviously the reason you do not wish to reply my message is either that you do not know how to SEND a message or you want to hide from me. Please, if you are that person. CALL ME!! or i will huant you at night. HAHA.

I was watching Sesame Street a few days back. I forgot when. so it came ERNIE. the honest looking orange coloured puppet. so Ernie was introducing about this picture this kid drew. Honestly, if you throw that picture to me, i do not know how to even start off. It looked like an inverted rainbow. To be frank, that kid draw alot better than me when i was at that age. But man, that kid was Rude or he had alot of crap in his nose.

Ernie (pointing at the picture ): so what is this?
Kid ( One Finger in his nose and the other pointing ): This is *blah blah blah*
Ernie: Oh! so this is *blah blah blah*
Kid( STILL DIGGING HIS NOSE): yes *explains*
Ernie: * said something. i forgot what*
Kid( Rubs the nose and use THE FINGER tht he stick in nose and point at the picture)

Me, As the viewer : -.-'

lol. i really wonder how many of us will go on this tv show that is telecast world-wide and dig our nose. Its horrible. Okay, that it as the kid is young and he doesnt know anything. But did your parents tell you to do it is PRIVATE and not infront of SOMEONE. even if Ernie is a puppet. There is still this person below controlling him okay. haha.. maybe when he kid grows up and reads this, he will start to curse me like hell. Haha...

posted an entry yesterday. this stupid blog ate the entry.

i dont know what is the fucking problem with it. this is the 2nd time my entry is EATEN up and gone. stupid!! i spent a great amount of time typing all the crap up and it ended up GONE!! missing. real dammit!! asshole.. the worst part is my computer likes to hang and show me attitude!!

ahh... everything sucks.. haha

i was out the other day night. so i was walking and stood beside the traffic light waiting for it to turn green before i can cross the damn road. it was really a long wait.. i can easily jay-walk and get across the fucking damn road. but i didnt. I STILL WANT MY PATHETIC LIFE OKAY? i mean at least i dont want to die in this manner where all my blood is splashed on the road and when i die my soul will come back and huant the road like nothin. honestly, i wont wish to have a horrible death like this.

i looked blankly at the other side of the road. i wanted to cross it very badly. i wasnt in a rush or something. i just dont wish to stand there and wait like an idiot. then a long horn of a car sounded.

this guy was holding something in his hands. he was too engross in it that he tried crossing the road without even looking at the traffic lights. as all of you know. honestly, it was really embarrassing. and NO i did not laugh at the situation. i am in the same situation tons and tons of times. why the hell would i laugh or smirk at him. so the guy was really embarrassed. and obviously he needs to cross the road but he couldnt face the look on the people around him. guess what he did?

He walked back and stood there. with his butt facing the people who are opposite of him. -.-

forget it. so when i finally cross the road. i took a close look on what he was engross in. it was at night and too dark . i couldnt see anything when i was opposite the road. guess what that almost caused his life. HIS FINGER NAILS.

yo man.. stupid move...

anyway i will come back and blog later.... haaha

i was out the other day night. so i was walking and stood beside the traffic light waiting for it to turn green before i can cross the damn road. it was really a long wait.. i can easily jay-walk and get across the fucking damn road. but i didnt. I STILL WANT MY PATHETIC LIFE OKAY? i mean at least i dont want to die in this manner where all my blood is splashed on the road and when i die my soul will come back and huant the road like nothin. honestly, i wont wish to have a horrible death like this.

i looked blankly at the other side of the road. i wanted to cross it very badly. i wasnt in a rush or something. i just dont wish to stand there and wait like an idiot. then a long horn of a car sounded.

this guy was holding something in his hands. he was too engross in it that he tried crossing the road without even looking at the traffic lights. as all of you know. honestly, it was really embarrassing. and NO i did not laugh at the situation. i am in the same situation tons and tons of times. why the hell would i laugh or smirk at him. so the guy was really embarrassed. and obviously he needs to cross the road but he couldnt face the look on the people around him. guess what he did?

He walked back and stood there. with his butt facing the people who are opposite of him. -.-

forget it. so when i finally cross the road. i took a close look on what he was engross in. it was at night and too dark . i couldnt see anything when i was opposite the road. guess what that almost caused his life. HIS FINGER NAILS.

yo man.. stupid move...

anyway i will come back and blog later.... haaha